What if I call you?
The number you dialled is no longer available,
Beep...
The number you dialled no longer exists.
What if I call your name?
The person you are calling is no longer available,
What if I walk up to you?
The person you see no longer exists.
I'm sorry...
The person you are trying to reach no longer wants to exist,
...
The person you are trying to reach no longer exists.
But what if I yell to the stars?
Heaven nor Hell can receive your request.

Deepest regret,
Was giving you something that you cannot give back.
Even the things you should,
You took and stole from me everything you could.
As a gift someone replaced,
What I had lost, not just a person but myself.
What I do regret now,
Is not burning you out of my life sooner.

And I promise,
There will not be a day
Where I rest,
While you are angry
With me.
There will not be a day
Where I don't fall,
Over and over in love
With you.
I promise.

My heart grows fonder of you
The more we are together
Even if we're apart

I crave a love so pure,
My heart melts to gold.
I have found him,
My heart now sold.
He is my future,
My one and only.
All my cards out,
To him I love you I told.

"I'm original!"
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"I'm not loved"
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Words...
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We are not original,
We will never be original...
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Don't know whether to trust again,
or if this is just lust again.
Don't know where to begin,
If all things end.

1 + 1 = 2
But what if,
2 + 2 = 5
We are subject to belief,
That one way is the only...
2 + 2 = 4
But what if,
2 + 2 = 5

Slow beat,
Just like your heart
beat.
Few words,
Mean a lot like your
words.
Mellowed tunes,
Soft and slow like your
lips so tender.

So many connect to pain,
Than they do to happiness.
Can't say I don't feel the same,
But I don't like people feeling less.
I know is hard but please be happy,
If not for me
For you.
Please smile,
And spread it.
Like the disease it is. :))

Grab both my hands and hold me close,
Even thought I know you love me most.
Don't you ever in forever let go of me,
My eyes and heart in sync I can finally see.
And if I can't have you forever,
Then death do us part shall work.

Can I say I love you?
I'm not very sure.
I've been hurt before,
That much is true.
I really love you,
But I'm not sure too.

I'm not lonely again,
I made some friends.
I have a boyfriend,
But I'm not sure if this will end.
Not my relationships,
But the feeling of happiness.
Cause I'm way happier than before,
I don't want to be any less

If it was everlasting, why did they have to go?
With loss you cry because that’s all you’ve known
Feelings linger and you are ever still in love,
Yet again your thoughts will leave you alone down those feeling they will shove

Words will engrave into the minds memory,
And etching too much on to a concrete stone.
Name. Age. Date. Date. Beloved and lovely,
Your words echo like feedback from a phone.

Hold them in comforting arms one last time,
Still begging this won't ever be the very last.
Without them then life will surely fall apart,
And into the sea beating hearts shall be cast.

Whether we will ever like it or not
And our love is for our family or someone else
We all suffer the loss of someone we love
And so slowly you loss that part of yourself

Everyone’s been in love at least once,
They say love is the most dangerous drug.
You become irrational and that firm grip on reality
Flies out the window when you grip on for a hug
Don’t deny it, we both love and hate
It’s written in the blood we all shed
Love we show and all makes us human
Or we are better six feet under… Dead.

Family is the only love I see and know
It’s etched into our heart and into our soul
A mother, a son, a daughter, a friend
These are the things that make hearts feel whole.

It's hard to choose someone,
Someone to mean and be everything.
Because sometimes they will be there,
Then the memory of them is slowly fading.

I think it's hard to say I love you,
To someone and know what it means.
Cause you won't find it anywhere,
Not in any book hidden in the seams.

Hi,
I'm back.
No silly haha
My names not back.
But to be completely honest,
Actually I'm not back.
I never left,
I was here every single day.
I sat behind my phone screen,
Waiting for you,
Typing...
To text back.
But you didn't,
I think I know why now.
So hi again,
Maybe now you can reply?

Even a blind man sits and says,
Ay I see
And the deaf man says,
Oh I was told by a little birdy.
For they understand more,
About the torment of life and love.
Yet the dead still live,
In the darkness of the light above.
Still dead in love,
And living in hate.
All the time in the world;
End it now?...
I think it's too late.
Such a material world,
But everything's fine.
I live in a thought,
Another world created by my mind.
Awake in a dream,
Where I'd die and wake up.
A social girl with social anxiety,
Her feelings, her head corrupts.
We dance with ghosts,
Of our past memories.
And sing to our children,
Their sweet melodies.
To teach the lesson,
And stop the cycle continuing.
Yet the same mistakes are made again,
Oh how the Irony is sinking in.

