when we kiss, my heart
explodes into a thousand
tiny butterflies.

i've had bad earaches
since i was little, the worst
made my hearing worse.

i'm drinking coffee at night to make my mind work.

we write things down and keep them away
to hide how we feel, we vent,
and it looks like we bottle it up
and it causes confusion.

we will love you the same way we love
the books we write, the poems we weave;
as though you are our creation,
and as though we can preserve you by keeping you on a page.

not a lot will live up to the world
that we live in in our heads, the fantasies
we concoct to create a story,
so unlike the real world.

*but because of these worlds, we can help
create a life for ourselves with a place for you,
with strong hopes and aspirations
and we are always faithful to the ideas that we have.

nothing is safe when
your darkest secrets are cast
out into the world.

a father creates
expectations, good or bad,
towards other men.