Enchant me, ensnare me,
(but do not mistake this) I am still wild,
still free,

our colors bleed together,
into a beautiful, beautiful,
grey

i can see the fight within you,
it tears you apart,
are you a monster, you ask?
will you allow yourself to be a monster?
your hands they can create,
but it is much easier to destroy,

i have been where you have been,
pushing feeling, down
                                     down
                                               down
but please hear me out,
they will only come bubbling back with a vengeance
you try to shield yourself,
from the hurt,
but you’re only locking yourself away,
from all you could know,

you say you don’t feel,
you say you don’t care,
but I know once you get attached,
you love fiercely and loyally,
that you won’t let anyone hurt those you love,
I know that’d you tear the world apart for us,
and even if I object to being saved,
i know you’d try

you are darkness,
or so you like to pretend to be,
i am light,
or so i’d like to be,
but together we are grey,
together we are human,
or human enough,

we watch each other,
with strangely animal eyes,
circling, waiting tense,

a muscle twitches,
he bares his fangs, viciously
he moves, I match

we circle in sync,
preparing for a death dance,
ready to tear flesh,

it vibrates on my skin,
a tension so palpable,
my heart nearly stops,

the sharpness of the air burned in my lungs,
it moved across my skin,
washing away old sin,

i could still feel the heat in my bones,
reminding me of the dancing  flames,
and the dark  shadows,
and the howling  screams of the teens,

deep, deep within me,
lies a primal  RAGE,
it is most of what I know,
of what i feel,
I cannot extinguish it,
Just push it
DOWN
DOWN
DOWN
deeper into my soul,
its fire  RAGES,
forever,



i am alive,
blazing with RIGHTEOUS FEELINGS,
always,



I was born for the apocalypse,
my rage carved out of thick, hard, stone,
every nerve like a live wire, i sparked,
my instincts knew where to take me,
to danger, to life,

…...but
….. where am i?
there is no apocalypse here,
not for me,

not yet.