Infectious cravings strike,
Day by day materializing,
Away from purity and humanity,
Somewhere, infatuating over labels and glamour,
Does it matter that people are dying?
Silent echoes of the wind swirl pass,
It's the shop's they are gathered around-
Where you hear only people engage and sounds of clitter clatter.

Behind every shadow,
Lives a tyrant and a more atrocious soul,
Among-st us he resides,
And with words and care he entices,

To this mortal universe,
He has been sent by God,
As a manipulator and a mind controller,
Ready to belittle our faith and direct us away,

Somewhere from inside,
We know we've sinned,
We repent and fall on our knees for eternal bliss,
And pray for forgiveness and the extermination of our sins.

Under the lamp,
I sit with a pen and a pad,
Searching for the right words to write,
To describe you,
As I think and think,
I realize I have no words that can describe you,
It is so hard to write on you,
But then again I'm lost because of you,
In this dark illuminated light that falls on my pad,
I put my head on the pad,
And doze of in a deep slumber,
Dreaming what would it be like in your arms.

Sorrow of demise,
Happiness but pride,
Money and rights,
Racism and sexism,
Oppression through rage,
Conflicts over beliefs and critism,
Discrimination and ****** through words,

As we all know,
Actions speak louder than words,
I absolutely agree with this,
What is life without peace?
What is life without feeling others pain?
What is life in any form?
Life needs to be defined well,
Living your life to its best and not caring about the rest,
This is not life,

Helping the poor,
Wiping away tears of the pained,
Loving and consoling,
Putting an end to quarrels,
And easing people in trouble,
Not living life in superiority,
Not being atrocious to others,
This is all pointless,
One day we all leave,
Others who shall grieve will only grieve for a while,
Then they forget and move on with their lives,
We all have separate graves, separate deeds and separate accusations,
Only God will see and we shall not astray from his path.

My poetic insights
Confabulate with my brain
Spilling words in a rhythm
A flow I write about my love,

My poetic conscience
Assimilates with my hand
Moving my pen hastily
In description I write about your touch,

My poetic gestures
Seen in my writing
My heart races as I write each word
With love and feeling I express and pour in my thirst for you.

My heart so fragile,
Bumpy on the edges,
And sharp from the sides,
Scars seem to cover its layer,
Making it rough and pale,
My acute and chronic heart beats synchronize in resonance,
Lubb-dubb, lubb-dubb, lubb-dubb.

Home is a place that does not dissipate
a place where ones safe and in peace
where you feel you belong
yet my mind falters to derive feelings from mine
the solidarity and serenity in your families company is joyous
but lately i sporadically ever feel that way
the significance of my home is long gone
i feel i am alone
since i grew old i have come to realize that a woman has no home
she belongs nowhere
she is just another human being, a stranger to her family
who comes in their lives and leaves, hopelessly and coaxed with words of love
alienated and distant by her own
a woman is regarded as only a caretaker and nothing more!

Tears trinkling down-
Her cheeks so red and wet,
Thinking insanely about him.

Darkness is what evicts my oh-so-cold soul,
anger and sorrow drips from within me,
my heart pitch black drips hate;
drenched in my coldness my scars ignite,
my skin slit and wounded consistently,
my abhor towards you increments,
if only you knew the pain you afflicted me with,
i take down the path to make you pay,
to regret on your doings,
a revenge not through actions,
preferably my silence,
my lack of expression and my ignorance towards you,
for you put me through so much agony-
that i had to sequester myself from the world,
and shut down all my emotions and extracted out my joy,
now i hope for you to learn from your mistakes,
for my avoidance and silence will make you realize my worth!

An awfully long period that we spent apart
wasn't as easy as it seems
but how easy is it for others
to say their side of goodbyes

I love you irrevocably
from the beginning till now
your presence, your everything
its lightens up my day

there's something about you
that keeps me from losing you
could probably be a restless soul
or could be the time we have had together wrapped in each others arms

once hesitant to fall in love
now it feels like eternity with you
though distant yet you reside in my heart
as I drift deep into my thoughts all that my lips ever speak about is you, you and you!

