7/15/2017
A plank of wood,
sand mites bite our ankles
my ankles
One in the morning at the
Gated Beach Community
and the signs said
Without parental supervision,
No one under 16 allowed
but there I was, 15
Dealing with a bad lease on my brain, don't forget yours, too
parents nowhere to be found
Or maybe two buildings over
Years later, it's night
I step over puddles, drunk boys
Walk around the complex laughing
Trying to remember when I found that sort of thing fun,
Remembering never,
I sit on a ledge--
And you'd never guess the sea
Was several hundred feet away
with the way the sky bleeds black
congealing, together
The Atlantic and it.
Remembering my old obsession
With blood, my old poems
Speaking feverishly of it
adding meaningless symbols-
the flower the color of it,
or the sky in the morning in august
trying, selfishly, to make sense of my life.
I wish to run a fever-- forget this place ever existed
Or you, truthfully.