Vexed from the beginning,
Perplexed from the start,
What is it about us that's keeping the two of us apart?

I may have erred once long ago,
I myself am in guilt and shed tears in woe,
But then again, I still don't get what's keeping the two of us apart?

Maybe we're not made for each other,
Maybe we're too distant to ever fall for one another,
No, its actually you who's keeping the two of us apart,

It's you who pushes me away,
It has always been you, the egoistic and contemptuous one,
And I alone stand to keep this relationship between us united.

Love is just so hard,
I love you, no doubt and will always love you,
You and I are compatible,
But it's just the world,
It's so cruel.
Then there's our fate !
What if we aren't meant to be?

Drenched in his blood I stood up staring at his dead body,
Holding a ****** knife in my hand,
For a minute not aware of what I had done,
Stains of blood on my shirt made me ****,
I had committed a ******,
Not feeling any guilt though,
I dragged his corpse to the end of the street,
Looking around to see if anybody was watching,
In the snow,
I started digging up a hole,
As I finished I shoved the body in the cold,
Giving final touches to the grave,
I left,
Without staring back I took off on my car,
Momentarily I came across a bar,
Forcing my body through the entrance I asked for a glass of water,
I took out a pen and my note pad ignoring my whereabouts,
In this callous place this what, so far I write......

You light up my night,
Your presence enchants me baby,
You're my sweet heart.

I brush my hand over my
exposed, scarred flesh
over the tormented bumps
and reddish blue bruises

I was once so open
so free to spread my wings
be myself
and to flee to places that were forbidden

But it all ended
in despair
with my heart composed
and my body sold

I was so submerged
with my surroundings once
I was so devoted to my friends
that I got carried away and got hurt

I became fragile
and frail
to an extent where I'd say that
I am now vulnerable

I trusted so blindly
I cared so thoughtlessly
that I forgot how it'd feel to suffer
to bleed and die from the inside

Now all I'm left with is
pain and poignant memories of yesterday
bits by bits I join them together
yet I am lonely

I was once so happy
once so juvenile
it all was taken away
because I trusted the unexpected, what can I say?

The feelings of vexation,
The torment leading to hope for independence,
When is this magical moment going to come,
When I flee away from this prison,
Where I am chained and tortured alive,
Where my heart feels numb and paralyzed,
Where I have no say,
I want to go away,
To a place,
Where I get the chance to explore my needs,
To see the world with me,
And only me,
Where I am the master of my own thoughts,
And the rightful owner of myself,
Where I'm not instructed on what to do,
And what not to do,
Because clearly you and I both can see,
This is my life,
So please let it be and mind your own business,
Which is embracing your own peace.

He is so caught up in his life
that he forgot that I existed
in his life beside him
bearing his angry character day and night,

I have compromised so much
that I'm sure I could pile them up in a tower
gaze on top and still see no hope
as you blocked me away,

Sharing your feelings with other
not telling me how you feel
and in return expecting me to understand
please explain how that can be,

Is this distance
that now exists between us
not as hard for you
as it is for me?

I know that I loved you
and that you never really loved me
faking your promises
and lying to my face,

Behind my back you cheat
for a year it took you to get me
now that i said yes
Is this ignorance what i get?

Tears trinkling down-
Her cheeks so red and wet,
Thinking insanely about him.

My heart so fragile,
Bumpy on the edges,
And sharp from the sides,
Scars seem to cover its layer,
Making it rough and pale,
My acute and chronic heart beats synchronize in resonance,
Lubb-dubb, lubb-dubb, lubb-dubb.

Glazing bodies,
Entwined and tangled,
Locked and lost in the midst,
Surreptitious romance,
Forgotton the rest,
From poignancy to repair,
From love to extreme,
Just you and me caught up,
Alone,
As we set aside the rest,
And share heaven,
Touching and caressing,
Kissin' sensational and passionate,
Allure and seductiveness,
The heat I feel is not the situation,
But me and your electric touch,
Marking me as your possession,
Your flavor,
A minty enthralling posion against my lips,
Your breath,
On my nape movin' along the grooves,
Making my hair stand *****,
Your captivating eyes,
Drown me in their deepness sinkin' me deeper and deeper,
I see no escape from your enchant,
Helpless now and caught up in your trance,
I feel my balance no more,
My body feels weak as you're my strength and my eternity,
You're my good luck charm,
You're my worst possible distraction,
My nightmare,
My soul,
A part of me which may never flee,
You're my sweet, melodious lullaby,
Puttin' me to sleep as I feel at tranquil when I feel near you,
Distance may be vast,
But nothing can stop me from lovin' you.

In sickness and health,
I seek refuge and comfort from you,
Oh mom !
Innumerable times have I disrespected you,
But whenever I am down I always come to you,

I may look around in despair,
In search of help,
But where to go I think to myself,
Without you I feel torn,
I have no one there to assist me,

Oh mom !
I maybe old,
But not enough to walk through this war-zone,
It's your hand that leads me to success,
How can i be so blind?

