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Jul 8 · 155
snooze
When I woke up this morning
I hit the snooze on my alarm
I knew I could do this five more times
Before I would be late for work
           The fifth time it rang
          I felt a tug at my foot
          And got up rather quickly
           To gently push my monster
           Back under the bed
            Not today I told the warm black void
Jul 8 · 50
Rhino in the throat
Roll up! Roll up ladies and gentlemen! You've never seen such a creature before!

Are you quite sure it's safe? Quite sure?

Shouldn’t the beast be led by a ring through its nose?

Such intelligent eyes! Almost as though it knows…

Did the chap say it came from India? So exotic!

My good fellow, the thing hardly moves! It’s rather idiotic.

Roll up! Roll up ladies and gentlemen! Come see mon chéri!

You've never such power. That I guarantee.

The horses are ready. Mon chéri, mon chéri.
Here, here, bedtime beer. To help you sleep big baby.

Mon Dieu! I can barely fathom what's before us.

Voici c'est Claire, the famous rhinoceros!

Look at the ribbons! Did you see her hair?

This style is called Le horn à la Claire.

Come see French nobility, come see for yourselves!

You can each buy a knick-knack to put on your shelves.

How extraordinary! What an incredible beast!

I've seen one before, but now it's deceased.

The horses are ready. Mon chéri, mon chéri.
Here, here, bedtime beer. To help you sleep big baby.
*
Here, I have attempted a Cento. I have tried using a polyvocal voice that mixes quotations from a range of speakers and sources, imagining the sorts of things Clara the rhinoceros would have overheard as she travelled around Europe. Because she was a very special rhinoceros whose memory lives on as a quasi urban legend, the patchwork voice embraces a rhyming sing-song quality.
Jul 8 · 37
In the end
It did not matter in the end of days
For god did not come up from hell to smite
The once down trod who stopped to think and fight
Who ate no bread nor drank the cabernets

Though nightly even still one kneels and prays
And asks for wisdom knowing wrong from right
  But now the heart and mind not filled with fright
  For now one sees the broad and narrow ways

Those left behind who would not speak their name
Are married now with five to fifteen kids
The peers who were indoctrinated youth
Now truly think her resting place is flame
They hate the ones who do what god forbids
They hate because they think they know the truth
10 SYLLABLES PER LINE
Jul 8 · 486
On the brink
Here we are again standing on the precipice of war
Paralysed by the past and the greed of our forefathers
While the inside battle has raged since birth
Good enough? I think not.
History only repeats its worst parts
They saw a green orb signalling GO GO GO
Faith in illusion the yellow-blue glow
Look but don’t touch! You’ll break it child!
But, they silly foolish daisies flitter flutter in the breeze
What nature? What love? What future? Roars the uncanny double
As it reappears, so much better now at creating disposable monstrous insects
Death? Very well, I guess we accept. We’re ***** for pain
But why walk into the river with rocks in your coat?
You’ve never been to war they gloat
As the wax drips steadily sealing our fate
And so those monstrous insects march by one by one
Hurrah! hurrah! here we go again old sport!
Jan 2023 · 118
Jade
Andronicus VI Jan 2023
Jade is a speed date that goes for six hours
A waltz of coffee and posy of flowers
So, we drink cocktails and talk of our lovers

Then we laugh at the others
And of our dead mothers
Together we cheerily mourn

Jade’s hair is pink, and her heart is warm
A pigeon's nest of twigs and twine
Her name is green and so is mine

So, here I’ll drop a line
Of appreciation
And overall-tote-bag admiration

Now herbaceous vegan progress begun
A switch of books and witchy poetry
Seems there’s no hurry, so just wait and see.
Jan 2023 · 112
Sprout
Andronicus VI Jan 2023
The most important story I ever wrote
Opened with a *** scene
Was weird
Closed with death
Then sparked a conversation

The best speed-date I ever had
Opened with abortion
Was tragic
Closed with cocktails
And caused a cautious smile

The best strange friend I ever have
Opened both our lives
Was Jade
Close but not too much
Sends me letters in the mail

x
Andronicus VI Jan 2023
The sadness is your mother.
Nobody warned you at your grotesque birth
You had no choice
This is who you'll "love"
This is your mother
Until she's not.

