In my empty room
I stared at the ceiling
I heard my heartbeat
And saw a billion stars

I thought that if I closed my eyes
I’d forget about it
I’d forget about you

But there they were
Stories of us
Written on the walls
Pulsing through my veins

Your lips against mine
A distant memory
Something too far away to reach

But **** did I want it
I wanted your lips
Pressed against mine
The way a harmony builds
And becomes a bridge

I wanted flowers to bloom for us
I wanted the waves to meet sand for us
I wanted rain to hit the windshield for us
I wanted it to come pouring down

Because I felt like a hurricane
And I wanted you to weather the storm

Vivid memories
Dance in my head
Change in an old mans jacket
And calling your name
White walls
And clocks
That never seem
To run out of time
Warm beds
Unmade
Reaching for your hand
In the darkness
Of a crowded room
Running through the maze
Of green lights
And stop signs
Thinking that I could
Somehow
Find my way back
To you

They say that the truth will set you free.
So here it is.
The truth is
That no
I’m not afraid of
Falling in love with you
I’m afraid
Terrified
To love
Myself
But you make it
So easy
To take down
All of the walls
I have built up
To protect my heart
The truth is
That I was broken
From the beginning
Always have been
And I wish
You didn’t have to
Uncover
All the *****
Skeletons
In my closet
Because I have
Too many to count
And uncovering them
Myself
Is suffocating
You have my heart
Because it’s better protected
In your hands
Than in mine
Please
Keep it safe.

They touched my wrist
They all did

It seemed that
That’s all they cared
About

Whether or not
The flesh was healing
Properly

What they didn’t seem
To see
Was a girl

With dry eyes
Just trying to feel

Alive