Noticing the crossing line
the dividing point of yours and mine.
Noticing the empty space
that mutual zone, that hidden place.
Staring blankly at that line
we know we never will collide.
Staring at that empty space
never standing face to face.
Running in a parallel line.
Waiting for things to be fine.
Running always for my life
Trying to escape the strife.

At the dock, come one come all
There were ships, some big some small.
Some with stripes and some with flowers
Her ship, his ship, their ship, ours.
Our ship is tiny, not built to last,
Stocked with dreams and memories past.
At one point I believed our ship was a yacht
But soon I learned that you aren’t what I thought.
So now this ship isn’t big enough for two.
This ship has sailed, without you.

I doodle our love
and hang it to cherish
Then I rip it down the middle
and leave it to perish
I hold on to the pieces
crumpled up in my palm
I don’t want to let go
Don’t want our love to be gone
But you’ve made it clear
There is nothing more
So your heart is free
And my heart is sore.
*But I still won’t throw it away

She can't find the fire to fight
She can't find the love in her heart
She cannot win the battle
She's been fighting from the start

She cannot hold a knife
She cannot hold a pen
But she wakes up for the war
And she does it all again

Her fists weren't built for power
Her fragile mind lacks might
But everyday's a struggle
Life's an everlasting fight

You're the exception to a rule that was written in stone
Forged in blood and skin and bone
A rule in unacknowledged and unspoken
A rule that wasn't meant to be broken

You broke my rule into pieces and parts
Into broken promises and hearts
A rule that was supposed to last
Fell apart so ******* fast

And now I'm prostrate on the floor
For I can't function anymore
I broke my rule, you foiled my plan
Never to fall for another man.

Now that rule's been blown to hell
And I'm a shadow of my former self
You're the exception to the rule that was written in stone
And now I'm left confused and alone

When the moon shines bright,
but the smoke blows black,
once it all fades to white,
you can never go back.
So hold your head high,
on the dark summer night,
and you can learn why the world,
tries to put up a fight.
Nothing to think of and nothing to say,
No way to discover, to find my way.
Someone find me, save the day
A soulless body, like made of clay
I see the pathway in my mind
No way out just looking behind
the first step is for you
the first leap is mine

You try to entertain us
But all you do is strain us
We're supposed to believe you
When your words just aren't true

I am not a fighter
My words are my igniters
I will start a fire
Without flame
But I'm not here for lies
So look me in the eyes
and say I'm not a player in your game

I'll deflect your misinformation
And show it to our nation
That I am not a pawn
I'll make it perfectly clear
That that isn't why I'm here
And that we're waking up now
It's our dawn.

All of the pain
at the last minute
life is a game
and we cannot win it
Forced into playing
Pulled by the wrist
Thrown into a battle
To fight with our fists
Like life is this torture
Like we're beaten with truth
Torn into pieces
Ever since youth
And now we're stuck in this game
So we might as well play
And maybe eventually
We'll be okay.

I'm not alone
But I, sure as hell, am lonely
I'm a train that's settled somewhere beyond the tracks

I'm falling apart
And I can't be put together
Time's a bouncing ball, and I'm the jacks.

Just another pawn in the game of life
Trying to take the king
Just another piece of a 7 billion piece puzzle
Just trying to succeed this thing
This thing called life
This bitter, harsh game
And when my body is gone
Who'll remember my name?
*For I am just a pawn

Sometimes she hid behind her laptop screen
Or maybe she'd hide in her sleep, in her dreams
Wouldn't face the world outside that hall
Wouldn't go downstairs for fear she'd fall
She slept in late and went to bed soon
And only found comfort under the glow of the moon
But the moon doesn't glow
It's just a reflection
Just like the soul
Of the girl aforementioned
A girl hidden in a place where the demons couldn't see
That girl was afraid and that girl was me.

Donated to death
A cruel contest
The most primitive creatures
Can beat out the best
A tribute to this wretched game
It’s awful and unfair
The worst punishment you could ever ask for
set on fire just to make them stare
Betting on humans,
like horses of a race
Burns on your legs
and cuts on your face
Only one can win,
Only one can make it through
But only the winner survives
Who’s next? Could it be you?