You don't want your mum to die
Sometimes you just... wish she was dead
So the pain would feel more real
Less like a play-doh wall
Childishly constructed
For protection until the day you can finally
Sigh
Relieved that it's all over
There's no turning back now
Even if you wanted to cut off your right hand
And hand it to her as a peace offering.
What a relief when there are no more
Chances (choices) to repent in dust and ashes
For formulating opionions...

Mother, nobody warned you either
One day the ******, screaming, mess
You call child
Will be dead to you
And in return for all your "love"
Will wish memories of you were only that.
Dec 2022 · 108
Quiet Life
Andronicus VI Dec 2022
The divorce and I live alone
We feed the fruit bats tiny bits of pear
The floor is fairly tidy
But the washing line is broken
Would you like to come for tea
We’ll talk about the navy
How old I’ll be next Tuesday
I remember nine eleven
The ghost will hiss at strangers
There’s a succulent on the windowsill
The house never echoes
But we live here all alone.
Jun 2021 · 509
Dream
Andronicus VI Jun 2021
Last night I dreamt about suicide
High on a bridge
ground way below
falling
      falling
              falling
Or was I?
Honestly it felt good
knowing
Everything would soon be done
the end
Jun 2019 · 225
Plans
Andronicus VI Jun 2019
Man
You fit into my five year plan
You ARE my five year plan
You're my plan
and
You're my forever plan
You're mine forever
You're my forever
Man
and
I plan to be with you
Forever
Man!
Forever is a long time
I make time for you
You're my time
My time
is your time
Forever Man!
rambling
Apr 2019 · 444
S EXistential crisis
Andronicus VI Apr 2019
S EXistence
S EXploitation
S EXplain
S EXit
Mar 2019 · 168
After the high
Andronicus VI Mar 2019
There's only so high you can go
All good times come to an end
The joy and the happiness of a high
Wonderful
Except
The higher you go the harder you fall
Jan 2019 · 177
Imagine
Andronicus VI Jan 2019
Imagine if we were actually happy...
We wouldn't fight or have misunderstandings
We would cherish and respect each others differences
We wouldn't lay blame on each other
We would feel safe and supported always
We wouldn't wonder if life was a waste of time
We would be happy
Wouldn't that be nice....
#depression
Dec 2018 · 1.1k
Explain?
Andronicus VI Dec 2018
I
understand
all
those
words
separately
but
...
You're trying to explain
I'm trying might and main
to understand
but
....
I hear nothing at all
It's like there's a brick wall
between us
but
.....
Dec 2018 · 257
Big mouth little feet
Andronicus VI Dec 2018
Chewing anxiously on my foot againnnnnnnnn
Dec 2018 · 357
Synthetic Hormones
Andronicus VI Dec 2018
Today I'm struggling
My head is spinning
My eyes are leaking
******* HORMONES
******* FRUCKING FOOKING FUCKITY ****
I want to **** myself
I want to smash things up and swear and stomp and cry and and and and and I WANT TO ******* GO HOME
**** THESE SYNTHETIC HORMONES
I'm done with this
So
done
Let me go
Nothing is working
Nobody gives a **** anyway
Get a new person to do my ****** job
Get someone who knows what they're doing
Get someone who isn't ******* FULL OF SYNTHETIC HORMONES
****
>_<
Dec 2018 · 211
Happiness
Andronicus VI Dec 2018
Happiness is snugging on the couch
Watching Netflix
Full of good food and icecream
With a warm cat purring on your lap
...
Sadness is all of this but knowing
One wrong move could end this happiness forever
Dec 2018 · 130
Rain or Thunder
Andronicus VI Dec 2018
Does your heart belong to me
Or does your right eye wander
You make love to me when it rains
But break me when there's thunder
You hold my hand and kiss my lips
But I keep hearing lies
And when around the other girl
I can't help but surmise
Because you're not really happy
And admit that you are jealous
What am I supposed to think
There's proof within my premise
So I beg you stop and think
What's this love story all about
Although I'm in all the way...
Are you trying to push me out?
Oct 2018 · 276
a little sook
Andronicus VI Oct 2018
last night i had a little sook
cried and cried and cried and cried and cried and cried and cried
and suddenly all i could see were knives and sharp scissors
i scratched my wrists and cried and cried and cried and cried and cried
and put myself to bed
now he's threatening to leave me
because i had a little sook
Sep 2018 · 141
ANGRY
Andronicus VI Sep 2018
I'm so angry
I feel like I'm going to to spew everywhere
Spew all my guts out
Spew all my swears and anger and frustration
And mainly
Spew out my fear of losing control.
Sep 2018 · 132
Lonely
Andronicus VI Sep 2018
I was lonely
I didn't care
about anything
life or death
whatever
what's the point
expending effort
when life *****
whatever.

