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2.2k · May 2021
I Wish
Caleb Kyme May 2021
You told me not to get lost in the woods
I am sorry but I had to search for the one that made me insane
My reason for loving and living
Now I am back singing a bitter symphony, a cruel harmony
I wish I listened in the first place
1.5k · May 2021
Happy Birthday
Caleb Kyme May 2021
Today is my birthday and my mother is dead
All my friends are fake, I had to remind each one of them
Twenty two years of age and I am lonelier than hell
Caleb Kyme Jun 2021
The sun's shining on my tattered bed sheets
Another day of sadness
Just like any other day
If I don't come back with soiled pants
Then I will go to church and offer a burnt offering
I go to the bathroom
Flinch at every drop of water that hits my ****** wounds
I go to the mirror and look
The big swelling I got yesterday
After the "queen bee" hit my head against the wall
Someone again placed a banana peel on my way
I could only hear shutter sounds as I fell
Became the meme of yesterday
Just like I was the day before the day before the day before...
I look at her in the mirror
In the school uniform
With tears in my eyes
Filled with anger and remorse
Punching the girl in my mirror
I roared at her
"I DON'T WANNA BE YOU ANYMORE."
I hated the ******* the other side of the mirror... She is hated by everyone. Not even a single soul wanted to be with her. Not even the gods cared for her. It would be better was she dead, right???
863 · Aug 2023
I'mma smile
Caleb Kyme Aug 2023
I'mma be happy
I'mma be high
I'mma remain silent
I'mma party all day

I'mma push everyone away
I'mma rule my kingdom
I'mma not stop smiling
I'mma not stop being weird

I'mma not look back
I'mma not regret
I'mma get all that I want
And a good RIP at the end of it all

I'mma not care
I'mma live to my fullest
With my unwell mind
I'mma not care about who loves or not

I need you silence
Tired of being sad. Tired of trying to be happy. Tired of finding love. Tired of finding the truth. I ain't caring anymore. I ain't gonna **** myself up with past ****. I don't wanna **** myself again.
680 · Apr 2021
Never Coming Out
Caleb Kyme Apr 2021
At the moment, only drugs can let me escape from this reality
I wanna go back to my small cocoon world
I went out once
I almost died
Never coming out till then
When everyone will wanna be me
This time, not even the most beautiful will get me out of this
401 · Nov 2023
Hey Love
Caleb Kyme Nov 2023
I think I'm ready now
I think it's okay now
I still remember the night sky
The twinkling stars in your eyes

I couldn't keep you
I couldn't give you
For you deserved it
Better than he gives
353 · Jul 2023
Regret
Caleb Kyme Jul 2023
I did everything to leave my kingdom
I did everything to leave my cocoon
I broke down the wall
For you I exposed myself

I'm going back to rule
I'm going back to my pain
I'm building my wall higher than it was
And I am concealing myself from you
320 · May 2021
Stay
Caleb Kyme May 2021
I just want us to dance, babe
I know he hurt you
I know your heart is broken
Let's dance to the beat of your broken heart
Here's my chest, make it wet with your tear
Feel the warm as I hold you tight
It's icy outside
Stay
I will not leave you
Just be the love of my life.
302 · May 2021
I Still Love You
Caleb Kyme May 2021
I really hope it's peaceful up there
I hope the grass is greener on the other side
I really hope you always think of me
As you hang by the rope
I hope you will still think of me

I hope you are happy
I wish I could still feel your love
I hope I will still feel your presence in the memories you leave behind
I hope you will be happier without me
As you hang up there
Breathless
With no life-giving pulse
By the rope
I hope you will still think of me

Because though you were selfish enough to leave me behind
I still love you...
She left me behind. I was there for her through it all. She left anyway, and committed suicide. She left me broken. The only one I was in love with.
258 · Nov 2021
Fall
Caleb Kyme Nov 2021
Somebody save me
I don't wanna fall

Curse with your protection spell
I don't wanna hurt

Teach me to love
But don't let me fall in love

I beg you
257 · Nov 2022
am I too much to ask for
Caleb Kyme Nov 2022
I guess I am not lucky
I guess I am not loved
I have always tried to make it right
but somehow, it's like nothing works right

after all the past that happened
I just want to be happy
I am desperate for love
I just wanted the best for you too

a smile on my face
is too much to ask for
can't I just look at myself in the mirror and smile
and like the guy I see on the other side

my birthdays are like easter
commemorating the day someone died
valentines just never worked for me
I always cried out of heartbreak or family break

is being happy
too much to ask for
is loving someone
too much to ask for
211 · Jul 2021
Untitled
Caleb Kyme Jul 2021
If I go to the land of no return, will you miss me???
211 · Mar 2022
Pills and Pilsner
Caleb Kyme Mar 2022
Pills and Pils
You know the drill
Stone and smoke
Well, you can't see well at home
Friends and family
I got less of
Day and Night
Suicide on my mind

