Cameron Canada

Cameron Canada Feb 2018

I'm trying so hard,
I just want to be seen.
It's not easy
When you're stuck in between.
Between wanting to be with you,
And not knowing
What you want.

I know that what I want
Is to be yours,
For you to be mine.
Can it just be that simple,
Even after we haven't talked
All this time?

Be with me,
Show your true colors.
I won't judge,
I won't mock you,
I don't see like some others.

I see more than your face,
I see into your heart.
I'm trying my best,
But we're a million
Worlds apart.
So,
What the hell are we doing?

#relationship #sad #confusion

Cameron Canada Feb 2018

Therapy

I'm floating.
The ocean mist in my face,
The sun in my eyes.
I feel nothing.
No pain,
No suffering,
I'm away from all the lies.

My cloud floats
Away from the sea,
Towards mountains
And forests;
I get lost in the trees.
Lost in a world
Where no one hears me scream.
Lost,
But found.

I step down,
Feel the earth,
Taste the air and the breeze.
I run far away,
Away from the trees.
I see where I've been,
Where I wish I could be.
Maybe, here,
I can be my own tree.

I stop growing.
I can't hear the world,
It doesn't need me anymore.
Somewhere distant,
I hear someone open a door.
My name is called...
I walk into the cold.
Put on a smile,
Play fake happy.
I'm good at doing what I'm told.

#therapy #trees #cold #alone

Cameron Canada Feb 2018

Pain

My mind can't stay focused;
You're everywhere.
You're the water,
You're the earth,
You're the wind in my hair.

My bones are suffocating,
Wrapped tight in vines and thorns.
You were my guardian angel...
But I've been wounded.
Now, I can see your horns

This poem wasn't easy to write. It's short, but it has a long, twisted, complicated backstory. Basically, this guy I fell really hard for tried to use me. I said no and told him not to talk to me anymore, and he's tried to lie about me ever since. I still want him, but at the same time, I hate him. It *****.

#pain #heartbreak #anger #depression

Cameron Canada Feb 2018

Your Eyes

Your eyes made me feel something.
I looked into them,
and I saw more than you led on with.
I saw hurt,
passion,
history.
I wanted you to look into my eyes,
and see mine.
But you didn't see,
you were only interested
in touching what's on the outside
of me.
I met you,
and wanted to dive right in.
You met me,
and saw a brand new sin.

So I left,
I couldn't stick around.
But now,
you're everywhere...
you've become the whole town.
I pretend not to care,
act like I don't hear what you say.
The truth is,
you stole my heart,
and you've blown me away.

A poem about a guy who gave me feelings I never wanted, and pushed me until I crashed and ran away.

#eyes

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