Broken and shattered
She crushed me and I'm tattered
My heart fragile as glass in pointed pieces
I thought she was special but she's an evil angel
Tear in my eye,  on its way down
But boys don't cry, do they?

Walking down the alley with my headphones loud
Listening to Tentacion and Del Rey
Bad boys in front of me, demanding am the worst
First fist pay me black eye
Insults on my gender, for the tear on my eye
Because boys don't cry, do they?

My boss at the cafe yell at me
I tried making the best Kenyan tea
The customer just could not take my service
Claimed I was rude after the names he called me
Evening, fired and tired
Get a cigar to drown my emotions
For boys don't cry, do they?

Expected to be the best
Expected to be perfect
Mama told me boys don't cry
For weakness ain't a thing for me
But I'm the weakest being
And I can't cry, should I?

Asa nisi masa

My friends are ghosts
One small mistake and he's gone
One small mistake and another comforts
Got no heart to forgive
But haunt me in my dreams
One I love but can't fight over
Another I hate but is with me anyway
Lucid dreams every day
Apart insomnia every night
In my head they ache me
But at least I got friends, right?
Always with me in my bed
Hey halcie
Don't go
Goldie
Not you too
What you want Hadassah
Come keep me company
And give me some love
At least I got friends,  right?

Am cold
It's winter
But my heart ain't warming me up like it used to

Ten blankets over me
Crying over you
Yeah i said i understand
Well that was my tongue spelling words

I hope all shall be well
Every other sign leads to nowhere else
But my hopeless kingdom
Of pain and no dawn

It's over
Finally it's over
Yet am stranded in these snowy streets
Between you and me

Coz every other sign leads to nowhere else
But my hopeless kingdom

Today I thought it was Jacqueline.
Then it came to me that I needed to lean
For there was no way I would be excited at trouble

looked up to the meteor showers
ain't they pretty?
then she came into my mind
just turned down my offer
after everything that i went through
but she can't understand the pain
when her life's so perfect
when all she needs are instas and tweets

Broken
Hurt
Heart

Chapped
Faded
Lips

Broken
Damaged
Bones

Wish­ I could feel her hands on my wounds again.

Hot
Dense
Death

Is all that is left of her

Beautiful
Chocking
Empty

Is all that is left of her

I miss you Venus

I have tried.
Never being myself
Don't even know who I am
All i know is I love her
And she gonna hate me if she knew what I really struggle with

I have really tried to be the best
Guess am just ****** up
Too weak to fight myself
And the demons that have allied with my enemy

Can't pray
Trying to fight these crazy thoughts
I need God to save me from myself
Coz I ain't know how to say no
When it's what I am used to press forward

My mentality is sick
My spirit withered
Can't control my emotions
Myself controls me instead
My mind goes crazy and I can't help it

Love is what she deserves in the world
A man, not a boy
A boy who's just trying to fight his way through the world
A boy who's just trying to fit in a world older than him
Just like always

I don't know what and how
My life is a blur
My life is a mess
Pretending that am okay
But even Jesus knows am doomed.

I wanna be happy again
Please let me be happy and okay
Great storms fighting within me
There must be a price to have me completely destroyed
And am too weak to fight this on my own
Sorry I  ain't myself
Help me Lord.

Waking up
From a death sleep
Zombie tomato-red eyes
Got no plan of day

Never the same
Yesterday was a blur
No memories registered
Not myself

She drowned with her lover
In the sea of tears and pain
I got caught
By the devil of goodness and love

I was so used to be afraid of the dark
Now I don't mind a ghost in my bed
Clearly I am not enough
Only for people who hate themselves.

It's always me
It has always being
I'm the bad guy
He's your favorite
Then it's better if i went
You won't miss anyway
Good bye

Found her
Loved her
But never met her
Except on photograph

I'm looking for someone to put up with my *******
Lonely, I got no one to disturb with my cuddles
Last month she went crying
I broke her heart, it was a mistake
I didn't mean it

Now I'm drunk with Captain Morgan
He can't take me home, his ship sank
Staggering back home I could only think of her
Wish I never held her with my careless hands
And I can't take this cold anymore I need a sweater.

