the rawness of your words
still rings in my heart
like ceremonial temple bells
tolling,
with each wave reverberating,
the sound jarring, your eyes darting,
the guilt evaporating out of your breath,
as I stood before you, half-dead,
because your words are toxic and your breath was too,
I didn't realise I was being poisoned by you.

spearing through the memories,
tearing up the past, the seconds spent together
all those fluttery heartbeats, a total farce.

the bells still ringing,
drowning out my heart,
sweeping out the love,
and draining all my thoughts
as you utter each word,
I try to soar like a bird,
to seek my freedom, to escape from your curse,
but from a hundred miles afar, I can still hear your voice. I want to leave this world now, because I don't have a choice...

sleep sustains my soul.
but my eyes are opened wide under eyelids shut closed,
searching for an answer to life
and love
in the darkness and the cold,
wrapped up in cotton sheets and tender skin and and a thin sliver of gold,
while a silken layer of sleep,
engulfs my soul.

I traverse the city of dreams,
to find the path to ease,
all pain and sorrow
of the scars sustained
during the day's quest for love,
a battle, a war between pious silver doves,
where the words slash hard,
the kisses dagger fast,
the caresses wound too,

because love is a war between hearts
and this war must end before it starts.
So let me escape,
dear Sleep, take me away!