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Emily BR Mar 2015
So torn apart
So confused and cursed
Like blood in my veins
I'm hot and tempered.
To much to say
To much to cry,
Like rivers in spring
I flood with the cold.
What is happening
To my beautiful self
That I once knew?
What happened to my thoughts
That were ever so clear.
My heart and mind, like cat and dog
Fight each other until one is hurt.
Confused and scared
I don't know what to do!
Waves that crash
And words that speak
Hit me with darkness
and with fright.
I want to scream and I want to cry
Dear God in heaven
why is this here?!
Why is this now?!
I'm hurt and in pain
Does no one understand?
I am dying and no one is there.
Please God, will people only watch and stare?
Emily BR Apr 2015
As the sun awakes,
I rub my tired eyes,
I slip on my slippers,
Then turn to face you.
You are still asleep,
Dreaming dreams of heaven,
Of love,
And us.
I start to move,
But a hand touches my hand.
So soft
So gentle
You have have awoken.
You say:
Please stay
And be with me.
I look down and see your face
Smiling so much
How could I say no?
Coming back,
I snuggle into you.
One small Eskimo kiss just for you.
I stay and lay
I listen and feel
The heart beat that we make.
It is just so real.
Then all around everything fades.
I wake up.
Its just a dream.
I cry and I look up to the heavens.
Please.
Grant me my dreams.
And I fall back asleep to dream once more.
Emily BR Jun 2015
Its pouring rain as I walk dangerously in the night.
Lightning cracks the night sky into white light.
Thunder rumbles like monsters hunger.
I pass the tangle weeds and creatures fingers that scare my body.
The Blood now drips from my face as I go through these woods, of lies and hurt.
Another crack of lightning brightens my fears.
I shiver as the rain pour on my face, sting the open wounds.
Thunder is stronger, as the monsters seek me.
Another crack, of blue and white, follows me as I run.
Vines of poison draw near as I feel the fear.
They come to me thirsty for life.
I run.
I cry.
I fall.
Monsters, vines, creatures and death come to me.
Taking over me.
Slowing they **** my life out of me.
Dead.
Finished.
Gone.
They have me, they got me, they killed me.
Emily BR Apr 2015
Jealousy has slithered up to me.
Grasping my neck as I struggle to be free.
It has graps of my heart with  the bite of poison,
Which puts anger and frustration there.
I can't breath and everything is dark.
Just like the way you talk about her.
Dark.
No I am not saying that I hate her
But because of her, I am dying by the power of jealousy.
Another bite,
Another sting,
I feel the deathly poison run in my viens.
It is so painful,
So fast.
I cry for help.
But no one, not even you can bring me back
From this awful poison of
Jealousy.
Really wish I wasn't this jealous. I can't even really say why I should be. Its not like he is mine... -_- guess I have to live with it.
Emily BR Mar 2015
What have you done to me?
What is the cause of this?
Did I do something?
Did I cause something?

Why am I feeling like this?
Why am I feeling love?
How did you enter into my heart?
How did you catch me if I never fell?

Who thinks that dreams can come true?
Who thinks that reality is the only thing?
Where did you find me?
Where did you hook me?

When did this all happen?
When did this occur?
How did you get me?
What do you see?

I have so many questions,
I want so many answers.
Please help me,
So I can be free.
Some questions will never be answered. But all I know if I have hope and I seek the answers, they will come eventually. Oh and on a side note this needs to be edited a bit more. Oh well...
Emily BR Mar 2015
I
Listened ever so carefully
Obeying my heart, hearing music of
Violins that have played for us.
Every day passes and I see
Your face.
Oblivious to this feeling of
Utter saddened love.
Emily BR Mar 2015
I want to grab your tie
And pull you in.
Just one kiss
Is my final wish.
Its a dream that
I ever so hold,
That won't be here
In a thousand years.
I miss everything
From your smile
To your slow dance
To the way you glance.
You seemed so awed
But alas it won't be
Because of me
There won't be we.
I'm ever so sorry
You have to go through
The heartaches
And heartbreaks.
I am sorry
So so sorry.
Emily BR Mar 2015
Love at its finest
Has come to late.
Its works are magic,
Its works are fate.

I am too afraid
To see the fall.
I want it to go,
I need it to stall.

My heart is crying
My lungs are dead.
The birds are coming,
They will be fed.

I am too afriad
To see the fall.
I want it to go,
I need it to stall.
Emily BR Mar 2015
I had a choice to make,
But I blew it.
I should have picked
The one that knew.
Being this hurt tells a lot
To me,
This is it
This is the best fit.
You knew it would work out.
You knew that everything would be
Alright.
I was suborn
Naïve
Stupid
And selfish.
I only can hope now
That it isn't too late
To make another choice,
The final choice.
Choices are hard. And I hate it so much. But after thinking about everything I think I know what to do.
Emily BR Apr 2015
Beautiful but deadly
Happy but depressed
Seen but hidden.
Tears that flow cannot be seen
Even if you look hard enough
The poison you cannot see.
Just one glance and you're hooked.
Just one try and you are gone.
But no one told you of the death it brings.
Slowly it puts the poison in your veins,
It starts so slow, until you notice.
By then its too late.
It suffocates you,
It eats you,
It kills you.
Don't try.
Don't let it thrive.
Take it off.
Even the beauty won't be able to cure
What has eaten you,
Alive.
Emily BR Mar 2015
I am not sure
What you are doing.
If you are trying to help or trying to ****.
You think you know me
You may be wrong.
To **** is death
And death is darkness.
Oh how our hearts have darkened
I now see no light.
You have taken it
You stolen it
And you have buried it.
Now I have no hope
No light
No happyness.
You said u knew me,
Well you were wrong.

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