That one night,
In my room I lay in the dark,
Alone I tried to fight my fear,
Mom, you were away,
And I was so scared,

That one time I remember,
In school I fell,
I sprained my leg,
I bled a lot and cried for someone to help,
But no one really payed attention,

Everyday as I grow mature,
I see you old and frail,
Your stress lines and wrinkles seem to appear,
Your face so pale,
But till today you're there to mentor me and guide the way.

Bred and bonded,
My childhood was amazing,
With him in his embrace I stayed in comfort,
His loving arms that wrapped around me,
And shielded me from threats,
And his gentle fingers that wiped away my tears,
His soft and mellifluous voice that sung me lullabies,
His steady and optimistic nature that gave a better outlook on the life that I now foresee,
His memory so vast and his loss so poignant,
Reminiscing his presence only shatters me in tears,
Knowing this time he won't be there to wipe them away,
Or to kiss my cheek and console me.

Let me savor each and everytime,
In this world-
That's going to destruct one day,
Vandalize each and everyone or thing important to me,
Let me savor each and everytime in it !

It's been long since I've found something to intrigue me,
It's been quite a while-
Having ups and downs,
My heart breaks and wails,
So poignant and reminiscing are those episodes,
At times I feel so low-
Fall down in my own sorrow,
And spill tears in abyss,

But now I say;
Let me savor each and everytime,
In this world-
That's going to destruct one day,
Vandalize each and everyone or thing important to me,
Let me savor each and everytime in it !

if only i was in knowledge of the monster that hid within him
i would've been more cautious and my actions, controlled
how oblivious and frail was my heart to fall under his prey
i yearned his flawless presence as it quenched all my thirst
but little did i know his soullessness
he was dead and cold,

the hunger in his eyes starved for my flesh and his sadistic smile;
all he wanted was a body to complete him
he was not made for love, his promises were all lies
he feasted on his prey and moved on to the next
he was but a womanizer, a heartless lover
he was dead and cold

my life once revolved around him
manipulated by his orders, i was utterly in love with him
i cherished what little time we spent together
the exquisite memories that i reminisce, even now leave me in tears
oh how precious were they, but in the end nothing mattered to him
he was dead and cold

the inescapable terror that resides within my soul,
a maze paradoxically runs in my mind,
confused and clueless about why i see what i see?
why i feel what i feel?
how is it that I'm alive whilst I'm dead from the inside,
being shattered is one thing, being dead from inside is another,
there seems to be something lurking behind my smile,
something tricky that halts me from living,
something that I'm ambiguous to,
stranded on the edge,
i know not about the emptiness that haunts me.

Infectious cravings strike,
Day by day materializing,
Away from purity and humanity,
Somewhere, infatuating over labels and glamour,
Does it matter that people are dying?
Silent echoes of the wind swirl pass,
It's the shop's they are gathered around-
Where you hear only people engage and sounds of clitter clatter.

The sun dawns,
In variance of vibrant colors to the sky,
A mixture of colors merging together,
Like water colors in scheme,
Bright and sharp,
Giving an edge to it,
The scenic sun,
The red radiant sky,
Spreading it's rays throughout,
The beauty of the sky,
Such an enchanted sight.

You have always been my first and last intention,
The way you first set your eyes on me,
Oh so memorable was that day !

Our first conversations ended in such regret,
You were leaving and I was way too late to confess,
But we both strengthened that connection from falling apart,

The way you talk to me,
You make the whole situation feel wrong in so many ways,
You escalate my heart beat and comfort me,

I feel my heart burning,
I can feel our love yearning and progressing,
With every breath and word you utter I know I feel at home.

The left and right motion of a pendulum,
Can not be easy to cease,
They say time moves on,
Without any obstacles that dawn,
Arising conflicts,
Over here and over there,
Time still goes on,
Leaves fall on the ground,
But time no matter what, counts,
Wounds and scars may come to thee,
But time still goes on.

My poetic insights
Confabulate with my brain
Spilling words in a rhythm
A flow I write about my love,

My poetic conscience
Assimilates with my hand
Moving my pen hastily
In description I write about your touch,

My poetic gestures
Seen in my writing
My heart races as I write each word
With love and feeling I express and pour in my thirst for you.

Contouring each cheek bone,
Defining each bump,
With exquisiteness you were made,

A color palette used to make those beautiful eyes,
With your creamy white skin,
Emerald lenses were made that incremented your beauty,

Your hair so brown,
Fall on your face,
With your tone they reflect your appearance,

Each and every part of you-
Was made with such tenderness,
You were made with such love,

The power of surgeries,
The usage of makeup,
Or any other thing cannot make you perfect,

If God has made you this way,
Maybe you're tempting and attractive this way,
So why change yourself and fiddle with His gift?

