The sun sets outside my window
As it rises outside yours

I feel your hands around me as it snows
As the wave envelopes your bronzed arms

And I can't believe you're not here
And I can't believe I let you leave

I pray everyday that you aren't the one
I pray everyday that I haven't found my soul mate so soon

Because that would mean that I lost my only chance of having my other half

So please when you get back
Try to remember the
christmas lights
the swing set
and me

Gripping on to
Tomorrow
When I am unable to hold on to
Today

This house still feels shattered
no matter what day

Yet holding on
to something tangible
Makes me think you could have stayed

For today is not tomorrow
And yesterday is
not today

E.R.

Why I ramble when I'm nervous
2. Why I'm so bad at Spanish and Math
3. Why I pick fights with my mother
4. Why my hands are always cold
5. Why I feel like I'm alone
6. Why I am such a cliche
7. Why I let you go
8. In reference to number 7 refer to number 6

It's sad to think
that you have never touched this new skin

You haven't touched
these new palms

It's sad to think
I haven't see the inside of your car
since the summer

I haven't heard
your laugh
since the sun kissed my cheeks

Sitting here
in the dark
enveloped in a physical and metaphorical storm
I can't help but feel an ironic need for your lips
your embrace

And these cape cod skies wont bring you back
And these raindrops that race down my window wont bring you back
And my sorry means as much as my love

and to you it doesn't mean as much

E.R.

They say children of divorce
grow up emotionally divided

They say that a child of divorce struggles to understand love

My mother and father stopped loving each other on my 5th birthday
with Popsicle stained lips and bruised knees
I said goodbye to my father

Now 12 years later
I do not feel divided
I feel scared
I feel that love is a monster hiding in my closet
and there is no one here to tell me that monsters don't exist

E.R.

The sun kisses your shoulders
The warm sun endlessly embraces you

I send you endless apologies
And a never ending stream of "I love you's"

I can only hope you find someone
that truly loves your freckles
and your annoying crooked smile
and the way you constantly made me question my opinions

Because at the end of the day
I am no longer there to be held by the love of my life
and I can only wish you to understand why

E.R.

I left
I ran

It rained
It snowed

and I never called
never reached out for you

and when I did
it was too late

You moved on

Once a vibrant red
Now Grey


E.R.