There was this world that I used to love,
A world of flying on the wings of a dove.
This world where we could play pretend
And laugh and sing with peers and friends.
There was this world I used to know,
Dragged my feet but it still wouldn't slow.

I knew this world would never last
What I didn't know, was that it'd go by so fast.
And now it's hard to get things done,
I used to care, it used to be fun.
I visit the memories every day,
But I'll never again feel the same way.

That world's gone and I have to adapt
And just move on from
*The life I used to have.

The literal descent into actual madness
The inability to tell the happy from sadness
Thoughts bouncing around: silly and inane
Actually mad and actually insane

Can't you just be serious?
Notice the matter at hand?
Can't you just get a clue?
Just try to understand
The mess you're really making
The people to whom you bring hurt
Just look them in the eyes
See the pain that can't be cured
Notice what you're doing
Notice how bad this can get.
Notice that all you ever do
Just makes people upset.
But most of all just be serious
Notice the matter at hand
Just get a clue for once in your life
Just try to understand.

You hugged me goodbye
That was the end
I woke up the next morning
And you were only a friend
That's what we said
That's how we lied.
Like our "relationship" was over
Gone with the tide.
But that sand washed away
That sand of emotion
Just into the water
Only into the ocean.
And as that water flowed
Our "love" stirred with the water
But then you try to tell be I couldn't be hotter?
Is that fair to me?
That you'd lead me to think
That you actually cared
Then let the "relationship" sink.

I’m not the one,
but he still is
I’m like the second
Not even a part of this
I’m not the only
And I’m not the one
Now I’m sitting in the darkness
While he walks on the sun

You're the only one who can make me smile
Without that smile immediately fading away
You're the only one who can make me laugh and cry
A million times each and every day.

You're the only one I've ever loved
Before, I hardly believed that love was real
You're the only one who can take my breath away
The only one who can truly make me feel

You're the only one I can't get over
I don't know why it's so **** hard
You're not the only one who's ever hurt me
But you're the only one who left me scarred.

Just one thing that holds me back from the fun
the darkness I see when I look at the sun.
The biggest mistake among a ton,
Why it’s happened to me. A million to one.
Back in time I wish I could go,
I could take the heat, trudge through the snow
I wish I knew, oh ever so
If you find out, please, let me know

The parapet of restriction
Keeping me away
Holding me back from serenity
As I watch the waters sway
Relaxing but stressing all the same
The beauty so hard to contain
The parapet of restriction
Driving me insane

I'm just afraid of the person I used to be.

She had red lips like cherries and blood and wine
Pink cheeks like berries picked fresh from the vine
Skin like porcelain, white as milk
But smooth like velvet or cashmere or silk
Her hair was soft and blew in the breeze
She moved like a dancer with grace and with ease
With the allure of a siren and the body of a model
But the unadulterated mystery of a genie in a bottle
Her eyes were a color the rainbow can't define
She was perfect and amazing but she'd never be mine

If I could reach 600 miles
Reel you in and see your smiles
I'd reach out toward you, miles and miles away
And pull you in close to me and say:
"I would reach 600 miles
To have you here with me."

The establishment's crashing down on us
The broken walls; the broken trust
The foundation's busted
That foundation we trusted
Is cracking beneath our feet.

This building's in ruins, this world is in flames
Reality's version of the Hunger Games
We're lost and afraid
We're losing the game
We can't even compete.

A relation ship sank for another to sail
With the click of a button, those words "You've got mail"
The subtle death from the words of a text,
"We're just friends" good friends at best.
The end of a belief in dreams coming true
The end of the era of me loving you.
A wish come true turns to a lie come alive
Leaves the lingering question: Will I survive?

Words so sweet
Like those of an angel
Such a perfect threat
That my life is in danger
Everything good
Eventually goes bad
But I’ll always remember
*The relationship we never had.