'Writing poetry is quite easy',
Says a stranger to me.
'Woah, woah ! Hold on there buddy,
We strive hard to pen it down,
You call it easy',
Said  I.
He said, ' What's there to do? Just rhyme.'
I said, ' If you think its so easy go ahead its a free country,
Show me what you got. Poetry is about soul,
Not about rhymes or writing songs.
It's an art and it should not be humiliated in such a way.'
After this he went blank.

Connecting myself to your heart
I try to fathom the intensity of our love
the warmth of your touch
the concern that you shower me with
what is it that inclines me towards you?

It was perhaps the very sight
the glimpse of your first arrival
it was what took my breath away
and then I understood
I was lightning and you my thunder

A mixture of sedation and romance
how your words send goosebumps down my spine
the force of attractions that pull me towards you
it was all clear from that very day and I realized
I was madly in love with you!

The passing days,
Have not but altered my slot,
My place in your heart, gone,
You seem to like someone else with more want,

Her eyes deep,
Her touch dainty,
All you speak about is of her,
Her flawless touch and smile enlightened,

What have I done?
What did I do?
For you to hate me so much,
Is it not enough?
To have what you breath,
Than lose everything just to keep in touch,

Because for you,
I can shove all the wonders of this world,
Journey through the stars,
To come near you and tear down the oh so strong walls,

Picking up each and every brick,
One by one I put em up in a huge fort,
Which I solely designed just for you,
Because I love you so much,

My heart yearns for your soul,
To grasp what once was cold,
To somehow get you back and shine with every touch,
A celestial unison which you don't want at all,

What have I done?
What did I do?
For you to hate me so much,
Is it not enough?
To have what you breath,
Than lose everything just to keep in touch,

Because for you,
I can shove all the wonders of the world,
Journey through the stars,
To come near you and tear down the oh so strong walls.

Minute by minute I fall in love,
Limiting myself,
And restricting my heart for only you,
Your love at extreme diffuses my soul,
The ash n flame of our relationship enrages,
As time passes the candles of my past-
Which were once bright,
Die,
My past now lucid and dark doesn't haunt me,
Because by your side I feel more alive,
The enchant and charisma in our love strengthens our bond.

My heart dysfuntional,
My brain delusional of all thought,
Devoiding gallantry,
Enraging vain,
That even giving others pain,
My body ached,
Visualizing the insane that I was,
Metaphorically,atrocities in me were at gain.,
The cloudy and hazy fog,
That once put a block,
Had swept away,
I changed my conceited and prejudiced self,
The only thing I got in return,
Was ample of hurt and poignancy to repair.

I wrote a poem and itsssss goneeeee vanisheddddddd... Goddddd now I forgot what I wrote :(
Why???? Why me?????

The passing days,
The dark and lonesome events,
Alone in your memories i have died internally,
Trying to put back the pieces that are far gone,
Far from reach,
The aching sights that I see,
The voices of you in my head,
Now only flashbacks,
Why oh why did you leave?
One year gone and many more to see,
To bear the days in your absence,
And cry a pool of tears,
But still you won't come back,
I understand.

Before you came in my life,
My life was in turmoil,
In remembrance of the last one that got away,
My in fluency to speak about pain,
It was a mixture of anguish and aggravation for those around me,
My ghastly; preferably long and dark nights,
Where I sat on the bed to drip woe out of my eyes,
My lumpy throat,
And catastrophic burst,
Spoiled brat was I,
Dripping blood which sprang from my slit wrists,
The torturous and innumerable suicides I committed,
I'm scared of trusting an unknown,
On a relationship which is rather disliked by others,
What the heck !
The rest will always speak ill,
But it is you I'm worried sick about,
What if you do the same to me,
Like the rest of the lot did to me,
Make me love you and subsequently leave me,
That's what all do.

I stand there alone,
In defiance of his act,
Weeping and crying of what I had,
Not sure how to end it all,

He stood there,
Pride and prejudiced within,
Trying to show off all he had,
Conceited and cliche he was.

I tried my best to keep away,
Following my heart,
Not being ridiculed in his idiocy,
Like the time I had once been in my past,

He pressurized in getting his way,
Ignoring the rest,
With his atrocious ways,
How sane.

I know I am obese,
Just please stop nagging,
And let me live in peace !

Home is a place that does not dissipate
a place where ones safe and in peace
where you feel you belong
yet my mind falters to derive feelings from mine
the solidarity and serenity in your families company is joyous
but lately i sporadically ever feel that way
the significance of my home is long gone
i feel i am alone
since i grew old i have come to realize that a woman has no home
she belongs nowhere
she is just another human being, a stranger to her family
who comes in their lives and leaves, hopelessly and coaxed with words of love
alienated and distant by her own
a woman is regarded as only a caretaker and nothing more!

