You told me not to get lost in the woods I am sorry but I had to search for the one that made me insane My reason for loving and living Now I am back singing a bitter symphony, a cruel harmony I wish I listened in the first place
Today is my birthday and my mother is dead All my friends are fake, I had to remind each one of them Twenty two years of age and I am lonelier than hell
The sun's shining on my tattered bed sheets Another day of sadness Just like any other day If I don't come back with soiled pants Then I will go to church and offer a burnt offering I go to the bathroom Flinch at every drop of water that hits my ****** wounds I go to the mirror and look The big swelling I got yesterday After the "queen bee" hit my head against the wall Someone again placed a banana peel on my way I could only hear shutter sounds as I fell Became the meme of yesterday Just like I was the day before the day before the day before... I look at her in the mirror In the school uniform With tears in my eyes Filled with anger and remorse Punching the girl in my mirror I roared at her "I DON'T WANNA BE YOU ANYMORE."
I hated the ******* the other side of the mirror... She is hated by everyone. Not even a single soul wanted to be with her. Not even the gods cared for her. It would be better was she dead, right???
I'mma be happy I'mma be high I'mma remain silent I'mma party all day
I'mma push everyone away I'mma rule my kingdom I'mma not stop smiling I'mma not stop being weird
I'mma not look back I'mma not regret I'mma get all that I want And a good RIP at the end of it all
I'mma not care I'mma live to my fullest With my unwell mind I'mma not care about who loves or not
I need you silence
Tired of being sad. Tired of trying to be happy. Tired of finding love. Tired of finding the truth. I ain't caring anymore. I ain't gonna **** myself up with past ****. I don't wanna **** myself again.
At the moment, only drugs can let me escape from this reality I wanna go back to my small cocoon world I went out once I almost died Never coming out till then When everyone will wanna be me This time, not even the most beautiful will get me out of this
I just want us to dance, babe I know he hurt you I know your heart is broken Let's dance to the beat of your broken heart Here's my chest, make it wet with your tear Feel the warm as I hold you tight It's icy outside Stay I will not leave you Just be the love of my life.
I really hope it's peaceful up there I hope the grass is greener on the other side I really hope you always think of me As you hang by the rope I hope you will still think of me
I hope you are happy I wish I could still feel your love I hope I will still feel your presence in the memories you leave behind I hope you will be happier without me As you hang up there Breathless With no life-giving pulse By the rope I hope you will still think of me
Because though you were selfish enough to leave me behind I still love you...
She left me behind. I was there for her through it all. She left anyway, and committed suicide. She left me broken. The only one I was in love with.
i waited for months i just wanted to love you to know if you are okay to know if you are gonna save my soul shine my way light up my path but you made a fool of me made me wait for you in the restaurant for hours at the dinner table now i am empty heartless and you are just but a point in the night sky all i can do is wish on you mercury
Maybe I'm just foolish Trying my luck with you over and over Maybe I'm just mad Trying everytime expecting different results Maybe I'm just addicted Begging for coins just to have you Maybe I'm obsessed Thinking about you everyday Maybe I'm stupid Not admitting you are wasting my time Maybe I'm naive Not knowing which road I should take Maybe I'm just but a guy in love Not caring of what others think when I'm with you.
25, 26 25 years, on the 26th no stars, no wishes no candles, no flame 1 more, please be proud more oaths, more broken i think, i remain silent i swim, i drown in tears, in laughter more angels, no gifts yet am 25, on the 26th
Then you find me on the bathroom floor Red eyes The only words you hear The party's over I just can't help but wonder Who is this I am celebrating? So you take me back I blow the candles in my own birthday party Drink from the poison flask All just to forget the past And heal hell
have not yet found out who i am who i wanna be all i know is am not ready to take responsibility of my actions and the pressure the expectation to have everything under control is depressing
Life no fair Heartbreaks and hearts tear Is there not any more joy for those living For even in the brightest of days Is still dark
We all lose someone Whether we hated or loved them Still it makes the heart ache Will generations love life Or destroy themselves in fear of tomorrow
Suicidal even in a new day Hateful in a new morning Empty and dead one is Rotting on the inside Can one ever live again
We just walking corpses Souls left the body struggling to survive Yet all shall be okay, I think so All will be fine, let's pray In this life or the next.
Done with exams Done with tests Degree accorded Headwear in the air But why do I struggle to be happy I just did it daddy
Gown all day Hood in the wrong position Party rest of the day Sunday stuffed with meat Aunties are glad for me I just did it mummy
Lecturers glad am finally gone Chancellor with his vice Certificate colorful Time to commit a felony But why do I struggle to be happy For me and my achievement
Probably no one will understand. I don't either...
crying over you what a night what an hour that you decided to damage mine
being in my head day in day out what a time that you have decided ain't worth it
forever i just wanted to be you be a legend in my family and no longer the black sheep something they would have appreciated me for for it's being real with you, until you thought it fake
i wanna roll up two three joints forget about you but proving to be farm work pain crazes my blood down my veins to fill the hole that you left behind
remember it was the henessy i would not have known you now it's the henessy coz i wanna forget about you no longer love, to hell with just be friends
i now want the money i now wanna chase the bag get my accounts overflowing but ain't gonna fill the hole left behind for sure.
I thought being an engineer was the coolest job in the world So I wanted to be one Everyone praised me for this, telling me how rich I will be
I thought having girls at your disposal was the best life Boys praised me for this, so I danced to get more At the end I became the saddest *******
I thought praying and preaching Repenting all the time would me make feel acceptable Wanting to look good So I fought for the preacher's seat I just became the miserable thorn in the ***
Now, all that makes me smile and fulfilled Is the tone of the note It cuts me through I just wanna play and play
Sunday They call it beautiful Sunset Refreshing But I'm still cold My heart icy Angels departed Spirit low
To many thoughts Deaf to my preacher Blind to glowing faces Sadness surrounds me I don't wanna go home I don't wanna leave the house More peace in my cocoon.
Noise I hear People dancing their sorrows away I prefer mine stay They somehow keep me pushing Pushing to write more of these poems Fill my diary with emotions Get drunk on Fridays And just chill away from the world.
mercury good bye mercury my readers ain't gonna hear of you anymore why you lied to me i don't know why you made me feel ****** you should have spoken out early
you were the only happy thing in my life you took my soul and melted it you were the only thing in my life but the sun is brighter than luna i understand
is it too much to ask for love without being left much worse is that am unlucky in love or i care too much
mercury, i love you mercury, i hate you i left venus for you the prettiest of them all but i am just but a luna
They taught us to scream out loud In the name of the foreigner's god We screamed out for aid In the meantime They sacrificed our gold To their gods of greed and hate Yeah, they made a fool of everyone we knew.
If only I could take out my head Wash my mind in the shower Leave it out to dry And have a whole day without using one Then I would be okay No thoughts for a whole day And that's peace to me. Not figuring out a thing
My friends are ghosts One small mistake and he's gone One small mistake and another comforts Got no heart to forgive But haunt me in my dreams One I love but can't fight over Another I hate but is with me anyway Lucid dreams every day Apart insomnia every night In my head they ache me But at least I got friends, right? Always with me in my bed Hey halcie Don't go Goldie Not you too What you want Hadassah Come keep me company And give me some love At least I got friends, right?
I hope you are also trying to talk to the moon Watching the night sky As we promised we would every night The beautiful night Before you went to the countryside Because we both know Under that dull bright sky Our hearts connect And we can feel each other's presence You know I love you And I see your face up there my love What a beautiful night Full of stars sky You have made this to be My darling Under this moon!