Could it be that it was meant to be?
Every moment in life
Every situation in life
Could it be that it was meant to be?
To teach us
To punish us
To **** us
To make us feel alive

Do you still think lowly of me
My love
Do the heavens lie to you about me
Am I not capable of making you happy
Am I not supposed to see you smile

Can you hold me please
For the world is against us and the in between
Can you please come close
Let your light chase my demons away

Could I chase away the fear in you
Hold me tight for it will be okay
They won't bite princess
For you are a goddess

Kiss me
Stick with me
**** him
And don't let anyone define who you love.
My love.

Day in day out we fought
You do know I loved you though

One year later and I can't still forget you
You were the light of my life

I never knew why I deserved this
I still cringe at the pain for taking for you

I never knew it was sin
I never knew I would be punished for love

I hoped we would get along
I hoped we would be on three same page

I knew you loved me
I don't know if you still love me

One year later and am still trying to get over you
Many girls I've dated, but they couldn't stop me from thinking about you

I don't know why I deserved this
I don't know why I suffered this

I loved you then
I love you now
Pretending to be happy
How can I yet you were my happiness

I miss the day we would argue

I took the road to the mountains
Just wanted to be alone
Yes, we live in the highlands
Never afraid of wolves and porcupines

"Hello, you there"
"I need some ****"
The pain I could feel creep into me
I need this smoke real fast

With my bike
That I pushed instead
I prayed it could get foggy
Mummy and daddy use it to their advantage anyway
To hide scars
To fight each other and call names

Yes, this trip was to get away from the world
But before I could, I had one more thing to remind myself
How it felt to be high
High up here
High on everything, that's awful

Snatched my last pinch of white powder
And thought of everyone's betrayal and wonder
When they found out that I had been a pretence all this time
That I was never the boy they admired
Just a ****** up boy
Who used women
Who had to run from home
Who used to live in his car

It was not my fault, was it?
I never wanted this
I lost the girl that I love
And papa killed mama
But who cares anyway

Smoke through my nostrils
And white patches of the powder around my lips
Reminded me how much more the world hated me
I know you can't understand
Coz you were different at age 23
Or you will be better by the tree

Don't cry, coz friends never looked at me that way.
Just bury me once I'm done looking at the orange sunset
Once I'm done with this blunt

The slow gradual non stop progress of time that is slowly guiding us all to an inevitable demise.

hey darling
even after all these years
i find it strange that i remember you
but how can one forget a fairy tale

my angel
though human, you still come and go
delivering your message of broken love
till next time, bye bye???

yet i still revere you
my angel
my morning star

yours truly,
mercury

Thinking my way to sleep

Hoping the darkness of the night and the howls of the wolves don't consume me

Hoping I don't destroy the silence of my mind with my cry

Hoping all never goes well as it did before

i'm not messy
i'm just messed up
my room's floor is clean
but i got ***** laundry in every corner of my room
bed's not made
sheets clean
and i like it messy
i feel at home in chaos
i feel safer in mess
but i'm not messy
i'm just messed up.

What is wrong with this world?
The very person I do not wanna see
The universe has just ensured I spend the whole day with her
Couldn't my wish be fulfilled?
I wanna move on but the universe decides to **** it up.
She was my life, never fair
Now I hate my life, because I love her too much

She took hold of me
She was bleeding
I saw her get cold
Yet she still caught hold of me

She tried to keep me warm
Even as she turned lifeless
You will be okay
I could only watch the smile

I never intended not to protect her
She took the blame for me
Now I got to be strong for her
Too much weight on me

She just watches over me
Every night she kisses me
Every night I watch her little fire
Rekindle my insides

On my bed
On a Tuesday
Heart heavy
And mind crazy
Only since I am trying to fit in

3 am bedtime stories
My eyes not baggy
Sleep has hated me
Yet no one can understand

Running I do
Towards the sunset
Watch it and watch time fade
As darkness covers me
And throws me into very cage
That almost killed me

They hope I will do it all for them
Stand in for them as they sleep
Pretending to care
But leave me sleep with my eyes open