One year ago exactly,
In the moment I relapsed faster
Than how fast I was running from myself.
It had been about a year too
Before I closed the door on
Hoping to have grown.
I was sent away
And blamed for that.
They said "You said the right things
And did this on purpose"
Well I can't say I did that,
But I can say I finally opened up
And asked for help
And this is what I got for that.
Now everytime I smell
The smell of tide detergent
And see that color green
On the meridian scrubs
I flinch and stop breathing.
I wish I never opened up,
I wish I never asked for help
Cause now the shackles on my brain are getting heavier in that section.
But it showed me a new perspective,
Didn't get the help I was wishing for
But I grew older, wiser, and nicer.
Now I'm a fighter for the kids like me
So I guess I have grown a little.