I'm searching but can not find my head
As I lie in bed,
Precal problems and Spanish packets,
Work that needs to be done,
I'm procrastinating untill my motivation comes.

I am a grape
On the lowest branch of vine
A sour green ball full of acids,
As I age the vines I reside on
They droop.
Lowering me closer
And closer to the ground
I am not there yet.
But as I grow more near and ripe
I know what awaits
Death.
An animal shall surely come to eat
Or maybe people, will I merely be consumed and be no more?
Or will they ferment me in a barrel
And I turn to wine?

Dearest brother of mine,
As I look back in time
I remember all the moments you've blown up
I've been watching as your soul falls deeper into corruption,

You are like a volcano little brother,
and we are all just watching your peak smolder
Everyone is observing as you grow older
waiting for your next eruption.

The final explosion is my worst nightmare
You might do something without care,
Your actions driven by hate and anger
When it comes, your innocence will be in danger

My little volcano, you see everyone as an enemy,
just remember in the end you will always be loved by me.

You could not help but fall for her
Despite warnings from every cell of your brain
You could not contain
Your curiosity
How could someone be
Different shades of different emotions
At the same time
How could someone go
From being the blazing sun
To a violent storm
In the blink of an eye
And that was the trouble with her
You could not tell the next thing she does
And there were many with a prettier face than her
And a few with soul more tender
But none that could stir
A single emotion
While
One look from her
Caused ripples in your soul
The longing she developed
Became insatiable
Cause she was not the caresses and soft kisses sort
She would make sure you meant
Every compliment you uttered
Before she accepted them
She would ask why
You loved her
Instead of saying I love you too
She was never just simply pretty
You know the kind you put on your shelves
For a show
She was not just one element
but the whole package
Something you had never witnessed before
She had fire
Her  feelings weaved silent poetry
All around her
And everyone who saw her could see that
Everyone but herself
Her thoughts were too loud
-loud enough to make the deaf-toned world hear them
She was reckless personified
Descending towards nothing
And you would gladly go down with her
If it only gave you  few more moments to have her look into your eyes
Black eyes
Not seeing at you
But through you
Making you unravel yourself
She could not be bound to a place
She was the wind
that ruffles your hair
caresses your skin
and sweeps your tears off your cheeks
and fly away
just like that
leaving you fixated
on that spot
waiting for her to hit you again
but she is already gone
You never wanted to love her
Yet here you are
Loving her anyway.