I want to be able to express my feelings for you,
but I'm not so sure how,
nor am I sure that you care.
I lack the ability to write well when I'm not drowning in my depression.
What do I say other than "I love you?"

How can I tell you that you can be what I look forward to most?
How can I tell you that when I wake up I check my phone to see if you've messaged me?
How can I tell you that the mere thought of you is enough to make me smile and that sometimes you're all I ever want and that I hope heaven sounds like the smile in your voice when you tell me goodnight?
How can I tell you that I wouldn't be able to live without you?

Maybe I'll find a way eventually.

I am not strong, nor will I ever be.
I am not pretty, or confident,
intelligent, or witty,
or even very considerate.
I can barely take care of myself.

If it makes you feel safe, though,
or keeps you alive a while longer, with a healthy smile on your face,
then I will try to be all of those things, and then some.

It's okay to cry.
Cry a river if you have to.
Cry if it helps you to breathe again.

I'm sorry for the rollercoaster,
but I'm not sorry for my feelings,
and maybe we'll work out someday.

This mare will not heed-
she was meant to succeed!
Power on, don't let your confidence waver,
tomorrow may bring something greater!

grateful for another day
with breath in my lungs

there were days when
I used to pray for death,
but today I pray to grow
so I can be more useful
and to help another who
is suffering