I've learned to live with my thoughts
I've learned that they need to wander.
Some of my thoughts wants to be freed.
Some don't mind to linger about in my head, or to be released.
Most, would never want to be known.
They cant handle the truth.
They cant bare to not be accepted by someone else.
Better yet not accepted by you.
They don't understand the unknown.
They want to stay hidden.
They want to stay locked away.
Truth be told, I'm fine with that.

I cant be your friend anymore
it's not you it's me.
It's just that the air that you breathe.
Is so toxic and deadly.
I keep telling you to take it slow and steady.
It's not your fault it's mine.
I don't want to be the one to lead you to a life of crime.

I can't be your friend anymore.
It's not because your a bore.
In fact time with you I will forever appreciate.
My heartbeat memories of you will never disintegrate.
I don't care that you try to get approval from the wrong people.
I'm the one that let you see my soul through the peephole
It's not your fault it's mine.
I cant keep you trapped inside this box forever like a mime.

Your just a deadly, toxic substance in my veins.
That I need to get out and try to sustain.
Without you, the one that got away.
Missing you used be grey.
This time won't be the same.
I'll be honest I cant be your friend anymore.
It's your fault not mine.
You shouldn't have pushed me so far away.
There was only so much I could take.

There's a feeling
I've got inside
That I won't
Even try to hide
Or even try to deny
Because
I know what I want
What I want I know
Is you
You make me
Feel these things
That I didn't
Know were true
But all I'm asking you
Is remember
This love that we hold
And these words that we spoke
And all the I love you's
Shared between me and you.
Baby that's all I want you to do
Don't forget about my love for you.

If someone were to lurk in my mind.
If someone were to see what goes on on there.
Would they understand? Would they see?

I am not happy,
Nor am I depressed.
If they knew my past,
Would they judge me?

Of course they would.
This life we live,
Is so scary.

Would they understand?
Would they see?
I do not self harm,
I hate pain.

Pain sometimes is my only escape.
I'm lonely,
I need someone
But I hate people, they are annoying.

If they knew my past,
Would they judge me?  
Why wouldn't they?

Its life they say.
If this is life.
I don't want to go through it.
Awake me when it gets better.

You're too young to be in love.

You're too young to want to end your life, you've barely lived it.

You're too young to have any real troubles.

You're to young to know what's reality and what's not.

You're too young to make rational decisions on you're own.

You're too young to know the meaning of true beauty.

You're too young to have your own opinions on this modern day society.

You're too young to know what it feels like to truly be happy.

You're too young to know what it feels like to have been through hell and back.

You're to young to know what true disappointment feels like.

You're too young to know what it feels like to be completely heartbroken.

You're too young to understand what I'm talking about.

Well if I'm too young you should know having knowledge about life isn't measured by how long you've been alive, but by the experiences you've faced.

And you wouldn't know what I've had to go through to know the things I know about this lovely thing we call life.

My youth has nothing to do with you.

You're perfect,
You don't know it yet.
You're beautiful,
You don't know it yet.

Your laugh is contagious,
You don't know it yet.
Your smile lights the entire room,
You don't know it yet.

Your soul is so young and free,
You don't know it yet.
Your personality is rare and aesthetic,
You don't know it yet.


I  F E L L   I N  L O V E  W I T H  Y O U



You don't know it yet.

I find it scary how there is no escape,
There is no escape from ignorance,
There is no escape from arrogance,
There is no escape from being judged,
There is no escape from racism,
There is no escape from sexism,
There is no escape from homophobia,
There is no escape from cruelty,
There is no escape from heartbreaks,
There is no escape from disappointment,
There is no escape from failure,
There is no escape from fear,
There is no escape from hatred,
There is no escape from war,
There is no escape from reality,
              NO ESCAPE FROM LIFE.