just ******* do it
you obviously want to
so just leave; just go

I'm told not to speak my mind
That I should hide my emotions
And that I can't speak the truth
Indirectly and secretly they say,
"Just let your mind **** you."

I've been struggling with sleep
All because insomnia and nightmares are a thing
And this is all my fault somehow
So when I can't fall asleep until 2am
And end up missing the bus because I overslept a little
I get yelled at and blamed

I've been struggling with depression
All because of school and my family exist
And this is my fault somehow
So when I start thinking about suicide and self-harm
And end up confiding in someone because I don't want to feel so empty
I get yelled at and blamed

I've been struggling with school
All because depression and lack of sleep are a thing
And this is my fault somehow
So when I request to stay in my homeroom all day
And actually use what special treatment service is available to me
I get yelled at and blamed

It seems I can never do anything right anymore