I walked
head down
into traffic
part of me
thought they'd stop
but
they didnt.

I'm still lonely.
Jun 2018 · 141
selfish bitch
Andronicus VI Jun 2018
Some days I want to **** myself
slash my wrists and fade away
because there's nothing i can do myself
not a ******* thing

I ask
I get
then
I regret

Ignorance is bliss
I thought that I was okay at this
Turns out I'm ****
at everything
May 2018 · 144
on being in love :P
Andronicus VI May 2018
I love how relationships are mostly

making plans
but falling asleep cuddling instead

asking
have you watched this movie?
ten thousand times

learning
and teaching some things too

waking up
and not even being mad that it's the middle of the night
because
it's another chance to fall asleep in his arms
May 2018 · 168
How do you
Andronicus VI May 2018
How do you still love me
Whinging, complaining, crying, clingy
I peed my pants and I peed in the bed
And still you kiss my lips and scratch my head
and love me
You love me even when I'm sick
Ugly, blotchy, sleepy, grumpy
You make me food and tuck me in
Cuddle me until I fell asleep again
And love me

I feel so lucky when I look at you
But I feel even luckier when you look at me
And I know
For certain
That you love me

<3 xoxo
Apr 2018 · 170
35 DAYS - 8-11
Andronicus VI Apr 2018
8.
I was so busy doing nothing today
Waiting for life to be over
Waiting for time to pass
Waiting for lunchtime
Waiting for 2.30pm
I went to my sisters baptism
She spoke to the congregation
About her conviction
I cried
A lot
I'm glad she's going to heaven
But worried I'm not.

Day 9.
Back to work
Had nothing to do
So I offloaded to the other side of the world
Big mistake
Everything went to ****
I broke down
crying
again
And now all my energy
and enthusiasm
is
gone
I dont want to do this
Or that
or anything
I just want to do what I want to do
I'm so sick of people telling me what to do
Oh I KNOW it's because they love me
And it's for my own good
But that doesn't stop it
FROM ANNOYING TF OUTTA ME
whinge
complain
sigh
****
Welp
Anyway
Whatevs
Do you laugh in glee
At how easy it is to manipulate me
The "disappointment" card
The "headache" card
The "wasting time" card
Guarantee success
I'll do it
P.S. I love you
PPS. I'm sorry

10.
BUSY BUSY BUSY
And just as well...
Breakfast with sister
She asked how many trips it'd take to get my stuff outta her house
I asked why
She said 'in case i should help'
But
Then the truth came out
She wants me to give back the key
*** for tat?
She's angry
I wont tell her where I'm going
I'm being "foul"
Kinda wrecked my day
But breakfast was good
And I was busy busy busy
Went to work and talked to Iris
She likes my trousers :)
Worked for five hours......... plus
Collated my crap
Went to the shop for some things
Australian things
Mum called
Asked if I was coming home for dinner
Wish I could have said no
I miss having dinner with my man.

11
I forgot my washing dang it
So much to do
Note: My boyfriend is freaking awesome
Feeling a lot calmer about DVT
Mark helped me a lot today
It's starting to sink in
Today is probably the last day I'll spend with him
Tonight was the last time I'll have dinner with the family
Tonight is the last night I'll be sleeping at home
my comfy bed
my big spacious room
my lack of awkwardness at opening up the fridge and cupboards and staring inside
I'm going to really miss the old life
lots of emotions
lots of scared
looking forward to what the future holds though.

This is the last verse/post for a while... leaving for Europe tomorrow... the next 21 days will be just me staring at European things and counting down the days til I see my love again

I LOVE YOU!

I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING YOU AGAIN SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!

