i've never let go of your hand, even when you don't have the strength to hold mine

I'm just missing you tonight
As the rain beats its staccato rhythm
I just wish you were beside me
Warm, comforting...home

In this minute that is neither night nor day
I wonder how you are, so far away
That I cannot touch you or hold you close
That we cannot even share the same moon

It's selfish, I know, that I miss you because...
You make me stronger, braver
You make me feel, you make me hope
You make me love myself a little more

I'm selfish, I know...
I wonder if you feel my thoughts
If you're thinking of me too
If...

You stumbled upon me
     when I was down on my knees.
Broken, I told you not to bother,
     but you knelt beside me
     and reached out a hand.
Helping me up slowly,
     you showed me your own
     bruised and ****** body.
And I knew you had been stuck
     down there before too.
So I met your eyes cautiously
     and let you guide me to my feet.

I think if you had stopped there,
     we wouldn't be here today.
But you weren't content
     with just setting me on my feet.
You gave me a step up,
     then another,
          and another,
until you had me on a pedestal
     I never wanted.
I was never meant to be
     the princess in the tower.
I can't live up to that.
Heights scare me,
     and the air suffocates up there.
So with the pressure pushing in,
     I did the only thing I could
     to free myself from the fearful view.
                                                           ­           I jumped.

shattered bottles
glistening
on moon drenched streets

even as a broken pair
we're prettier than
most things well

Quiet now.
I can’t hear you speak.
These thoughts that my mind bears.
Hollow tongue in cheek.

I purge you from my thoughts.
I go on for a time.
Then you come crawling back
from the darkest corners of my mind.

What is this emptiness?
What of this pain I bear?
Why won’t you let me be?
Or else admit you care?

You push me away again.
And silence devours us two.
I’m back at square one again,
trying to forget about you.

It hurts me on these nights.
When I can’t have you near.
You pull away because you’re afraid,
but you’re not alone with this fear.

I know not what tomorrow holds.
Nor when my time on this earth is through.
I know not what plagues your thoughts,
or if I matter to you.

This silence, it has consumed me.
And forever, you grow afar.
I try to move on without you,
but long to be where you are.

Yet this is the path you’ve chosen,
as I seek a future long gone.
Reaching out for a helping hand,
I find that I’m alone.

I purge these voices from my mind,
and this goodbye, I disavow.
I long for the world in my dreams,
yet, they’ve grown quiet now.