Every I love you I said 

sounded a little more

like a goodbye

but it was only because

your heart is a restless ocean 

and I never was good
with learning 
the tide cycles

I.
Hell for me was knowing I'd never love another the same way I loved you.

II.
They tell me someone can't be both the poison and the curing potion but you somehow managed to cure a wound and cause another.

III.
I remember the exact moment I fell in love with you except I wasn't just falling, I was drowning. I should've known.

IV.
Everything reminds me of you, even the things that don't.

V.
We met at the wrong time. I'm still waiting for the moment you and time are on my side.

VI.
When we first met I was blue. I didn't love my sadness until  you told me your favorite color was navy blue.

VII. 

I loved the cold until I found an indescribable winter inside me the day you left.

There were words
Waiting to be said
There were things
Hidden in my head
That would hurt him
So I kept quiet instead

You always said
"10 years down the road
we'll laugh about this!"
but it's almost been 3 years
and I can barely talk about it
above a whisper

I. Realize that everything is temporary-including your happiness, including your sadness.

II. Sit down at a table for two and realize your heart is big enough to fill up both seats.

III. Cry out with the rain enough tears to fill an ocean and teach yourself how to swim.

IV. Scream their name into the wind until the wind itself decides to take it away.

V. Begin watching supernovas. Realize how beautiful something can be even when it has been dead for years.

VI. Look in the history books. Realize that even the best love stories all had to come to an end.

VII. Realize that surviving heartbreak is not as clean cut as a mathematical equation. It is a messy art.

You'll always be my soulmate
you'll always have
a part of my heart
and that scares me
but science says
that after 7 years
every cell in my body will be replaced, so maybe in 7 years
I will be a new person
and you will be someone else
and I will no longer love you
with the undying love that I do