People will always judge you whether you’re right or wrong. It is up to you how you deal with the situation and carry yourself.

In sickness and health,
In sorrow and pain,
In vengeance,
In reminiscence,

A poet writes to repair,

When alone,
When hurt,
When stabbed,
In happiness or grief,

A poet writes to heal.

Dignity fades-
Changes are yet to assemble,
Because you are still the same.

Discretion in its way,
Still stands to prevail,
Completely off track and totally astray.

My words seem to create no sense,
Imprudence can be seen in it,
Although they're foolish but, not too dense.

Vandalizing all what I thought,
I continue writing in a flow,
Nothing can intrude my thoughts.

They're gonna say you're not worthid,
They're gonna tell you they don't care,
They'll degrade you till you break,

You err, they'll say you're frail,
You cry, they'll say you're hopeless,
You smile, they'll say you're fake,

This is our society,
No matter what you do,
What you say,

Wherever you go,
Wherever you stay,
In love or in pain,

They'll envy you,
And shatter you,
They'll say stuff that'll hurt you,

Even if you're right,
Even if  you're wrong,
They'll judge you,

Till the day you live,
After the day you die,
They'll share their sympathies but will always portray you as weak.

The non-stop tampering of the glow,
The Sunday moon drops in expiration,
Illuminating the sky with it's beauty,
Sparks rejuvenate,
The white light dies in spreading red hot rays by the sun,
The powerful and absorbent radiations,
Enveloping each and every soul in its blanket,
Lustrous enchant,
Creeks through the curtains,
Awakening me from my slumber.

Shrouded -
I lay facing the sky,
As I see birds fly and sounds of crying people emerging in the room,
This wasn't the life I imagined to live,
This wasn't what I wanted,

All I ever asked for was love,
A companion,
A family or some kind of achievement,
But what was my life like?
Perplexed and always puzzling,

I died early,
I needed more time to spend in this world,
I needed to bring about change,
I needed to rectify my mistakes,
And more over, I needed suffice deeds to disappear my sins.

I let fire burn bits of my past,
Let the flame touch each edge n corner of my assumed fate,
The texture of ash swirls with the wind,
Moving to a place that no longer exists,
For I have banished your entry in my brain,
The very thought of you disgusts me,
It was only I who ignored all your attitude,
Were it for someone else, she'd already have smacked you in the face,
It was only I who was crazy enough to say,
'It's okay we'll just be friends',
Were it for someone else she would've shoved those words on your face.

Sorrow of demise,
Happiness but pride,
Money and rights,
Racism and sexism,
Oppression through rage,
Conflicts over beliefs and critism,
Discrimination and ****** through words,

As we all know,
Actions speak louder than words,
I absolutely agree with this,
What is life without peace?
What is life without feeling others pain?
What is life in any form?
Life needs to be defined well,
Living your life to its best and not caring about the rest,
This is not life,

Helping the poor,
Wiping away tears of the pained,
Loving and consoling,
Putting an end to quarrels,
And easing people in trouble,
Not living life in superiority,
Not being atrocious to others,
This is all pointless,
One day we all leave,
Others who shall grieve will only grieve for a while,
Then they forget and move on with their lives,
We all have separate graves, separate deeds and separate accusations,
Only God will see and we shall not astray from his path.

I broke and i shattered
I fell and lost my way
I reviewed my mistakes
Couldn't find none, so fell even deeper in ache
I saw that spark in us
But maybe it wasn't meant to stay
Or maybe we weren't supposed to end it all this way
I was trapped in the darkside
Death enveloped me, despair came rushing my way
I deserved your loyalty, but love it wasn't you who was loyal
It was the pain, that everlasting pain that stayed and destroyed me throughout these days
I saw a glint in your smile
It made my whole life so eternal
But on reaching this stage of my life
I learned no one remains forever
Everyone either leaves or changes
I confess, i fell in abyss
I am depressed and there are days when i can't bear it
But my love, our past keeps me going
It will always push me
And because of one mistake of falling in love with you
Today I stand straight
Half of my body limp, scarred and wounded
But i learned so much more from our experience
That i came out strong, regardless of what others say
I actually feel weighed but sorry for you
Because you lost a part of me that i couldn't give to anyone but you
That part of me so resilient, so loving and so extraordinary that no one else may ever be able to give away.

Sitting alone in the attic,
I shiver as I cradle my body.
In this dark I sit alone,
Cold and scared.

I've been feeling as if I'm being observed,
This dark demon that  haunts me.
It has  left me with just misery and pain,
First it kills and then possesses my body.

I shudder to think how this evil is feeding on me,
Extracting all my memory.
All there left is my soul,
And hope that one day I'll be free.

A jolt I feel ravel up my body,
My droopy eyes shut in tire.