It's never about me
Always blaming it on me
Up, up and away
Like a bird in a cage
I wanna fly to worlds astray

This ain't for us
So I'mma just go
To place of no return
Because everything's gonna be okay
But nothing is always okay

Slit my wrist is all I wanna...
210 · Oct 2022
Dinner table
Caleb Kyme Oct 2022
i waited
for months i just wanted to love you
to know if you are okay
to know if you are gonna save my soul
shine my way
light up my path
but you made a fool of me
made me wait for you
in the restaurant
for hours at the dinner table
now i am empty
heartless
and you are just but a point in the night sky
all i can do is wish on you
mercury
200 · Jul 2023
My everything
Caleb Kyme Jul 2023
My silhouette
You tie me to my core
You get me everything
My everything

That which burns brightest
Burns fastest
But you keep me burning
My everything

I see darkness in light
you see light in my darkness
I love you
My everything
191 · Apr 23
Wrong Change
Caleb Kyme Apr 23
But lately
What I've been crying most about
Is myself
The person I used to be and lost
And the person in the present
With no clue about his future

@nukethelizards
187 · Feb 2023
Maybe
Caleb Kyme Feb 2023
Maybe I'm just foolish
Trying my luck with you over and over
Maybe I'm just mad
Trying everytime expecting different results
Maybe I'm just addicted
Begging for coins just to have you
Maybe I'm obsessed
Thinking about you everyday
Maybe I'm stupid
Not admitting you are wasting my time
Maybe I'm naive
Not knowing which road I should take
Maybe I'm just but a guy in love
Not caring of what others think when I'm with you.
185 · Dec 2023
All I got is You
Caleb Kyme Dec 2023
How could I forget you
When I smell your scent in my pillow
How could I not fall for you
When I stare at your picture on my phone

How could I not get lonely
When I don't have you by my side
How could I not feel imperfect
When all my perfection is in you

How could I not miss you
When all I do is smile at the imagination of you
How could I not say to myself I love you
When all I got is you
164 · Nov 2023
Night under Opera
Caleb Kyme Nov 2023
The song playing
Makes this moment satisfying
Chikwere makes me think of you
Holding your waist
This moment ain't a waste

Accidentally you step on my shoe
I look with a smile
And see the spotlight in you iris
If only
This could last forever
159 · Oct 2021
My Self's a Psycho-Sad-Sick
Caleb Kyme Oct 2021
Then you find me on the bathroom floor
Red eyes
The only words you hear
The party's over
I just can't help but wonder
Who is this I am celebrating?
So you take me back
I blow the candles in my own birthday party
Drink from the poison flask
All just to forget the past
And heal hell
158 · Oct 2022
mercury's letter
Caleb Kyme Oct 2022
mercury
made so pretty
lighting up my every morning
you get me mad
you make me happy
but you don't wanna be with me

mercury
so smily
so shimmy
you've brought me back
you've pushed me back in
shining so bright
carried me through the dark
there you left me

mercury
i still love you mercury
but i don't want to be with you
unless you come back for me
i don't think i like you anymore

mercury
making me teary
after all i did to charm you
but still you leave
back close to the sun god

mercury
just let me be
just let ms be now
155 · Dec 2022
Fantasies
Caleb Kyme Dec 2022
Still living in the fantasies of love
Walking across the beach
Cuddling in the middle of the pitch
Ignoring all that's around us

Vulnerable I get around you
Watching the stars of the night
Now that I don't got you
All I'm left with are fantasies of love

Flowers everyday
I dream of laughter all day
Wish i could still adore you
But I just got fantasies of you

Watching you sip wine
As I get drunk on old fashioned
My heart pumps for you
I think i still love you

Dreaming of building tree house with you
For you and your daughter
Am happiest around you
But i just got fantasies of you
146 · May 2021
My Dream Last Night
Caleb Kyme May 2021
I just had a dream
She gave me the kiss
That changed my life.
I can still feel it on my lips
142 · Oct 2022
pen and coffee
Caleb Kyme Oct 2022
is there a problem
is there a problem with my midnight lights being on

i am scared of the dark
that's why i need them

i love the dark
that's why i write out my demon's speech

but i need the lights on
so i can write down my dark soul on paper

in the midnight dark, i need my lights
so i can write down what is on the inside

in my dark inside, i scribe
with my dark pen, and coffee by my side

i'm sorry i need my midnight lights on
i am terrified of the dark
141 · Nov 2022
out of the blue
Caleb Kyme Nov 2022
hey you
sorry i had to **** you with hatred
just so empty on the inside
don't blame me
blame the stars for being so pretty.