XOXOXO
XOXOX
Apr 2018 · 265
35 days 1-7
Andronicus VI Apr 2018
The day he left for Rome I cried
I wouldn't see him for 35 long days
To get some air I went outside
The fresh mowed grass reminded me of his beard
The sunset reminded me of his hair
Tears fell of my face when mum asked are you alright
I watched movies on youtube late into the night

1. Today I slept a lot
I felt mad when I woke up and saw that he'd texted me while I was asleep
And sad
I think his perfume is making me sneeze
He gave me his jumper to cuddle while he's away

2. Today I worked
Had plenty to do but it still felt weird
He texted at lunchtime
Said he missed me and loved me
I love him too
I think he might be the closest thing to perfection
I want to live with him forever
Tonight I worked
Had one too many assignments to do

3. Today I worked for 5 hours straight on my new business
My man texted me when he woke up and sent me a picture
Das my man
We texted for a bit
I think he's missing me as much as I miss him
He still wants to know what's going on
Procrastination tbh
I still have the oral presentation to write
And the slideshow
Uni *****
Never do it
Find yourself a man that will love you without a degree
Trust me
Sheesh I love him so much
Sposiamoci

4. Welp, day four and we fought
FML
So after crying a lot and questioning everything
I slept
**** uni
**** assignments
**** life
*** does he think he's doing
Saying that he loves me
Then hating on me
What's a good enough answer
To being told your life is going to be ****
And you wont get what you want
*** is the point of anything
If i dont get what I want
Call me selfish if you like. idgaf
Maybe I shouldn't be with anyone
****** if I do and ****** if i don't:
-Tell him what they say
-Ask for what I want
-Keep trying

Day 5
If anything or anyone is making my coat-tails flap
I think everyone knows who and what that is
We took a 'family' trip
Saw dolphins
And a blow hole
Things are so different now
I'm not in charge of anything
I'm not expected to be helpful
I suspect I 'should feel bad'
But it's less stress on me and that's great
I wanted to get a photo with grandma
Prolly be the last time I do anything with her
But no time seemed right
I forced myself to have a zest for life
Spent time with everyone
And really, it was beautiful
The way the sun sparkled off the waves
I hardly thought about what it would be like
To throw myself in
And sink

Day 6
Today was a day
High but low
Very animated
Singing, laughing, running, working hard and fast
Getting a lot done
But teetering on the brink
Having to savagely tear myself back
After the email from mum
She got the job!!
I'm glad
(But no, it's not what I'll be ever doing)
And scared
Life's just rushing along like a torrent around me
I dont matter
Nothing I do really matters
It's good
But what if I get left behind
With nowhere to go
What if I drown
Alone
While everyone else is
Head long
Full pelt
Going places
Young men in a hurry
But good things did happen
Felt like they did at least
Come to think of it...
The best thing was that Ross and Rocky saw me and said hello
It's ages since someone said hello to me
It's even longer since someone said hello to me that I didnt want to punch in the face
So yeah
Boyfriendless Fridays ****

Day 7
Today I slept in really late
I'm feeling good
Recorded my oral presentation
It's 12 minutes when I read slowly
So I've cut some words
I'm a *******
Gosh I'm grateful for people that help me
This assignment *****
xoxo
Mar 2018 · 486
Bonding
Andronicus VI Mar 2018
She gazed up at him with tears in her eyes
They weren't just tears of pain
Her heart pushed against her chest
His eyes such a mixture of emotion
"Sorry" he said, again and again
"It's okay" she whispers, a crack in her voice
"We both knew this was going to hurt"
Tears kept dribbling as muscles strain
He wiped them away with his thumb
They became closer and closer
Every action leaving a stain
"Trust me, it will get better"
"I trust you" she said.
Feb 2018 · 185
Blue Moon
Andronicus VI Feb 2018
I've been alone for many moons
Many blue moons I have seen
I've been singing many blue tunes
For many moons blue I've been
I've seen with you many things anew
These capture supreme melancholy
Singing at many a blue moon with you
Breaks hard hearts truly beautifully
Jan 2018 · 145
Salty Tracks
Andronicus VI Jan 2018
The inextricable
no real definition
neither noun, verb or adjective
splatters over iron and wood
                                            to rust
                                                 and rot
breaking hearts and souls
close your eyes
sink into sweet emptiness
beats and chords
hands make their steady way around
                                                        and around
                                                                ­      and around
just let them
each second is a second closer to when we meet again
each droplet of emotion leaves salty tracks
salty tracks from the soul
WIP
Dec 2017 · 171
Crashing
Andronicus VI Dec 2017
Crashing between the high and low
What the hell is happening does anyone know?
Where did I go wrong when it felt so right
Please
Help me understand... I hate when we fight.
Nov 2017 · 683
Youthful Lusts Flee
Andronicus VI Nov 2017
I understand your youth she said
I understand your lust.
I understand what's happening
But stop, you really must
Every time you get together
And look into his eyes
It will get harder for you
To see through the devil's lies

And now I'm wondering ... is it true?

