my friend's boyfriend broke up with her.
(on her birthday)
he told her, (while she was already hurt by
the lack of care he'd given her) "we are not together."
confused. she asked him why.
his usual answer was: "you decided this months ago."
her memory as it was told to me,
she decided to end the relationship
after months of stress and a dislike for
him and herself.
after a few days, he'd made a horrible
plea for her heart and as weak hearts,
most likely do. she gave it back to him.
nothing changed, *** was still regular.
( not better, not any worse)
love was there, but only on her side.
after days of trying to talk and not annoy him,
he revealed that he was not in love with her,
he only liked her and stayed for so long,
as not to hurt her.
this hurt more than her heart could stand,
she thought it was going to pump its last
few breaths from the shock, she felt.
then after comfort from her sister,
she felt relief and free.
In the back of her mind, she knew the truth of him.
He didn't kiss her anymore, didn't ask for hugs, didn't
take photos together or try to hold her hand.
she was in love with a figment of her imagination
and he was better in her mind.
when she told him, that she already knew for a long time of her one-sided love. he seemed shocked that she knew. she told me
(how could one pretend so horribly to love me and seem to think I not
notice?)
Confused that she seemed to brush him off,
he decided to blame her for their failed relationship
due to her lack of emotion and telling herself that (she'll be fine.)
He wanted to break her down, have her crawling back to him
like before when her heart was weak and he was weak and alone
without her.
She asked me, why do men do this?
( play with your heart, blame you for equal failures, then leave you to clean up the mess)
I told her, I did not know.
Maybe, just him, wants you to feel how he feels.
Or maybe he wants to laugh and mock you for being so naive again, so
gullible.
She told me that he'd asked to fix it.
( I want to try again, I want to fix it.)
But there was nothing to fix.
There had been nothing there for years,
no love, no compassion, just a distance.
When I saw her a few years later,
she was with him,
it seems she did not take my words to heart
or her heart was too weak to leave him.
I just hope he really loves her now and if he hasn't,
then he's become a really good actor.