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Dev A Mar 2015
I've slipped back into my abyss;
Everywhere I look, I see darkness.

Looking out at the world
I find it hard to see the beauty and color as I used to.

My abyss has dragged me back into its depths
Hooking its claws into me; not wanting to let go.

The cost of crawling back into the light
Will be higher than it was before.

I've slipped back into my abyss
Everywhere I look, I see darkness.
Dev A Feb 2015
Don't think for a second
That just because you're
Kind
Sweet
Thoughtful
That I'll open up to you quickly.

My heart has been sealed
Protected by
Locks
Chains
Fortresses
Layers upon layers.

Whether you want to be friend or lover
You must understand
I prefer books to people;
They are less likely to let you down.
You'll have to gain my trust over and over again;
I've been hurt too many times.
If I let you in, take what I give you;
Not everyone gets past my walls.

Don't assume you know me
Just because I opened up
I have given all of me
To very few people.
Most only have a part or two.

As much as you may make me laugh
Or as much fun as we may have I'm still
Cautious
Wary
Tentative
About letting you get too close.

Just because I don't talk to you
Every second of every day, means I need
Time to myself
Peace and quiet
To sort my thoughts
As I recharge from spending time with people.
Dev A Jan 2015
I love laying next you
Drawing circles on your hand
As I use your arm for a pillow.

I love seeing your texts
After a long day of classes
Right when I need cheering up.

I love that you make me laugh
No matter what mood I'm in
When you make a silly face.

I love that even when I'm mad at you
It never lasts long
Because I'm always drawn to you.

I love the way you are
When it's just the two of us
Talking by our selves.

I love that you're a giant puppy
Looking for new ways
To keep me entertained.

I love that you check up on me
When you think you've angered me
So you can make sure I'm ok.

I love sitting beside you on the bed
Watching dog videos on YouTube
On a Friday night.

But most of all

I love that the person you are with me
Is kind and caring
And never a ******.
  Jan 2015 Dev A
The Girl Who Loves You
Write* me down
Paint me bright
Draw me beautiful
Watch me fight

Know my heart
Feel my soul
Think about me
Don't lose control

Don't let me fade
Don't let me die
Show me the way
Don't make me cry

Sing my chorus
Type my plays
Remember my words
Love me **always
  Jan 2015 Dev A
Eudora
That I know..

You are very much hurting everyday
You feel like you just can't get away
Tears of blood cloud in your eyes till you can't see
Hurting and hurting longing to be free

Tears congregate and form into a puddle
Silently you are masking the pain, the struggle
All these while you are suffering in silence
Quietly resisting the emotional violence

You lift your eyes, but dimmed with grief
Your sorrow lends but only weak relief
You die everyday, you are wearied
It's like you're dressed at the funeral of regret, not yet buried

The stabbing pain you don't wish to bare
Nothing could make you feel better even if you share
You are gathering the strength you have in your soul
To beat the drums, feed the fire with coal

You are dipping your pain in inkwell heart
And scrawling out what you are feeling
Those words becoming the tourniquet
You don't know when your heart will stop bleeding
How do I tell you..that I know..
Dedicated to all the all the bleeding hearts out there..
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