It's all the same I guess
There's a minute to breathe and a second to rest
It's all the same to me
There's nothing to do and there's no one to be
It's all the same in here
Where is the love and where is the fear
Monotonous life's a test
But it's all the same I guess

The scenery is dull
And you're feeling death's pull
And the sky is an ominous boat of gravy

But the scenery's bright
In the middle of the night
When the sky is swirled in navy.

The scenery's lonely
And you are the only
Life in the march of a swarm

The scenery is dull
And you're feeling death's pull
But it feels refreshingly warm.

Why do I force myself to think 'bout you?
When things between us ended long ago?
Why do I sit and sweat and stare and stew
and mourn for someone that I used to know?
You led me to do things I couldn't take
Still I cannot condemn you as to blame
Still I believe our love was my mistake
Still I will never ever be the same.
Yet I've matured and learned and I have found
That I've spent too much time on reminiscing
I let you leave me lying on the ground
And all along it's me I have been missing

Now I've grown up and now I fin'ly see
I speak not of love for you, but love for me.

Oh, the things I didn't see
Blinded by the mystery
Searching for your hidden past
That you keep behind that stupid mask
Do you have a problem with trust?
Did you say love when you meant lust?
What have you got to hide?
Behind your icy eyes.

Tell me the truth
Have I done wrong?
Or is it just me
Who’s been sprained?
Tell me the truth
Should I just let go
To get rid of all the pain?
But tell me the truth
Love me, Love me not?
Just tell me if you love me too
Don’t leave me here to rot.

I believed seasons changed behind my back,
But still I walked.
My feet dragged against the cement burning the soles of my shoes,
But still I walked.
I didn’t know my way,
But still I walked.
I had reached my destination,
But still I walked.
“It’s not the destination, It’s the journey.”
And so I walk.
They said the world would change,
and so I waited.
They told me peace would come,
and so I waited.
They said the war would end,
and so I waited.
They told me it would get better,
and so I waited.
“Seize the Day”
and so I walk

Somebody outta close this window
Before I fall to my doom
I can’t stand being in your presence
I have to get out of this room
Somebody outta close this window
Before you push me out
Because you’ve built me up so high
But you’ll drop me again, no doubt.
Somebody outta open up a window
I need to escape

Trying to sleep,
Really, I'm trying
But thinking of you
I can't help crying
Losing the only thing I knew
But I'll never stop
Thinking of you

I think of you so often
But I could never tell
Because I know of course you don’t
Think of me as well.
I think of you so fondly
Such a perfect memory
I think of you just wishing
That you would think of me.
But I know it’s useless
I’ve never crossed your mind
Because while I’m thinking about you
You’re just leaving me behind.

This one isn't about you.
Don't worry, though, the next one probably will be.  
But this one, I promise, won't be about you.
It won't be about how you left
Or how you lied
Or how you made me feel
It won't be about the good times gone rotten
Or the times I let you control me
This one isn't about you
Or about my feelings for you
The feelings that were my fatal flaw.
This one doesn't even concern you.
It doesn't even mention the way you tore me apart
And then pretended I was the one who hurt you
This one isn't about the time I told you how I felt
The time when I told you I was broken
And you blamed ME for breaking you.
No, this one isn't about you.

Drowning my heart in the blood of your words
dripping tears and burning with pain
Losing my senses of right and wrong
and drowning it all in the rain
Burning with scars from the stare of your eyes
Losing myself in your gaze
hiding behind a wall of the present
is not going to rid of those days.

Throwback to the days
When love was all that we needed
When we barely even studied
But we always succeeded
When tests were a breeze
And homework was breezier
When we had social lives
And everything is easier
Nobody told me
Of the hardships underneath
Of life's hard tests
And life's sharp teeth
Nobody told me
Of the terrors, so small
But they feel so heavy
And they make you fall
Throwback to the days
When we hadn't a care
Throwback to the smiles
And the wind in our hair
Throwback, throwback
For we can't turn around
Throwback to the days
When we were *safe and sound

Time passes, ever slowly
You hear the clock is ticking
By yourself in the woods, afraid and lonely
You thank the stars that you’re still kicking

You see before you two diverging roads
Made slippery with Frost
You think you know the way to go
But realize you’re lost.

