A very long, a very rough day I've had
Explaining a dark visitor & frozen pizza
....no celebrating with food today
Why? What's up?
Ahhhh honey, he came to take her today
Who came? For whom?
Doesn't really matter
You mean I don't know her? Or him?
No, you don't
Know her, or him...yet, I mean
& I doubt you're gonna meet either
one of them, for a very long time
Oh, now I'm just confused.
why do you say it doesn't matter?
Well some things are just gonna
*happen anyway ya know?
this one will intrude regardless
~ a divine intervention~
seriously, doesn't care about my feelings
or anyone's for that matter
came 7 months back, took him too
Oh yeah, that's right, go on...
you mean kismit?
I mean, he was her true love
I know, I could see it in her eyes
~heard the loudest sound I've ever heard~ she said,
~the most painful sound of goodbye~
(my version, or vision if you will)
came in the flash of a bullet
sent in a river of crimson blood sacrifice
brought on the tongue
of old man winter
rushing in on that frozen white water
escaping, again... onto the kitchen floor
Slow down, I remember,
poetic but so dramatic,
that is very unfortunate...
(a well-meaning understatement)
Nobody would have said
that about Romeo and Juliet
as I, feeling a tad bit patronized
& followed by an obligatory hug,
then a peck on the forehead
~well meaning again of course ~
I heard all the stories
we visited in the hospital
just this past July, right before the 4th
Gotta love a sense of humor...
(more kidding?)
That was the longest & the strangest
week of my life, hands down,
I seem to recall we didn't know if I was going to make it either...
as some seemingly inaudible
thoughts come out
as you know, you can't hide your
feelings, or actions from me
... haunted I am.
Yes, I do... fortunately or unfortunately, kidding, just kidding... relax.
Insomniacs you ladies are,
well sometimes anyway.
I sleep like a baby.
A baby?....I don't know about that
Really?
Do you think I'm staying awake for my looks?
...feeling fingers toward tired eyes
Do you think
I'm not sleeping intentionally?
~Sarcastically said~
I've done everything, including stand
on my **** head
tried every wild remedy known to man
Sensible man to say that though,
seeing my face, turning
bright red in confusion
not ill-tempered,
I'm feeling vexed and a bit perplexed
I guess, your gypsy heart sure is impossible to understand & I see you have a curse
suppose it could be worse,
the woes of an empath?
Those signs you see,
strange dreams, kind of a mystery
messages you find,
my Grandmother died from that ya know?
Just a nod of my head following...
Anyway, let me get this straight
your friend, the one you met
in that nice hospital
(Now, I know he must be kidding )
so, this dark visitor took her love first,
now you two are friends
and somehow he just took a friend
that you two have in common,
a sorta new friend?
Yeah that's right
Kinda
Well I'm still a little confused,
because I thought he committed suicide? What about her?
~A very deep breath following~
Suicide...ya know I hate that word
Like an overdosing of life
but reflected in a bad way
sounds kinda like you wanted to do it
I know in these particular situations
& circumstances
that wasn't the case
Maybe that's true sometimes
I believe, sometimes people just
can't understand, the taking
or the leaving, they literally break inside
come unglued... apart at the seams
feel like they're going to jump
right out of their skin
I listened to her tell his story
he said he didn't feel right
that morning
was the only thing,
was the only warning
from a flood
all those traumatic & dramatic
military memories
coming back
*back in full brilliant color
ONE FLASH of white light
From what did she go? Or him?
I don't know
Being too nice?
If that's the case
.....I'm a dead woman walking
Still an excuse?
For what?
What's in your hand?
This darlin'? Haha, very funny
(more uncomfortable humor?)
well, a drink of wine
& blowing a little smoke,
trying to just breathe
ain't the worst thing I'm fearing
No? What is?
That fancy dressed cloaked visitor
who'd ya think smarty-pants?
hoping he
...or she, I really don't know
hoping that one, doesn't darken
our door anytime soon
Yeah hey there's no moon,
interesting, well...alright then,
better catch some zzzzz's, get some rest
I wouldn't worry you're not "that nice"
haha, just kidding -again I love you
last call, last offering of that "humor"
Followed by a much more
sincere hug, deep and long
a soft kiss on the cheek trying to take a tear as fingers clutch at a paint stained
t-shirt, grasping at a
picture of what love is.
Just Breathe, she tells herself
Must be one of those time jokes
I didn't have the time to laugh
sorry sweetness
Emmmm...& yeah, rest
as I am tipping that last bit, a swallow...
as I am sipping that last tiny morsel
of bittersweet summer wine,
lighting a joint,
and a candle in the darkness
blowin' smoke
stepping outside,
looking into the wild night
saved all for such an occasion...
& trying to catch a glimpse
of that lovely luminous lady
I don't know if it's going to come cuz
I'm sooooo **** nice
more than likely, just cuz
my paper heart, is so **** heavy
can't take the weight off
or the waiting
it's just so **** heavy
probably won't be able
to lift it up one day
stuck in that long sleeping bed ....eventually..
forever sleeping, forcing a stop by
No words follow now
just calm quietness, as the flame
dances and licks at the air
tasting freedom,
she moves like grace
filled with gratitude
living for the coming midnight
even the crickets are tight-lipped
as you are watching over us again
I bow my head and say a silent prayer
It's 11:11...that angel I see her flying
and she's no longer trying to explain to the world her decision to go, they couldn't know that she's no longer crying
in a crumpled ball of paper
in her wastebasket
releasing the ink into the atmosphere
so I can write it all down.
down,
d
o
w
n
been down very different paths her & I
all hoping for the same thing, a heavenly ever after, forgiveness of our sins...
Sounds like suicide, I know
...but hey, they'll be plenty of resting
I hear,
and the endlessness....
long sleeping I fear,
when I'm gone just
another tragic ending to the day
Well alright
goodnight and I love you too
my lovely little
Angry Angels.
Cherie Nolan © 2016
Death comes again today, Not suicide this time, just do incredibly sad, my heart bleeds for the children. This is loaded with metaphors.