weird, right?
that everything is not all fate
destiny is a scam
and i hate you
129 · Oct 2022
adulting
Caleb Kyme Oct 2022
have not yet found out who i am
who i wanna be
all i know is am not ready
to take responsibility of my actions
and the pressure
the expectation
to have everything under control
is depressing
127 · Jan 2023
I'm here
Caleb Kyme Jan 2023
Life no fair
Heartbreaks and hearts tear
Is there not any more joy for those living
For even in the brightest of days
Is still dark

We all lose someone
Whether we hated or loved them
Still it makes the heart ache
Will generations love life
Or destroy themselves in fear of tomorrow

Suicidal even in a new day
Hateful in a new morning
Empty and dead one is
Rotting on the inside
Can one ever live again

We just walking corpses
Souls left the body struggling to survive
Yet all shall be okay,  I think so
All will be fine,  let's pray
In this life or the next.
117 · Dec 2022
It's finished.
Caleb Kyme Dec 2022
Done with exams
Done with tests
Degree accorded
Headwear in the air
But why do I struggle to be happy
I just did it daddy

Gown all day
Hood in the wrong position
Party rest of the day
Sunday stuffed with meat
Aunties are glad for me
I just did it mummy

Lecturers glad am finally gone
Chancellor with his vice
Certificate colorful
Time to commit a felony
But why do I struggle to be happy
For me and my achievement
Probably no one will understand. I don't either...
116 · May 2023
crying over you
Caleb Kyme May 2023
crying over you
what a night
what an hour
that you decided to damage mine

being in my head
day in day out
what a time
that you have decided ain't worth it

forever i just wanted to be you
be a legend in my family and no longer the black sheep
something they would have appreciated me for
for it's being real with you, until you thought it fake

i wanna roll up two three joints
forget about you but proving to be farm work
pain crazes my blood down my veins
to fill the hole that you left behind

remember it was the henessy
i would not have known you
now it's the henessy coz i wanna forget about you
no longer love, to hell with just be friends

i now want the money
i now wanna chase the bag
get my accounts overflowing
but ain't gonna fill the hole left behind for sure.
112 · Aug 2023
It's over
Caleb Kyme Aug 2023
How do i forget
That you fought my demons
That you gave up on me
That you never gave me a chance

How do I forget
That it's not you anymore
That i messed things up
That you messed them even further

How do I forget
Of our good times
Of the memories
Of the fun

It'll be okay
I will just get sleeping pills
I will have to let you go
It's over
110 · Nov 2022
neptune
Caleb Kyme Nov 2022
Hey Neptune
Why you so blue
Don't go outside
You might get a flu

Hey Neptune
You so cold
Not your fault that love don't come to you
Don't cry you changing your hue

Come closer Neptune
No need to get lonely
Mama's smiling at you
Believe me, she's proud of you

You are beautiful Neptune
Don't cry, the atmosphere's pretty coz of you
Take my guitar, play those tunes
For love has left you

Don't be sad
I'm here for you
I know it feels safer away from you
But let me be with you either way
108 · Sep 2022
Mercury
Caleb Kyme Sep 2022
Mercury
Every morning I would think of you
Every night I hated to see you leave
Wish I kissed you

Three months I waited
Now I hate it that you probably found another
I knew you were the best of me
Now I don't even love Christmas

I feel wasted
Roses and cigarettes as I think of all the times
All the times I could be there for you
Hating myself for not being patient enough

Romeo and Juliet
I said couldn't understand the way of this emotion
Now I understand why
Why they could die for me and you

I'm sorry
Please don't leave
You carry the light
Morning star

I was a fool to say I couldn't wait any more
But I need to know
Please tell me
Do you still love me?

Or was the gold worth nothing to reflect on?
I still love you Mercury.
105 · Apr 2021
The Tone Of The Note
Caleb Kyme Apr 2021
I thought being an engineer was the coolest job in the world
So I wanted to be one
Everyone praised me for this, telling me how rich I will be

I thought having girls at your disposal was the best life
Boys praised me for this, so I danced to get more
At the end I became the saddest *******

I thought praying and preaching
Repenting all the time would me make feel acceptable
Wanting to look good
So I fought for the preacher's seat
I just became the miserable thorn in the ***

Now, all that makes me smile and fulfilled
Is the tone of the note
It cuts me through
I just wanna play and play
A small story of a part of my life...
103 · Oct 2021
Tell Me I'm Pretty
Caleb Kyme Oct 2021
I just need you to tell me.
I think I am beautiful.
Do you think so too?

