Like a feather in the breeze.
You never really know I’m there,
Until I start to leave.
I don’t make my connection deep,
Because I’m afraid of what I’ll lose.
I don’t try to compete with anyone else,
And I’ll never make you choose.
I prefer to stick to the sidelines,
Because the spotlight hurts my eyes.
I hide behind a constant smile,
So you won’t know that it’s a disguise.
People tend to forget I’m there,
When I’m in a crowded room.
I can disappear for days on end,
And I’m bound to do it soon,
Don’t worry if you notice I’m home,
I never meant to stay.
But I know you won’t miss me long,
I’ll be forgotten in a day.....!

I act like I don’t care. Like nothing can hurt me. I put up this big wall of toughness and pretend everything is fine. Like I don’t need somebody’s “affection” but in reality I think I’m just too scared. Scared of not being good enough. Or scared of getting hurt. Scared to let somebody in. Maybe even afraid. Afraid of the possibility of being loved by someone that I fear they’ll eventually let me down. Afraid that my heart will break into million pieces because I gave my all to someone who promised they wouldn’t hurt me. But that’s the thing. You will never know the outcome unless you take the chance. So embrace the risk worth being taken darling......!

Did you have to
Block me
From achieving
My only dream

The perfect amount of salt
It dissolves in my mouth
Melting on my pancakes
Complimented with sugary flakes
Dipped in syrupy lakes
My fruit salad with grapes
Bananas and apples too
It's too yummy to be true
While butter is still melting
I dig in, it tastes overwhelming
~12/5/21

Stuck at home
Why do I feel so alone