My heart beats
Wildly
Like a stallion
Fresh out of the gates

Bets are off
When it comes to
My unstable heart

My head
Is a strong
Mare

But my heart says
Place all your money
On the black
Stallion

stop crying
put on a smile
and keep trying.

(a.d)

On the first of June
I met a boy with
Blue eyes
And rough hands
He was never part of the plan

That night I kissed him
Under all the arcade lights

I would’ve counted
Every star with him
And as nights blurred into days
His smile never seemed to fade

Over time
My smile, for once
Was real
And I wore it for him
Every day

We laughed between the stacks
Even after
We were told to “hush!”
His eyes lit up when he laughed

The minute our lips separated
I was thirsty all over again
And hours watching clouds with him
Were never long enough

But my blue-eyed boy knew
That in August
He would have to watch me
Pack my life away

I was going to
Avoid eye contact
While I watched him
Help my Dad
Load suitcase after suitcase
Into the truck



And lumps would form in my throat
Because goodbye would be
Farthest from what I wanted to say


It's still June
But I don’t want time
To take my sunshine away

This notebook and I share a secret,
which I will never reveal.

This notebook, on the other hand,
has at times sleighted me slightly.

This notebook is not to be trusted,
for if I trust it, I may be betrayed.

This notebook and I share a secret;
it will never be told lest I talk.

i want to be alone
so please don't pick up the phone.

i love you but i just need time to breathe
trust me please.

i ask that you put your love on hold, only for a second or two
i promise you, my heart will always be yours to keep.


(a.d)

There’s an empty space
Where you left
But the doctors
Ripped out the alarm
In my chest
All I can do
Is stumble around
And speculate.

Does the red wire
Connect to the blue one?
Or will
Electric shock
Revive
The memories
That the medicine
Erased
From my brain

I wonder
If you see me
In all of the twinkly lights  
Or
If you try to
Restart your heart
By connecting
The green wire
To the yellow wire
Or maybe it’s the red one
I’m never sure

Because I didn’t stick around
Long enough
To ask