Surrounded by emotions,
That I can't sort into good or bad
Surrounded by stress,
That I can weigh in importance.

Surrounded by guilt,
I can't tell if is illogical or not,
Surrounded by shadows
That I can't tell are real or not.

If this is what it feels like to be crazy,
Then I long to be just troubled,
And if Im considered normal,
I shudder at the thought of insanity.

I walk through life regreting every word
Every look
Every touch
EVERY YELL
every whisper
eVerY BoUGhT of InSANIty
And trying to reasure myself I do fine,
When everything screams at me
You messed up again!

So I'm sorry to the people who stay near me and fake a smile,
As I annoy you to no ends
But you can't say anything because you pity me,
And you have to deal with me always tagging along
As you pray I take the hint.

Please tell me when I annoy you,
I promise I won't be angry,
And if I am its not at you.
Because everytime I'm angry,
I'm just yelling at myself.