Contouring each cheek bone,
Defining each bump,
With exquisiteness you were made,

A color palette used to make those beautiful eyes,
With your creamy white skin,
Emerald lenses were made that incremented your beauty,

Your hair so brown,
Fall on your face,
With your tone they reflect your appearance,

Each and every part of you-
Was made with such tenderness,
You were made with such love,

The power of surgeries,
The usage of makeup,
Or any other thing cannot make you perfect,

If God has made you this way,
Maybe you're tempting and attractive this way,
So why change yourself and fiddle with His gift?

When I die I know you won't miss me,
When the wind blows my soul away-
I know that even then you won't think of me,

You'll forget how I was to you,
You'll be so indulged in your life-
That you'll forget that one person who came to your life and tried to love you,

When the clock to your life stops,
When you'll be going away-
I know that even then you won't think of me,

You'll forget all my messages,
You'll forget how in love I was with you-
That you'll only demand for someone else in your afterlife,

When you breathe your last breath,
When in pain no one is around to see your struggle and hold your hand to calm you-
I know that even then you wont think of me.

I lost my youth,
After a feud with you.

'Follow your dream.'
Said a man.
I said,' I have many but I don't have a chance.'
He chuckled.
'Whats written in your fate you will get. But atleast make an effort and do your best.'
I nodded.
'You're destined to do great. Just take a step ahead.'
I smiled.
With that he left.
He was right.
Everyone has a chance.
From that day  onwards I never looked back.

Meditating my way to Nirvana,
I exult in desire,
My needs fufilled,
And tranquillity comes along as willed,

Wishing away tyranny,
Atrocious leaders that ****,
Should try meditation,
Until their soul reincarnates.

I've seen a thousand stars,
But I've never seen one like ours <3

Vexed from the beginning,
Perplexed from the start,
What is it about us that's keeping the two of us apart?

I may have erred once long ago,
I myself am in guilt and shed tears in woe,
But then again, I still don't get what's keeping the two of us apart?

Maybe we're not made for each other,
Maybe we're too distant to ever fall for one another,
No, its actually you who's keeping the two of us apart,

It's you who pushes me away,
It has always been you, the egoistic and contemptuous one,
And I alone stand to keep this relationship between us united.

Minute by minute I fall in love,
Limiting myself,
And restricting my heart for only you,
Your love at extreme diffuses my soul,
The ash n flame of our relationship enrages,
As time passes the candles of my past-
Which were once bright,
Die,
My past now lucid and dark doesn't haunt me,
Because by your side I feel more alive,
The enchant and charisma in our love strengthens our bond.

My heart dysfuntional,
My brain delusional of all thought,
Devoiding gallantry,
Enraging vain,
That even giving others pain,
My body ached,
Visualizing the insane that I was,
Metaphorically,atrocities in me were at gain.,
The cloudy and hazy fog,
That once put a block,
Had swept away,
I changed my conceited and prejudiced self,
The only thing I got in return,
Was ample of hurt and poignancy to repair.

People will always judge you whether you’re right or wrong. It is up to you how you deal with the situation and carry yourself.

Memorizing dates,
Events too in sequence,
So hectic and painful,
I feel hopeless,
And feel like tearing the book in half,
Please do it for me.

Flashing outburst in my heart,
A** celestial feeling,
Luring me to touch you,
Laminating these emotions,
I reach out for your hand,
Numb I feel,
Gliding within you.

Irresistable love,
Nostalgia.

Love distant,
Off shore but true,
Vandalizing all sorrow,
Eternity it feels to be in love with you.

Bred and bonded,
My childhood was amazing,
With him in his embrace I stayed in comfort,
His loving arms that wrapped around me,
And shielded me from threats,
And his gentle fingers that wiped away my tears,
His soft and mellifluous voice that sung me lullabies,
His steady and optimistic nature that gave a better outlook on the life that I now foresee,
His memory so vast and his loss so poignant,
Reminiscing his presence only shatters me in tears,
Knowing this time he won't be there to wipe them away,
Or to kiss my cheek and console me.

The drizzling rain,
Walking with a cane,
An old man narrates his story,
How he had met a young lady.

He was a business man in his time,
Who owned a salt mine.
He was quite  successful,
But not blissful.

Then one day he came across a woman,
She was as beautiful as a swan,
Who wore a dress in fawn,
She was ravishing.

