i wanna **** in your blanket
in the pouring rain
and look at the way the stars gaze
black-washed night
empty road
the howl of an owl
cricket's song
leafs smell within the grass outside
can we just take a moment of our life?
just enjoy the now?
without thinking about what should've done,
without thinking what we've done,
without thinking about what we are,

in this quite night
we pray,
your warm arms hug me like a tourniquet
your shaved chin rubbing through out my back
your chaped lips touching my soft air cheeks

can we just stop at this moment?
make a loop so we can turning back the time,
all over again?
without saying good bye
without asking for a hello
without making everything's hard to believe?

please,
just stay a while
and we can pray
together, again.

Just funny how rain kissed me better than your lips.
How my sweater fits me better than your arms did.
How my boots wrapped my pale barefoot than your leg sweep.

Just funny how I used to look at the sky just as much as I look at you.
How I used to touch you like I touch the softest fur.
How I used to lock up my finger around yours, it felt like a desire to me.

Is it love that has a time limit?
Then how about the people who say,
"I'll love you til the end of time."
"Loving you is like waiting things that never see it coming but sure if it'll happens."
"If water dries up, fire gets cold, I'll always love you, forever."
Is that true?
Is that really meant to be said?


- dlx

today,
I don't know what I feel
Or what should I feel
it feels like
You flied me to the moon
And then,
You leave me there alone,
Without a second,
You straight put yourself down the earth
And i don't know when you come back

Is like, i don't have to feel this feeling anymore
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this

And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you

I hate you, I love you,
hate that I love you
i don't want to,
but I can't put nobody else unless you

Messed around and got attached to you
Stranger can break your heart too,
And I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that things.
I type a text but then I never mind that,
I got these feelings but you never mind this tho.

And if I were you, I would never let me go
My friends said that you are not worthy to deserve the things that I gave to you,
All my nights, my thoughts, and all of me.


I don't mean no harm
I just miss you so harmless
have you ever wonder what we could have been?
Now all of my words and all my feelings are all mixed up
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop dreaming,
But I learned from the songs that it's good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone

i see when you see her,
like she's the only thing you've ever seen
how dare you never notice, that you're destroying me softly
you want her, you love her
and i will never be her.

- dlx

Congratulation,
I bet you've already get what you want,
And what you think you deserve.
I hope in the mean time, you can be happy.
Not with her, but with love that keep you both bond together.
I hope there's no more disappointed things about love like you've been yelled in the past 8 months.
There's chance for anyone to change.
You've changed, well it's your turn to travel.
Is okay if you never want to reply me, it's fine.
Well dang, I'm not doing this for a pay back.
I'm just doing it fine and I just love you as the way I love to do it.
I'm not asking you to leave her because she's not good, no.
And I have no law to warn you about her.
Ha, I understand.
You can deserve what you think you deserve.
You can fit what you think it's good for you.
You can do whatever you want.
Now you are hers.
And she's yours.

Maybe this time for me to forget, move on, and find a better, something new.
You can be disappeared on mine.
You can be dead as a burning roses.
You can felt dry on my lungs.
Yeah, you might be gone.
But I'll never forget it because you are my first ever
Love.

- dlx

I really wanted to talk to my friends about it.
Anyone who can understand.
But I just can't do that easily.
Even, I don't know how to talk to myself about it.
I'm shrinking, drowning, floating because I'm dive too deep and there's no home I want to find, stop, and stay for a little while.
I'm lost and homeless.
I'm just scared of start again and find one.
Little bit of trauma that you put it on a drama.

Hai,
I won't find you again.
Not tonight, tomorrow, or two years later.
I wish I found you when we were young and free.
When I'm not so in love with you so I can be cool.
When I'm not so interest of love.
When I'm not with your friend.
Or at least,
I hope this will never happen.
I hope I never find you, meet you, and by coincidence look at to your glazed eyes.
I hope I never know you as much as you know yourself.
I hope I never fall in love.
Because they said,
When there's a fall, there's someting meant to be broken.
Well, it's mine now.

- dlx

"If people told you're not beautiful,
Don't you worry.
It means you're art, you're an abstract.
Art is not supposed to be beautiful.
It's supposed to make you feel something, something different from any other kind of differences.
And so,
You are beautiful than any beauty meanings."

- dlx

I'm sure if God gives us at least one planet for one person,
A planet full of thoughts, things we like, good dreams, and memories,
I'd be the most beautiful planet than everyone does,
I'd have a big garden full of my poems and a sea filled with my songs,
And a house saved all of my good memories,
I just can't imagine how enchanted our world will be.

-dlx