I made love
to an email,
inside my
mind's
sugar shop.
I guess
our blood is
detailed;
I don't feel
until you're
shocked.

You say the things
I moan,
and I wear the things
you swear,
like, "I'd still see you,
even if you were
to disappear."

You kiss me before
I tell you that you're
silver-spoon-
melted-heart,
reassuring me
that you're ****** up,
and to just push
to watch you
fall apart.

We shake
because it's what
we forgive the most.
So, let's bite our tongues
and float north.

Insomniac nights are so lonely and
Bizarre, with the medicine not working
Tossing and turning, half awake hallucinating
Sad and confused and fed up and bitter
Praying for sleep, or death, or relief
In the back of my mind wondering
If I'd ever fall asleep sad with you by my side

What a ride this has been...
I'm exhausted and I know you are too.
I feel so drained and like I have made no difference whatsoever.
I want to get you out of the dark place you're in so bad.
It hurts to watch you sleep and have to wonder where you're at.
Baby come back to me, please, just come back.
Don't go to that place where I can't.
Don't leave baby she needs you here with her.

I'm just so tired.
I ache from the mental and physical stress.
My emotions are a huge mess.
I just want to fall into a deep slumber of peace.
I want to lay in your arms and feel safe again.
Why can't I just save you?!
Why can't I help you through all of this?
Why can't I be where you are?
I feel so nonfunctional.
I'm so tired.

I want things back the way they were.
I want the old you back.
It's like you're half alive but mostly dead.
Even in my dreams lately I can't reach you.
And the thought of losing you scares me so bad.
I have started this love thing with you.
What good is it going to do me if you're not here for it?
This is why I was so hesitant with my heart.
This is so tough and I don't know if I'm strong enough.
I didn't want to need you this much.
I didn't expect to miss your touch.
I have to get you through this.
I have to muster up all my strength and pull you out of this place.
Let me help you.

I can't watch you unravel in front of me like this.
It's like you're falling and I can't catch you.
You're barely hanging on and letting go with all your might.
When I fall you are there to pick me up so why can't I do the same for you?
I am just so confused.
Feels as if I'm spinning out of control.
I feel **** faced drunk.

I want to feel pain.
I want to hurt like you.
I want to understand the pain inside of you.
Feeling you inside me in my veins is the only cure for this ache.
You have become such a part of me and I a part of you.
When you hurt it hurts me too.
When you smile my soul lights up.
When you cry my heart weeps.
I don't know how this connection between us happened.
And words could never explain it well enough to matter.
So just come back to me where you belong.
Baby, please don't let me let you go.
Just come back into the light.
Because I am scared I can't save you
From this dark in your life.