Why am I always like this
Why am I always doubting
Why am I not allowing myself to be happy
Why do I self-destruct
Why do I want to end
Why do I tell myself I'm not worth it
Why can't I stop crying
Why can't I stop thinking
Why can't I let it go
Why am I thinking of death
Why do I want to end it
Why can't I stop myself from think
This is all it is

They were once my family
Now, they're nothing to me

Before, I was part of them
Now, they're no longer my gems

I was happy when I see them everyday
Now, it feels like I'm carried away

They were once my happy pill
Now, there's nothing I can feel

I'd seen your
miserable eyes
insincere grins
chaotic mind and
shattered heart;
You've changed.
I told you
as I cry,
staring myself
in the mirror..

Dark rooms
with blacked-out windows.

So many people focus on finding love
I'm too busy finding myself

I made a mistake
No words to say
I made your heart ache
with your love that I can't pay

Now that you're gone
You leave because you're done
I need to go away
and find my own way

Yes I became dumb
at the same time I get numb
Too insensitive with your feelings
Not blind but not seeing

I do conceal
for me not to reveal
and now that you know
You're now cold as a snow