The way you look when you first wake up
is a look I wait to see all night
The way you kiss me when you say "hello"
just gives me an instant high
The way you be yourself
gives me confidence to be myself too
The way you stare at me excites me
and makes me want to be that much closer to you
The way you concentrate on your passions
just takes my breath away
The way you spoil me
makes me feel loved each and every day
Every night when you tell me I'm yours
I cry because of how well you treat me
You treat me like a Princess
yet cherish me like a Queen.

I've been spending a lot of time alone
just thinking about the last few months
I've let go of friends, I've made new friends
and I lost someone I loved very much
What I thought would last forever
was ripped away from me over night
every thing I was told was a lie
and it tore me apart inside
Things have gotten better
my heart is however scarred
I'm scared of getting close to someone
out of fear it will all fall a part
Maybe I'm a dreadful curse
a walking bad luck charm
I'm as ugly as cigarette ashes
yet deep as a **** on an arm
Maybe the last few months is a sign
that love for me isn't meant to be
or maybe this is God's way of preparing me
for the one who is meant to be with me.

Dressing room, dressing room
Tell me I'm pretty
Allow me to pirouette
In this small space
To show you each plait
On the skirt I just lifted
Over my trousers
Dressing room, dressing room
Your lights are so bright
It brings out every makeup line
But if I squint
They don't seem so defined
Dressing room, dressing room
How close can I get
To your mirrors
Before they stop
Reflecting
And start
Complimenting

3 words that were the tornado,
obliterating all
into clean and tidy rubble.

Ordered, perfect, succinct
as your wicked fault-lines
imploded and I said

you were doing the right
thing, I just did not want
you to do it.

My eye of the storm, departed
crumpled
because I could not, though

I swear, calling bare, blood
burning, desperate, destitute nights
and each sharpened, salted day

as my witness, I tried.

But this body holds no words, this mind
carries no ease to destruction, incessant
heart beats out no explanation of why

why? why? why,

I cannot love you.