Some experience it,
In death.
Some experience it,
In life.
But losing a friend either way,
Causes apart of life to die.

I heard you're back again:
The feelings again start to begin
The desire
To be something you admire.

I heard the whispers about me:
The standard set of me.
The hurt
Leaving my heart ashed and burnt.

And I know after every day,
You'll at least text me hey.
I'll write down all the things I wanted to say,
Not letting one word whither or fray.
Cause I know for now you'll stay,
And I'll be happy for today.

If you want change,
Make a change.
It is up to you,
To deam what is true.

She kissed the sky,
And hug the clouds goodbye
But in her life all she saw was grey.
Her friends all told her,
They'd be better off without her
So now all she knew has fade.
Oh why don't you show
That smile that we all love
Do you know?

She jumped up so high,
On to cloud nine
But No one was there
To dream with her
The smile she once wore
It was ripped up
It was torn into peices
Now her heart floating around
She's falling to the ground
It's left her
In her own world

So tell me why I feel so alone
In a world full of 8 billion people,
And why music is the only thing
That rests my soul

You didn't get the j-
Ist this sky is turning orange
As the sunsets across the meadow,
And I'm drowning in the shallow - end

A sailor died,
Drowning in the tears he cried.
And he sunk to the bottom,
Of the ocean he created.
No one mourned over,
The death of another...
Lost soul,
To the sea.

I've been smiling for so long now,
I almost forgot how much it hurts to cry...

Just signing off for today,
My feelings yet again got in the way.
Made life **** again,
So going before my day begins.

Signing off again for a second time,
Cause I can't sit here and pretend I'm fine.
Too many people spreading s**t,
Too much time... space on my wrist to slit.

Signing off,
To sum it up... It's alot of stuff.
Hopefully this is the last,
And hopefully I'm out fast.

Be happy,
You got through today.
Be happy,
I'll tell myself everyday.
Be happy,
Even when you're ******.

Black and White,
That's all you had to be.
You gave yourself to someone else,
And I got left with the darker
50 shades of your grey.

You ****** up my sadness,
And happiness seemed to go with it.
Now I'm alot less,
Than I was without you.





But now you're gone,
And I still feel lost.

Left or right?
A treat of minds delight.
There is nothing left to write,
Words mean nothing.
Unless specifically ordered,
To mean something.
Like,
Since when did stress,
Become this monster forcing me to dress
Like her because she's liked.
Here's the thing,
Sometimes I think, maybe I can do this.
Just one blink, a moment to quickly pass.
I can do... This.
You know?
But not even if one thing is wrong,
Words turn stress into the monster.
Why can't I be like her?
Why can't I ever be like her?...
Perfect.
But this monster does not leave.
No, sometimes I have to convince myself,
That maybe dreams come true.
And just like most of my happy memories,
That this monster will go away too.
But that little girl inside,
Inside of me, is better off dead.
For she already died when I realised,
People only care about the outside.
Yeah, on the inside she's dead,
Cause all good things come to an end.
Right?
But outside, it's so easy to fake,
A smile, fake a laugh.
Oh it's all a lie, but you ask why?...
Because everyday I have to push away,
my anxiety and say goodbye.
But like a good friend it comes back,
And says hi...
And then I'm scared.
That the whispers will come back.
Just sometimes I think,
Maybe if nothing changed when I was nine,
I would be just... fine.
But I'm fine, you know?
Using my smile as make up.
Just so I can show up - happy?
No, I am still a child,
And the whispers that once flaunted me,
Now haunt me with,
Muffled, misunderstood, murmured, meticulous, murderous, memories.
And what's left?
Left of myself after everything,
That I've been through...
Just lead to the conclusion,
That the little girl I was became snuffed out,
Not by darkness but by others light.
And concluded that all people care about,
Is their sight...
But I'm not much to look at,
Right?
I am but, broken hearted,
Promises,
Broken bones, burnt, bunched in bundles,
Buried deep within my complex,
Mind, body, soul...
But sooner or later,
By one or another,
I will be manipulated to be used,
For man's malicious intent again...
And nothing will be left,
But my minds' midnight delights...

'Should I go?'
He asks me mid in the night.
'I don't know',
I reply knowing I might loose his light.
Cause its seems he only wants my body,
When I want his soul.
And I don't want another sad story,
I just want my heart to feel whole.

Even a blind man sits and says,
Ay I see
And the deaf man says,
Oh I was told by a little birdy.
For they understand more,
About the torment of life and love.
Yet the dead still live,
In the darkness of the light above.
Still dead in love,
And living in hate.
All the time in the world;
End it now?...
I think it's too late.
Everything's fine.