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cloud Feb 2016
i cant find peace of mind
i cant find happiness
iv’e been searching in the dark
using my memory of a place i’d never been

i cant find peace of mind
i can't find happiness
i follow the signs
to be lead to a detour

i cant find peace of mind
i can't find happiness
iv’e been running to my lover
on this same oval track

there has to be something comical
floating in the abyss of doubt
so many doors
no way out
cloud Dec 2015
making love on a bed
we were *******
and the love is a one way street
im on top and you moan "**** me"
while i bounce with love pouring and dripping around you
you didnt say my name but you repeated baby and it didnt feel like me
****
i love you
i whisper your name because my love has always felt like something that could be easily stolen
why wont you say my name?
am i no more credible than our *** that dances inside of me?
but for that short time you were apart of me
barely able to walk
i want round two
i love you, make me feel your love too
cloud Sep 2015
i had a dream
i sat in a puddle of insecurities
that grew
everytime i lifted my phone
to check the front camera
"am i pretty yet?"
no
stop checking
you look exactly how you did
twenty minutes ago
except
your nose is a little oily now

i cried
at the ankles of a man i didnt know
"why will no one love me"
and he looked at the sky
and told me not to be silly
he told me no surgeon could fix
the trainwreck that happened
in 1999
and no one cares enough
to mourn it anymore

i need glasses
but my squinted eyes widen
at the realization...
THATS WHY NO ONE SEES
WHAT I SEE
my watermelon personality
drips onto the wounds of others
like lemon juice
where the **** is everyone going
i'd love to stay and chat
but my past tells me
that you're a waste of a heartbreak
im tired but i rather stay awake
because my dreams have seemed to be
the scariest horror film
cloud Sep 2015
my heart is there too much
like the memories of how happy i was when someone decided to love me
like the memories of every first time

history repeats itself
and i deemed my sadness history the last time i locked myself in someone elses bathroom to cry
things get pathetic when you think of dying
and realize you cant afford it

everytime i think i find an exit
the windows end up being boarded up
everyone throws out the invitation to my
pity party
since theres never a return address

pray for me
not that ill get better
but that itll get so bad that god
will feel bad
and bring me home
cloud Jun 2015
these tears sting my eyes more than you'd think
im not hurting for attention
im over the lack of love and attention
yet im not over you
my heartburns like ive just won first place in a hotwing eating competition

its unhealthy to store the deflated balloons you bought me for valentines day in my heart  
but hell those were good memories
in all honesty your were a good friend to me
it hurts... friend
because thats all it seemed like looking back from the end
sometimes "i love you" touched my ******* before my heart
your voice is so seductive at night

i dont wish you the best with your next
you dont ******* deserve it
you dont ******* deserve me
but baby please, dont fall out of love with me
remember the nights spent loving me
carressing and rubbing me

i still worry about you
hoping you'll find the right path into maturity
hoping you'll find trust
and release into all that you hold back
just know ive known your worth all along
you loved my singing
i want you to know you were my favorite song
i wonder what i did wrong

love does not always mean destiny
it hurts that i gave you the best of me
you can still have the rest of me

i still defend you when people call you an *******
i tell them that you dont know better
as if im washing glue from your tounge

deceit has never been ****
neglect is so scary
to think you were one i could marry
im still here  
i know you can feel alone sometimes
sadness,i know, can take your right mind
cloud May 2015
***
i am innocent
i am not a ******
i have not been stripped of my innocence
i have been stripped
and teased
and pleasured
i'd love to see the look on a republicans face when i say
*** is fun
cloud Apr 2015
i crave to be something special
special in all things
special in the way my tounge moves in a circular motion inside of your mouth and on your all too dry body
are you satisfied?
i dont really care who knows
i just hope that when you tell the story of lastnight your eyes light up and your hands move like i was something spectacular
all of my friends know
they know that you supply me with an indescribable loving that i wont let go of as long as im sane
your skin resembles my favorite chocolate bar but i can assure you that you are worth more than a dollar
your breath has become my favorite song and its been on repeat for a while now
sinning has never felt more beautiful
but yet i still ask for forgivness
all in the same prayer i give thanks for something so wonderful
my body throbs in anticipation on answers to why i deserve this
i wonder if you ever notice me watching you
i notice how your every step resembles a dance move
i love how you do all things that you do
i crave to be as special to you
as the everlasting love making of our souls
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