i know i'm hurting,
but i can't do anything
i know i'm dying,
but i can't save myself

i make steel walls
i brace for impact
my walls are impenetrable
you won't even chip it

you think i can trust you,
you think i'm fine
you don't know
how close i am to taking my life

She knows that I'm finding,
I know where's she's hiding.
There's something inside me that screams to her "keep fighting!".
It's been dark in here, she tells me.
A hopeless pit of hell.

But you can see who I am, and I'm breathing in hope. exhaling my fears and just when I thought that in this bag of skin there was nobody here, you caught me.
You brought me back home.
I thought id never know that the sun was so warm and the stars were so bright.

You're just what I needed, after feeling so down.
This whole world is mine and I know that now.
                      
You've been lost and confused, I can definitely tell.
And I'm glad that I helped pull you up out of your hell.
But now I ask of a favor, do the best for yourself.
Recognize your potential and seek into your dreams.
The possibilities are endless once you know what all of this means.

This day
will be a tough one
the list of responsibilities and tasks already formed
but even getting up sounds hard

my bed wants to hold me tight
my body wants more rest
my mind is trying to make excuses
I shouldn't do anything today

They're threatening to win
I'm still in bed at 1 pm
but no, I will get up
take a shower to prepare

to be today's most awesome
version of myself

From that day when you asked for a pen
We knew each other
You told me that I was your best friend
You desert me for other people
I kept quiet
Maybe I'm jealous but that's because I am a human.
Where were you when I needed you the most?

Here nothing lasts forever.
The flower withers
the snow melts
the stone crumbles
memories fade
our dear ones leave
loves end
smiles die away
the night gives place to the day
the peace to the war
the war to the peace.
Here nothing lasts forever.
And where you are now?

14.5.'13