She walked with such grace,
That could allure a man in different ways,
Her voice so calm,
Could evict a man in its trance.

He met her there,
It was a fine day,
He had manned up and went to her,
He asked her out.

That night,
He drove her around in the city of lights,
Every time she laughed,
His heart would stop.

He met her gaze,
All he could see was a young and strong woman,
Alone in this world full of cruel people,
Causing pain and talking insane.

In a few days,
He saw himself walking down the aisle,
With this woman in white.
He felt so delighted and lucky.

On 29 August 1986,
He called her at a park,
Where he was going to pop the question.
He was waiting for her arrival.

Suddenly the phone rang,
He answered the call,
He had just said hello,
Only then he realised it wasnt her call.

He started to weep,
As he ran down the parking lot,
He had got another call.
She was gone !

The old man hadn't stopped loving her.
He would go to the cemetery daily,
Sitting beside her grave he would talk to her.
She was the only woman he had ever yearned for.

The feelings of vexation,
The torment leading to hope for independence,
When is this magical moment going to come,
When I flee away from this prison,
Where I am chained and tortured alive,
Where my heart feels numb and paralyzed,
Where I have no say,
I want to go away,
To a place,
Where I get the chance to explore my needs,
To see the world with me,
And only me,
Where I am the master of my own thoughts,
And the rightful owner of myself,
Where I'm not instructed on what to do,
And what not to do,
Because clearly you and I both can see,
This is my life,
So please let it be and mind your own business,
Which is embracing your own peace.

The passing days,
Have not but altered my slot,
My place in your heart, gone,
You seem to like someone else with more want,

Her eyes deep,
Her touch dainty,
All you speak about is of her,
Her flawless touch and smile enlightened,

What have I done?
What did I do?
For you to hate me so much,
Is it not enough?
To have what you breath,
Than lose everything just to keep in touch,

Because for you,
I can shove all the wonders of this world,
Journey through the stars,
To come near you and tear down the oh so strong walls,

Picking up each and every brick,
One by one I put em up in a huge fort,
Which I solely designed just for you,
Because I love you so much,

My heart yearns for your soul,
To grasp what once was cold,
To somehow get you back and shine with every touch,
A celestial unison which you don't want at all,

What have I done?
What did I do?
For you to hate me so much,
Is it not enough?
To have what you breath,
Than lose everything just to keep in touch,

Because for you,
I can shove all the wonders of the world,
Journey through the stars,
To come near you and tear down the oh so strong walls.

An excruciating solace in her words
the sharpness of which cuts me through
a drop of blood is all that there is
its a family thing they'd say,

I try to break through
leaping forward to observe the wound
a poignant wave of terror swoons
the harshness in her expression could be the reason to undo the two,

To mend and bring back
i tried my utmost to seek through words
to beseech the two
and they pushed me saying let there be no one to intrude as it was a family feud.

The  blazing sun,
The radiance of her skin.
So enchanting,
And bewitching.

A vampire so ghastly told another vampire.
What a seldom act,
Falling for a mortal.

I've seen plenty,
But not one like him.
His pointy teeth and red eyes.
Anyways continuing his conversation.

Her body so gentle,
So soft,
And ripe.
Ima eat her alive.

Quickly erasing that thought,
He said no.
I'll marry her,
And turn her immortal.

The second vampire looked disgusted.
Then he began,
Ima call the volturi.
They'll come and fix your brain !

Drenched in his blood I stood up staring at his dead body,
Holding a ****** knife in my hand,
For a minute not aware of what I had done,
Stains of blood on my shirt made me ****,
I had committed a ******,
Not feeling any guilt though,
I dragged his corpse to the end of the street,
Looking around to see if anybody was watching,
In the snow,
I started digging up a hole,
As I finished I shoved the body in the cold,
Giving final touches to the grave,
I left,
Without staring back I took off on my car,
Momentarily I came across a bar,
Forcing my body through the entrance I asked for a glass of water,
I took out a pen and my note pad ignoring my whereabouts,
In this callous place this what, so far I write......

Throughout my day all I think about is you, you and you,
Your smile,
Your touch,
Your everything,
You're perfection to me,
Don't care about the rest,
Because looks don't matter to me,
A year,
A century will soon pass,
Leaving us interwined within each others arms,
Destiny matters,
So baby, I guess you're my eternity,
And with you I will cherish and dedicate my life.

