My walls are paper thin
yet I no longer hear your voice

I think it scares you

I think you wish you could forget me

I think you wish her eyes were mine

I think every time we talk, you're scared

I think you know that I would hurt you again

I think the two years we shared haunts you

I find you between the pages of textbooks
I see you in Christmas lights

My past and present is skewed
and I don't know if tomorrow is yesterday

And you thrusted your last knife into my chest

As the thick red water poured out of my body

                                            I laughed

You always did love the rain

Everyday since our last you have been a constant reminder of my mistakes.

Dear boy with so much ahead,
I wish you would accept my apologies and take me with you

Dear boy with tanned skin,
You took my innocence and left me in the dark

Dear boy whose stopped loving me,
I wasn't able to save you not because I didn't want to, but I wasn't done saving myself

Dear boy who found love in someone else,
I want you to come back if something goes wrong
                                                           ­                               
                                                                ­                            I'm sorry

-E.R.

My hollowed eyes can't see tomorrow
My skin won’t grasp tomorrows light

You left me in the storm
You left me in the river mud

Buried me, beneath your secrets
And left.

Now I lay
Beneath the Stars

Now I lay
Now I lay
Now I lay

You are no longer I
and I no longer you

For tomorrows light won’t meet my skin

Yet the comfort I am left with
is that I am no longer
a shell floating above the water

I am the river.

E.R.

I think for the first time in my life
I am scared of tomorrow

But this tomorrow isn't something that hides in my closet
It isn't something that my mother can scare away

Tomorrow is something that hits you before you know it

Tomorrow is like breaking your leg the day before a marathon