Bails B: Favorites

May 2014 Bails B

Music

May 2014 Bails B

jazz rocks

Music

Your word that speaks the language of your soul.
Your soul that hears the voice of your heart.
Your heart that scream the name of your mind.
Your mind that whispers the emotion of the lines.
Your lines with notes and tones. And
your tones that tune the feeling you have.

The music you have.
Through your soul into your heart and to your mind.

To all the music lover

#heart #mind #music #soul #lines #notes #tune #tones

May 2014 Bails B

It Shouldn't Be This Hard To Love

May 2014 Bails B

Ellyn k Thaiden

It Shouldn't Be This Hard To Love

Love is patient
Love is kind
I think love
Should also be blind

It shouldn't matter your gender
It shouldn't matter your race
It shouldn't matter your class
The fact that it does is a disgrace

If you take a glance
At the world as it spins
These start to matter less
As the change begins

Your gender shouldn't matter
Or your ****** orientation
The color of the skin
There shouldn't be discrimination

Whether you're a boy
Who loved a girl
Or a boy who loved a boy
Or some other type of gender swirl

So let love do
It's own little thing
And see what a blinded bliss
Can easily bring

May 2014 Bails B

I'm Done

May 2014 Bails B

Ellyn k Thaiden

I'm Done

I'm done being the
Back up plan for
Boys like you

I'm done with falling
In love only to crash
Trying to catch myself

I am done cutting
And hiding away a whole
Side away from my family

I'm done ******* in
Air with no positive
Side effects to cling onto

May 2014 Bails B

Don't Worry

May 2014 Bails B

Ellyn k Thaiden

Don't Worry

I don't hate you
I still love you with
All my heart
I just think its time to start

Building a gap between you
And I because I know
In the end we will
Only be friends

I can't handle another
Heart break from another
Beautiful boy
Who thinks of me as a toy

I can't stand by and watch
You date and **** other
Girls while I'm still standing here
Waiting for your return

No I do not hate you
I love you
But I for once need
To watch myself

Because the cutting is
Getting deeper and
The night's are getting longer
And my heart is growing colder

Don't worry about me
I'm not much to worry about
I'm not somebody special
And I have no doubt

That you'll find another girl
Who notices the special spark
In your heart
So don't worry about me anymore

May 2014 Bails B

Suicide Hotline

May 2014 Bails B

Ellyn k Thaiden

Suicide Hotline

You didn’t actually care
You we’re only reciting
Practiced questions
Drilled into you

Yes it was nice to talk
To someone but all I want
Is some one who
Gives a ****

Because lately I have
Been running out
Of ***** to give
And options to choose from

May 2014 Bails B

Little Girl

May 2014 Bails B

Ellyn k Thaiden

Little Girl

With that razor
Every slice I make
I hurt the scared little girl
That's pounding on my heart

She just wants to be free from me, too

May 2014 Bails B

Voices Voices

May 2014 Bails B

Ellyn k Thaiden

Voices Voices

These voices in my head
Are telling me to go to bed
And maybe for once
I should listen

Because life can be so cruel
As we work our way through school
Just trying to get by
Through these hormonal states in life

While we try to raise our head up high
Sometimes well falter and sigh
And our heads will hang low
Tears will drop to the floor

But these voices are demanding
They control the things I'm standing
For so strongly
But my knees are going out

So please, people in my brain
Don't drive me too insane
I'm halfway there
And one more voice will do it

Think of all the mistakes you've made
And all the friends that have fade
And realize that it's
All your fault

So voices voices go away
And don't come back another day
And if I die before I wake
Let my soul fly free

May 2014 Bails B

I'm Sorry Again

May 2014 Bails B

Ellyn k Thaiden

I'm Sorry Again

I'm sorry
I'm so sorry mom
But I can't look you in
The eyes and say what's wrong

After you look at me
And you say
"I hate that you're hurting
And that you feel this way"

You hate that I'm hurting
But a big problem in my life
Is that the world is cold and I'm alone
And I've been hurting myself

Burgundy scars litter
My thigh and the
Crevice of my arm
A way to escape pain

It's been over two years time
When the razor first greeted the
Fresh pale skin and
I don't know how to stop

They elope each night
Kiss till I am red
The razor abuses the skin
But the skin can't let go of relief

I feel like you won't understand
That you'll take the razors away
What would I do then
Have panic attacks each and every day?

I'm sorry I'm hurting mom
I know you're hurting too
That's why I don't talk
About the self harm I do

I stash the razors, the blades
The ace bandages that I wrap
Myself each night
And I hide it so well

I'm sorry mom

May 2014 Bails B

Labels Labels

May 2014 Bails B

Ellyn k Thaiden

Labels Labels

No no no
Let's back up here
And clarify what being
Pansexual means

I am not
Greedy
Selfish
*** crazed
Possessed
Or *** obsessed

I have always been told
That it matters what's on
The inside
Not the out

So excuse me
When I love someone
For their mind
Not their body

Body is a bonus
Not the main course
Yes I have physical attractions
To all body types

But at the end of the day
You can't love just the body
It's the interior decorating
Of the soul that counts

I hate labels. But I am what I am. I don't think love is put into one gender or the other.
What if today, you met the love of your life. But they are a "gender" that you don't like. would you pass it up? Or they use to be a girl or guy, But now they're different. Would you pass up such beautiful and true love?