I could kiss a million boys
But believe me when I say
I dream of your lips every night
102 · Jun 2021
Lit Me Up
Caleb Kyme Jun 2021
I slept last night cold and void
Dark and *****
Without purpose and form

I dreamt of an angel
She was bright
She was light
She was purpose
She was clean

I woke up
I smiled
I took my phone
All I could say
I am in love with you
98 · May 2023
Sunday
Caleb Kyme May 2023
Sunday
They call it beautiful
Sunset
Refreshing
But I'm still cold
My heart icy
Angels departed
Spirit low

To many thoughts
Deaf to my preacher
Blind to glowing faces
Sadness surrounds me
I don't wanna go home
I don't wanna leave the house
More peace in my cocoon.

Noise I hear
People dancing their sorrows away
I prefer mine stay
They somehow keep me pushing
Pushing to write more of these poems
Fill my diary with emotions
Get drunk on Fridays
And just chill away from the world.
Caleb Kyme May 2021
They taught us to scream out loud
In the name of the foreigner's god
We screamed out for aid
In the meantime
They sacrificed our gold
To their gods of greed and hate
Yeah, they made a fool of everyone we knew.
97 · Nov 2022
good bye mercury
Caleb Kyme Nov 2022
mercury
good bye mercury
my readers ain't gonna hear of you anymore
why you lied to me
i don't know
why you made me feel ******
you should have spoken out early

you were the only happy thing in my life
you took my soul and melted it
you were the only thing in my life
but the sun is brighter than luna
i understand

is it too much to ask for love
without being left much worse
is that am unlucky in love
or i care too much

mercury, i love you
mercury, i hate you
i left venus for you
the prettiest of them all
but i am just but a luna
96 · Oct 2022
Peace
Caleb Kyme Oct 2022
If only I could take out my head
Wash my mind in the shower
Leave it out to dry
And have a whole day without using one
Then I would be okay
No thoughts for a whole day
And that's peace to me.
Not figuring out a thing
93 · Feb 2023
You don't have to.
Caleb Kyme Feb 2023
My spirit's broken
Tortured and destroyed
Can't keep love for a second
A minute, how have I tried

Can't tell my friends
My pain and empty state
In several superposition states
I morph from one me to another me

Who am I has a different answer every day
Tried to be better but I **** at everything
I miss my Hennessy
At least she knew what I should say

Wrote poems about Mercury
Can't go to the movies
Pick up any girl from the club
Pretend just for the night

The devil is a liar
So am I,
I'm okay I would lie
But trust me,  I'm okay
92 · May 2021
OK
Caleb Kyme May 2021
OK
I know the rain like the clouds know the sky

I don't even know the difference between being okay and not being okay

Am I okay??

I don't even know what I feel and say

Am I weird??

You tell me or else get fired
92 · Dec 2022
Ghosts
Caleb Kyme Dec 2022
My friends are ghosts
One small mistake and he's gone
One small mistake and another comforts
Got no heart to forgive
But haunt me in my dreams
One I love but can't fight over
Another I hate but is with me anyway
Lucid dreams every day
Apart insomnia every night
In my head they ache me
But at least I got friends, right?
Always with me in my bed
Hey halcie
Don't go
Goldie
Not you too
What you want Hadassah
Come keep me company
And give me some love
At least I got friends,  right?
91 · May 2021
Stars Sky
Caleb Kyme May 2021
I hope you are also trying to talk to the moon
Watching the night sky
As we promised we would every night
The beautiful night
Before you went to the countryside
Because we both know
Under that dull bright sky
Our hearts connect
And we can feel each other's presence
You know I love you
And I see your face up there my love
What a beautiful night
Full of stars sky
You have made this to be
My darling
Under this moon!
90 · May 2021
Asa??
Caleb Kyme May 2021
Asa nisi masa
88 · Nov 2022
Of pain and no dawn
Caleb Kyme Nov 2022
Am cold
It's winter
But my heart ain't warming me up like it used to

Ten blankets over me
Crying over you
Yeah i said i understand
Well that was my tongue spelling words

I hope all shall be well
Every other sign leads to nowhere else
But my hopeless kingdom
Of pain and no dawn

It's over
Finally it's over
Yet am stranded in these snowy streets
Between you and me

Coz every other sign leads to nowhere else
But my hopeless kingdom
86 · Oct 2021
Excited
Caleb Kyme Oct 2021
Today I thought it was Jacqueline.
Then it came to me that I needed to lean
For there was no way I would be excited at trouble
85 · Aug 2021
Venus
Caleb Kyme Aug 2021
Broken
Hurt
Heart

Chapped
Faded
Lips

Broken
Damaged
Bones

Wish­ I could feel her hands on my wounds again.

Hot
Dense
Death

Is all that is left of her

Beautiful
Chocking
Empty

Is all that is left of her

I miss you Venus
we all miss Venus. she is gonE. she is Now toxic. bUt she is still the most beautiful in the night Sky.
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