i'm just pieces to the puzzle that is us
and i guess you don't want to put it together

my heart hurts
my body aches
and all i can think about
is *you

they say
bandaids don't fix bullet holes
but
they do help
so i put another to my lips
breathe
in and out
*in and out

perhaps I've always been broken
you just put me together then shattered me again

I've never wanted to beg for anyone back
But I'm on my hands and knees for you.

I miss us
I miss having a connection
I hate that I’m so desperate
I hate needing affection
I don’t love anymore
I don’t feel anything but yearn and ache
It’s like I’m in partial sleep
But I’m totally awake
My past nightmares are reality
The thought of losing you used to scare me
Now you’re gone and I’m floating in the middle of the sea
Isolated
I want the feeling of love again
But I can’t seem to find it
You know you were my escape
But now I’ve gone and run away and now I am a misfit
I’ve caught a snag in who I want to be
Still trudging through the battered path of life
Ignoring the string that’s unraveling
now I’m caught in these ribbons of forgotten promises
It’s a spider web of failure and I’m being drained of everything
Numb
I still love you, I think
I just can’t feel it. It’s like I’ve perished
I have a silent heartbeat
When everything’s so still but the brain is active and all the memories have vanished.