I try to be nice
With parents gone
I'm in charge
If three kids
12
10
And 8
12 and 10 fight like there is no tomorrow
Punches
Kicks
Mean words bandied about like swords
Me and 8 trying to break it up
Me
Seeming like the bad guy
Parents not fixing it
Someone always gets hurt
I'm done
I can't handle it anymore
I seem like the bad guy to 8 as well
My youngest brother
I can't do anything right
Sisters getting mad when I can't fix it
And I can't
I'm just a kid
I can't

When everything goes wrong
Just makes the time when
Everything goes right
That much sweeter

they came back*
My nightmares
Ever since I was little
They haunted me
The old lady in the house atop the hill
The killer who used a hook
To Mix and pull my brains
The man whose eyes were burned
The lady in the shadow
Whose claws would come to get me
The blood red dragon
Atop his piles of treasure
The poisoner
The man in a glowing blue orb
Who struck me down by lighting
The goblin
Who pulled me wing by wing
The cliff
Whose edge I fell
The box which let me down through
spiraling colors
Each time
I relive them
Sometimes knowing I'm dreaming
And not being able to get out
The terror the same, sometimes larger
Than the last

They help you in tough places
When you're stuck between a rock and a hard place
Or
The frying pan and the fire
They make you glow
They boost your self confidence
They encourage you
At least
That's what they are supposed to do
Right?

When you leave
Your insides
Are ripped to shreds
If you leave the people
That you love
You shatter
Like a mirror
You want to
Scream
Shout
And cry in
Emotional
Pain
Until eventually
You glue yourself together
You are never
The same
You have the scars
Good or bad
To show for it
But you eventually
Come back together