Incapable of opening her heart
Hiding behind books
Underneath....
Self-Sabotaging
Exquisitely lies
So believable
Even she bought
Her own *******
Lock, stock, and barrel
or it is...
Hook, line, and sinker
Voiceless
Fear-filled
Worth-less
The one who
Closes off
Heart and Soul
Never learns
Hopeless
Purposeless
No real impact
Silent screams
Or maybe not so silent
Drowning in a pool
Of cries for help
Unable or
Unwilling
To grab a life line
She breaks
Her own heart
Numbing her soul
Unknowing of WHY
She refuses to
Stop Self-Sabotaging
or
Keeps her heart and soul
Closed to others
Never letting them close
Feeling so alone*

krs
4/1/2015

You know yourself,
and words that fly around you does not define you.
You are strong, beautiful, and passionate, loving
and worth it all.
I'll gladly treat you the way you deserve,
if your willing to learn how to be loved the way you deserve.
You don't deserve to be sad,
You deserve to be happy,
and be able to feel loved and not feel guilty about it.
I have heard and seen your heart.
Have faith in me.

All I need is a crack in your wall,
and your permission to come in,
and I would tear down your walls
I don't want you to climb out,
I want you to see how
I'm willing to work
to get to you

These wounds won't seem to heal, the pain it stays, it hurts just to feel. Just for a moment, I pray to be numb and have a false sense of what I've become. Broken and bruised, scars that won't heal, building caskets for tears from all these long years. Try again tomorrow, I hear my self say, but it's void when every day is exactly the same.