Not that he's the devil or anything
I mean, is it true that it's just youthful lust?

Is that whole love-at-first-sight thing lust?
I mean, he is crazy beautiful...

shrug

There's gotta be a balance there right...
A bit of love a bit of lust

Maybe I don't understand what love is
Sounds harsh but, it's rare in the spectrum

And if I can't really love...
The least I can do is lust tf outta you!
Nov 2017 · 214
Can I help you?
Andronicus VI Nov 2017
"Can I help you?" she asked
"I'm afraid not." he smiled
"Why not?"
"I'm all messed up."
"What a coincidence," she laughed, "So am I...
Let's  mess things up together."
And so they did.
Nov 2017 · 138
The Cave
Andronicus VI Nov 2017
I was floating through outer space
Planets and stars orbit through my vision
The music ***** my mind into a black hole
That's when I found the cave

Darkness my old friend I thought
As he wrapped his arms around me
His steady breathing brushing on my neck
That's when I felt safe and secure

This might be happiness I thought
Though the sun will never be seen again
Safety, security, nobody can see us in here
That's when the music crescendoed

Nothing and nobody could harm me now
We breathed in unison the oxygen of fate
He carried me through a mindless state
That's when we fell asleep spooning
Andronicus VI Nov 2017
"Closed for maintenance"'
Eyes closed
Mind open
Floating in the space between
Conscious and unconsciousness
"Away on holidays"
Muscles
Relaxed
Floating in the space between
Reality and bliss
"Do not disturb"
Breathing
Steady
Floating in the space between
Happiness and love
Nov 2017 · 143
So badly
Andronicus VI Nov 2017
I wanted to say 'yes' so badly
Every time I looked in your eyes
I wanted to say 'yes'
Yes I'll be your girl
Yes I'll be yours only
Yes we'll make this **** into something amazing
I wanted that so badly
Oct 2017 · 192
Weird
Andronicus VI Oct 2017
You're a weird girl he thought
I'm a weird person she said

He looked startled
Then kissed her head
And smiled

Maybe
Just maybe
Finally
They had
Telepathy

Weird

---
Oct 2017 · 218
It's not okay
Andronicus VI Oct 2017
Hey, It's okay you say
You know as well as I do
It's not okay
But I'll smile back at you bravely
We'll pretend it is
And you'll continue to say
Hey, It's okay
But it's not.
Oct 2017 · 258
Hurry Hurry Hurry
Andronicus VI Oct 2017
It's four o'clock in the afternoon
Run upstairs
He's coming soon
Hurry
Hurry
Hurry
Far too many ***** dishes
Wash up fast
Suds and swishes
Hurry
Hurry
Hurry
Everyone wants to stop and chat
Hear them out
They deserve that
Hurry
Hurry
Hurry
Finally finished I make my escape
I'm too late
He didn't wait
Tears
Tears
Tears
Drip
Drip
Drip
Apr 2017 · 556
SBD
Andronicus VI Apr 2017
SBD
You're in danger everyone
There's a dark force out there
It's something you can't avoid
It's just drifting in the air

Nobody can see this thing
Safety you can't assume
This thing that you cant see
Has the power to clear a room

Nobody can hear this thing
It can't be heard by ear
But you will know if you've been hit
You'll quake and gasp in fear

What is it that's so powerful ?
What has mastered such an art ?
There's nothing quite so deadly
As a Silent But Deadly **** !
haha
Feb 2016 · 329
Wednesday Afternoon
Andronicus VI Feb 2016
Grey clouds frown
Hands move past three
Papers shuffle and faces yawn
Coffee cups have an empty echo
Bored poets will browse discreetly
I want to write
Here I am
The poem I wrote to get accepted here :)

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