Time goes by so ******* slow
But faster than you’ll ever know
Faster than you could ever go
Faster than you’ll ever know

Time speeds up, your heart rate too
‘Cause time cannot keep up with you
Time will not creep up on you
‘Cause time cannot keep up with you

I'm a time bomb.

They'll talk and talk and talk
Until it becomes a soft roar
There are too many voices
Can't take it anymore.

You don't yell.
You don't comment.
You sit still and hold back
Because nobody notices
An anxiety attack

But they notice when you explode
Because the implosion's too large
Your battery's out
And you'll never recharge

You hear the voices
You can't make them stop
So you join them, yell louder
'Cause your cover has dropped

You have two choices:
Cry or scream
So you yell, you explode
You blow out your steam

'Cause you're a time bomb.

I could write you a sonnet
An epic in length
I could paint you a picture
With an acre's worth of paint
But to write you a sonnet
I'd need to confess
A love for you, darling
That I cannot express
I could write you a sonnet
But would you even read
My letter to you
In my time of need?

*This time I need you

Years, they are years, and years go by
But time is arbitrary and time is mine
Time is a *****, but time's by my side
So I'm just living like I'm living
And I'm living my life.

Years, they are years, and years fly by
A million precious moments in the blink of an eye
Time, that *****, has left my side
But I keep living like I'm living
And I'm living my life

Years, they are years, and tears you cry
What happened to the time I knew that time was mine?
But time is arbitrary and time is lost
I guess I just don't have enough to cover
Time's high cost.

Your eyes flicker open
That ******* alarm
You cover your face
With the inside of your arm
5 more minutes
Is all that you need
But it's time to get up and it's time to succeed
You're scared
You're lost
You're stressed
And you're dizzy
It's time to get up
It's time to get busy
5 more hours
Is all that you need
But it's time to get up
It's time to succeed

I hope you feel better about yourself, because I don't.

I hope your problems were resolved, because mine weren't. 

I hope you're satisfied, because I'm not.

I hope I didn't do something to hurt you, and I'm sorry.

I hope you've learned your lesson; I have.

You can cry on my shoulder
You can tell me your pain
I won’t let him hurt you,
No, never again
I might not make it better
but I’ll try and I’ll try
I will never hurt you
I’ll never let you cry.
And when you have to let it out
I won’t laugh or stare,
I want you to always know, my friend
That I’ll always be there.

Don’t be upset,
You have so much more
Than a boy who’ll break your heart,
Walk away, and slam the door
Don’t cry, peace will come soon
Just don’t let him get you
Don’t let him drag you into his doom
You’ve done nothing wrong
He is to blame
So don’t put yourself down
Don’t hide away in shame
You’re better than he is
We all know it’s true
Because he’s just a boy
There’s so much more to you

I've learned to love, at least, three things
God, myself, and my kin.
But I have grown to love so much more
To laugh, to learn, to sin.
I laugh with my friends
I learn from the best
I sin by mistake
And I love all the rest.
I laugh at my struggles
I learn from them too
I sin for myself
But my love is for you.

Paint the words of your symphonies and sorrows
And hide them beneath your dreaded tomorrows
For tomorrow never comes.

I wish you were here
I want you with me
But you’d rather be there
You would rather not see
The reasons I cry
The reason for my tears
The reason I die
Because you’re not here
I wish you could see
The reason I’m sad
It’s all because of you
But I guess that’s just too bad

I tell you this time and again
But you think you’re too cool to listen.
You think you have some sort of glow
Like people just love you, you glisten.
Do you want people to cry?
Or to feel the way that you do?
Bringing pain is never the answer
Whether or not you think that it’s true.
You walk the halls, with your swagger
Like you’re perfect in every way.
But I won’t give in to your horror
I won’t fall for it, not today.