Finding your worth
sounds like
it will feel so good
all the time
but sometimes
it gets lonely
standing by yourself.

And you start to wonder
if its worth it
because
it would feel so good
to fold myself
into your arms
and welcome you
inside of me.

That is when
you must be strong.
That is when
you must remember
that you are
a Queen.

I used to think,
'Why am I not good enough'
to deserve his love
for him to stay
for him to want
to build a life with me.

But today I thought,
'How could he not love me'
For I am a goddess
a divine being
a beautiful creature
overflowing with love and light.

Silly boy.
You abandoned
the most beautiful love
you could ever find.

You don’t know who sadness is.
You and anger are not on a first-name-basis.
You’ve never sat down,
and talked with embarrassment.
You shut hurt into a closet,
and stuff pain under the bed.
You don’t open the door,
when fear comes knocking,
and you changed your address,
so that guilt cannot find you.

You think you’re so clever-
that only happiness knows your name,
that confidence is your best pal.
You think you’ve tricked fate,
avoided the indignation of the world.

And maybe you have.
But in doing so,
you have eluded many other things.

You don’t know appreciation
-which comes from grief.
You don’t know calmness
-that comes from anger.
You don’t know devotion
-born from vulnerability.


Perhaps the most tragic of your losses
is the absence of love.
The beautiful parts of love
that come from knowing fear,
pain, anger, sadness, remorse,
and the other unpleasant colors of life.

I know love-
he is an old friend of mine.
He joins me and grief some days.
He comes to visit when cruelty has overstayed her welcome.
He even makes surprise visits, after anger
has left her destructive path.

To avoid the darkness might afford you
the comfort of escaping many of life’s unpleasantries,
But it will cost you.
The appreciation of
true joy
true peace
and true love.