I let fire burn bits of my past,
Let the flame touch each edge n corner of my assumed fate,
The texture of ash swirls with the wind,
Moving to a place that no longer exists,
For I have banished your entry in my brain,
The very thought of you disgusts me,
It was only I who ignored all your attitude,
Were it for someone else, she'd already have smacked you in the face,
It was only I who was crazy enough to say,
'It's okay we'll just be friends',
Were it for someone else she would've shoved those words on your face.

Feels like just yesterday
i realized my presence, a shadow
i merely let this shadow conquer me
i let my voice stay within myself, regardless of my rights
i let people manipulate me

i hid my feelings
i stopped my tears
i remained aloof from my heart
never understood what it was trying to convey
just listened to my brain, how selfish

i am what i was 8 years ago
dead from within
distant from sorrow and reckless with my heart
my soul cold and resistant to words of love
in actual i am reliving my past, have been and always will!

Constant apologies,
Drenched soul,
Blood flows,
Please stop this ridicule,
And just leave me alone.

Dignity fades-
Changes are yet to assemble,
Because you are still the same.

Discretion in its way,
Still stands to prevail,
Completely off track and totally astray.

My words seem to create no sense,
Imprudence can be seen in it,
Although they're foolish but, not too dense.

Vandalizing all what I thought,
I continue writing in a flow,
Nothing can intrude my thoughts.

He is so caught up in his life
that he forgot that I existed
in his life beside him
bearing his angry character day and night,

I have compromised so much
that I'm sure I could pile them up in a tower
gaze on top and still see no hope
as you blocked me away,

Sharing your feelings with other
not telling me how you feel
and in return expecting me to understand
please explain how that can be,

Is this distance
that now exists between us
not as hard for you
as it is for me?

I know that I loved you
and that you never really loved me
faking your promises
and lying to my face,

Behind my back you cheat
for a year it took you to get me
now that i said yes
Is this ignorance what i get?

Delusions have evaded my soul,
My scarred body so demented and err,
Numbness and bruises all over,
Feels like needles being poked,
Cold and piercing pain,
Anguish in height of repair,
My heart so baffled,
So perplex,
No feelings just heart break.

The non-stop tampering of the glow,
The Sunday moon drops in expiration,
Illuminating the sky with it's beauty,
Sparks rejuvenate,
The white light dies in spreading red hot rays by the sun,
The powerful and absorbent radiations,
Enveloping each and every soul in its blanket,
Lustrous enchant,
Creeks through the curtains,
Awakening me from my slumber.

In the alley I stood,
Lurking behind a pillar,
Leaning to see if someone would
come.
Unknown people passed by,
Smoking cigarettes,
Illuminating lights,
On the corner I waited for that one person,
Navigating his whereabouts through a GPS,
S**adly he had already passed  by.

Toppled by regret,
My sorrow takes me into depth
Cutting through my heart
And flowing with my blood

My soul torn in between
From needles of haters
And comments from society
Can I not live in tranquility?

Lagging behind
Considering imprudence for the sake of living
Is this life?
Is this how I would want it to be?

Queries-
They fog my mind
Making it hard to perceive
Vague and perplexed, stranded in the middle of nowhere.

You light up my night,
Your presence enchants me baby,
You're my sweet heart.

I wrote a poem and itsssss goneeeee vanisheddddddd... Goddddd now I forgot what I wrote :(
Why???? Why me?????

Shrouded bodies enveloped,
With stains, lifeless they lay in peace,

                                   Tears shed in vain,
                                   No humanity, no soul,

Screaming people dragged-
Within this circle of death and slaughter,

        Pain and remorseful families,
        Wail in pain, awaiting termination of terror

Blood of innocence,
Drains in catastrophic pool and trails

            Cold hearts and atrocities leavin' corpses,
            Exiling the countries citizens,

Wiping away masses,
In hundreds and more.

The sun dawns,
In variance of vibrant colors to the sky,
A mixture of colors merging together,
Like water colors in scheme,
Bright and sharp,
Giving an edge to it,
The scenic sun,
The red radiant sky,
Spreading it's rays throughout,
The beauty of the sky,
Such an enchanted sight.