I miss you
I miss you like hell
My chest aches in physical pain
The sadness
Its fiery cold grip
It been two year
Two freaking years since I had a taste of your lips
Sweet like antifreeze
I'm trying to remember what made you so special
How I ended up loving you with ever beat of my heart
I said goodbye to you
I regret not holding on harder
You were poison
But you were full of exitment
My figures brushing your skin was enough to send sparks flying
I have some one now some one I love
Someone who is my whole world.
So why do I crave you
Why does it still hurt
Dear John please tell me

I'm afraid of all the things they could say if they knew;
would they send me away.
Lock me up and medicate me.
That's what I fear.
I fear your voice would grow distant.
Have I gone crazy.
No I couldn't have gone crazy.
You've always been here with me.
when your little it was cute to hear voices in your head.
Its normal.
They call them imaginary friends.
But now I'm the stereo typical crazy.
This world I have in my head feels wrong.
I sometimes isolate my self so I can talk to you.
But who can blame me.
my head is full of colors when the outside world just seems so gray.
sometimes I even consider drugs so I can hear your voice just a little bit clearer.
But even I have my limits.
So do you think I've gone mad?

In a book my soul becomes free

From this heavy world from my body

From the blackness that held me captive

Into another world of blissful dream



From this heavy world from my body

From my song of despair from my tears every where

Into another world of blissful dreams

Into a book of purple fantasy



From my song of despair from my tears everywhere

From the choking hole of life

Into a book of purple fantasy

Into a book of wonderful dream



Into a book of wonderful dream

From the blackness that held me captive

From my choking hole of life

In a book my soul becomes free

"Am I not good enough?"
I asked myself once again
As I looked into my mirror.
I am the kind of girl with no insecurities;
I know I'm excellent in many ways.
I just don't understand,
Why people still choose to leave.
I always bump with these guys
Who ended up on the same girl,
Who always choose that girl than me.
So here I am again,
Looking for my imperfections,
Comparing myself to her.
I guess,
I am now a girl with insecurities.
Everything changed, including myself.
And the reasons are always the same;
Always the same person.
Always in the same situation.
Tell me why is this happening.
Is this a punishment?
But why??
I always do good.
Isn't good enough?
Tell me why.
Too many questions yet,
No one dares to answer.

Leave me alone.
I don't like words.
Everyone lies.

Leave me alone.
In a meadow
Surrounded by silence.

Leave me alone.
They won't see me cry
I won't try to die.

Leave me alone.
I only trust myself
And my breath

Leave me alone
The daisies and tulips
They might see me cry

Leave me alone
I will cry
I will die.

I'm a princess
A beautiful young girl
Living in a huge castle
That no one can enter.
I like being on my own;
Not being defined by another person.
But everything has changed
When one time,
I'm a damsel in distress.
I need somebody to help me
When you suddenly came up.
A knight in shining armor
Helping a princess in trouble.
And that's how our story started.
We got a glimpse of chance
Of getting to know each other
When suddenly the antagonist came.
She wanted to destroy everything;
Including you and me.
That ugly woman who's jelous
And he wanted to get you.
Until one day,
She made us far apart
From each other.
Ten years ago,
I'm still waiting for you.
You promised that you'll comeback.
And you never failed me.
You suddenly came up while saying
"Would you like to runaway with me?"
And I said yes.
You said you wanna build a new castle
With your queen and that's me.
Then, we live happily ever after.

Have you still remember
Those songs we used to sing
While playing your guitar?
I know it's been years
And I should forget those things
But somehow I found myself
Still playing those songs
And still singing
While playing my guitar.
Still it feels the same
But the only diffence was
You are not here anymore.
And yes, I know
You're now singing those songs
To her, and not to me.
I bet you even already forgot
How my voice sounds.
But every words you say
From the first time we met
Were still in my mind
And I don't even know
How to forget these things.
I promised to throw my poems--
Old poems made for you
But the saddest thing was
I found myself
Writing about you again
Because I know,
That's only thing I can do
Whenever I miss you
After the long time we haven't talk.
Sorry, but I guess
I have to cut my hair again
After breaking my promise.

Yesterday
couldn’t remember
my name
so, I ran
inside my mind
duly to find
my name
what a game
inside my brain
lots of fire
but no flame
depression on top
anxiety *******
to **** or maim
thus, no one to blame
frontal lobe
crying pain
occiput laughing her *** off
cerebellum’s being tough
bunch of misfits
playing it rough
to end this game
I asked for a name
how about Alzheimer
said, drunken cerebrum
you stupid wacky old lame

12/06/2016