Waves - Hello Poetry

Jun 2018

AR

You left your new girlfriend for me
after that day we spent on the beach
you wrote I love you in the sand
proceeding to give a speech

Even though you let her go
and decided to be with me
you spend all your days away
with her in her company

You get high together
you drink you smoke you sleep
it keeps me up alone at night
i crumble i begin to weep

You say that your just friends
and that there's nothing there to hide
I see you at best for an hour a day
why are you always by her side?

How am I meant to feel?
when you go between us two
I love you so completely
but this relationship is not her, me and you.

Jun 2018

AR

The beginning of a Revolution

The days have gotten shorter
and my heart begins to heal
springs warm sunshine comes creeping in
I'm starting to be happy again, to feel

Even the nights aren't so lonely anymore
and I enjoy being on my own
I'm recovering, I'm moving on, I'm appreciating
the fact that I'm alone

*And although at times I do reflect and miss how we once were
I acknowledge and accept you've moved on
it's not me you want,
it's her.

Jun 2018

AR

Front Door

I want you to show up at my front door tonight
drunk and soaking wet
confessing how much you've missed me
regretting how it was left

That girl you're seeing now
she's a distraction to stop you going mad
when you close your eyes its my face you see
to take away the sad

I want you to tell me all of these things
and then to forcefully invite yourself in
i want you to grab my face and tell me you love me
and for us to try again

I then want to take you to bed
and have you hold me like before
i could wait up all night -

But there will be no knock at my front door.

Jun 2018

AR

Last day of 2014

I wore the last present you bought me for the last day of 2014 -
A pair of brown leather brogues.

and it’s funny, because they blistered my toes and made walking agony.

Prehaps it was payback for walking all over you
Like you were a *******, an ironic message.
You did always hate feet -

Maybe it’s not just feet anymore
Maybe its me

*A.R

Jun 2018

AR

Submerged

You always loved the sea
and maybe thats why as i stare into the seas blue abyss -
you’re on my mind.

I go through waves of missing you
each wave bringing a new heart ache -
today the way you’d always speak your mind.

We thought we’d have floods of time
thats the thing about the ocean -
it brings floods that destroy, just like you destroyed my heart
and drowned my mind.

*A.R

Jun 2018

AR

Last Promise

"I promise"* and "on your life" were some of your more favoured lines
I'd heard them over and over for two years - so many times

And of course i believed you, every ******* word you'd said
So why am i lying here alone, by myself, in this bed?

The last promise you made me was on paper, with jet black ink
A message in a bottle the words i struggle to recall - to think

So painful to remember yet so hard to forget
You promised to stay by my side from the 1st day we met

That was your last promise inscribed on white sheet
To bad you turned out to be a liar, a coward -
a ******* cheat.

*A.R.

#relationship #breakup #over

Jun 2018

AR

A message from Robert

Every time I look at you I can't help but stare,
you're the most beautiful girl I've ever met.
When you touch me I get shivers -
a weird warm feeling in my chest when you kiss me.
I miss you when I'm with you.
I always want to be close to you.

It feels good. You make me *happy.

Wrote by the guy im seeing, I thought it sounded like poetry

Jun 2018

AR

Collaboration of Words

Start again, pick it up
The relationship? Poison in our viens

You have a beautiful brain
But my god, those drugs aren't heaven and don't help

When we met - fire blazing
Now? Dead.
End.

I left your life.
You left my heart.

*Will I be hearing your voice again?

Jun 2018

AR

Contradictions

You say you've never known commitment, yet there's tattoos upon your skin.

You think you've never been fragile, yet your body has scars - small and paper thin.

You don't believe that luck exists, yet say how lucky you are to have found me.

You can't accept such things as fate - but believe people play a role in your destiny.

Maybe i wasn't the right ink, didn't leave the right mark, the black cat that crossed your way.

Perhaps just coincidence, chance an accident could this be why you didn't stay?

Jun 2018

AR

Somber

I was conceived in a thunderstorm
and you had drugs in your system from birth.
Who knew two sorrowful beginnings ---

would make me love the sound of rain
and you the smoke that filled your lungs.

*A.R

Jun 2018

AR

Enough

Enough.**

It isn't enough for you to speak words but deny me actions
to tell me your lies and sustain from affections
I glare into your eyes, they show nothing at all
spent a year trying so hard -- to just watch it fall.

Jun 2018

AR

Her

If you were to kiss me now, would you be thinking of her instead?
If you were to lay next to me tonight, would she be the one occupying your head?

When I wrote you those letters, did you secretly wish they were wrote by her hand?
Sorry I'm not the one you wanted, not the girlfriend that you had planned.

So when you tell me you love me, do you picture her face in your mind?
How she'd look when you tell her, about all those times you have pined -

Pined for her body her mind - every second of every hour of every day
How you can both make it work even with her boyfriend in the way.

How do you expect me to feel Robert? Knowing what i know
You expect me to carry on with this relationship, to just go with the flow?

You know second best comes easy to me, I've understood it from the start
I gave you my all, but you still you wanted to give her your heart

If she didn't have a lover I know you'd be there right by her side
That day I heard you tell her my heart broke, I could have died

But for now you are with me, promising I'm the only one that you desire
I know from that Thursday morning that you are an exceptionally good liar.

As I hide behind your bedroom door I heard you speak your words to her
You told her how you wanted her, of which of us you would prefer

You lead there completely naked allowing her to see your all
and as she sat there giggling my heart began to fall.

I don't know what I expected from this poem; my feelings I needed to pour out
Robert, you say you love me not her but babe I have a lot of doubt.

*A.R

Just something that happened recently to me with a guy i liked and another girl who is always somehow involved in our relationship. Its happened before, and i just needed somewhere to vent rather than let it eat me alive thinking about it again and again.

#love #heartbreak #promises #broken #confused #liar

Jun 2018

AR

12.30am rambles

and if you knew,
truly knew.

you'd know,
how much i miss you
how much i yearned to be with you, just for one more moment.
one.

but its impossible,

we're now parallel lines.