You beat me to a ****** pulp with the words you spew at me.

Standing up straight putting on my battle face.
I continue to walk down the line.

Each turn and zig zag that I encounter another wound.
Until I'm in an open space standing in front of you.

You look at me intensely then lean in for a kiss.

I froze still in shock as you slowly slit my wrist.

I tense up, blood profusely dripping from  my  fists.
I look into your eyes as you word "I love you" or was it I never loved you?

I cannot tell...

My vision has become blurry.
Seems like you've disappeared as well.

I need to get up.

I need to get on my feet.

The only one that can save me is me...

History just continues to repeat.

I never told you that I've been in love with you this whole time.
Never told you that when I was with you I felt secure and I felt safe.
I love you in a different way.
Different from how you loved me.
I was completely aware of your feelings for me.
The ways in which you loved me I had given much thought.
But the way you loved me, I loved him.
You in love with my best friend when my feelings for you became real.
I realized those feelings weren't what they seemed at first.
Feelings are a curse.
I know you hate me now.
It was intentional.
Move on with your life..
Rid your feelings for me.
The love we have is indeed mutal.
Just not quite the same.
Hearing of your love for me would tear mine apart.
Knowing I've been hurting you because someone else has my heart in the way I have yours.
I never asked you to love me and I'm sorry you did.
I said hateful things to help you forget me.
I just hope if you ever see this you can forgive me.

I never wanted to end my existence more than I did when you told me we should end it.
Two years of constant heartache and tears because I thought you would change.
Do you think everything is a game?
Am I even sane..
For still loving you.
My heart is beating out my chest.
You have my heart and you chose to eat it.
Now there's nothing left in me because you chewed all my pieces.

My heart aches not only from him.
My heart aches knowing you love me.
The way I love him.
My heart aches seeing you in pain.
The way I'm in pain.
You deny the fact that you're hurting.
I see through you.
You tell me I'm wasting my time.
I believe you are right.
You tell me to give you a chance.
I'm scared of ruining everything.
You tell me you love me.
But I love him.
You always smile when you look at me.
I notice because I see through your smiles.
I'm sorry for hurting you.
You tell me you love me.
When I can't even love myself.

I picked her out of a crowd full of beautiful flowers, but I picked her.

She was perfect for me, till the day I thought I needed more, wanted more.

Id look at other pretty flowers, even picked a few, but none still matched the beauty, and playful pedal dance as my wildflower.

Now that iv set her down she has found another's eyes to take in all her beauty...

This is what you get when you think the flowers are better on the other side of the fence.

Im sorry it's too late to apologize my wildflower, lilly.

Would you still love me if I told you that his lips still linger on my skin.
If I told you that I thought of you while I was with him.
That he made me feel alive while you were killing me inside.
Constant affection that was received.
All I ever wanted from you..
I begged and pleaded...
I'm not a priority I was just something you thought you needed.
Until that need was a had and I was thrown away.
Would you still love me if you found out I was hiding things from you?
Someone else having my attention other than you?
I highly doubt you would love me..
The way that I loved you when that is exactly what you put me through.
Would you still love me if I confessed how tired I am of being hurt by you.
How I stare at him wishing his face was between my thighs.
Fantasies of another guy.
Every time you lie.
Did you ever really love me?
It's so easy for you to lie.
Your "I love you" has no meaning to me anymore.
"Sure"
Would you still love me if I told you that I was falling out of love with you?
That my heart no longer had a beat.
That you were the one that killed me.