when you miss someone that isnt gone
you dont get the sympathy vote
you get the
"well how could you ever miss them when they hurt you so bad?"
and you say "youre right"
because youre scared of furthering the conversation
but in your head
you say
i know i shouldnt miss them but although they hurt me at least they claimed to love me
and i cant help that everytime i think of grape jelly
i remember
them.
and i start to miss the way their hands held mine.
and the way they combed their fingers through my tangled hair.
and whenever they were leaving they gave me a quick kiss on the cheek.
i cant help but miss them.
and you know you cant tell anyone this because you know
you shouldnt be thinking this
you know you shouldn't be feeling this.
because they wont say,
"oh im sorry for your loss"
they'll say "well what did you except from a high school relationship"
and yes, i did see heartbreak coming just i didnt think it'd be so soon
and i didnt think it'd hurt so bad.
because although our relationship was short lived i thought that maybe it couldve lasted a little bit longer
and maybe sometimes i wish you were dead
not because i hate you
not because you heart me so bad
but because maybe then i can grieve you in peace.