Use to write a song but now the beat just plays me.

Flirting with the mic I can see it wanna kiss me.

It's getting kinda intimate how my poems hold me

Leaving my brain on a page that's oral you see...

******* gave me keys to city,
Drinking all my words the pencil told me to "marry me"...

Life is a journey and I'm not talking about the band.
People Pointing fingers in this life like Uncle Sam.
But who's den with the dragon?
We need a swordsman to defeat this beast man!
Run forest! Just to show you you can do it!
No question the answer is in Gods hand.
The fat lady sings and the curtains begin.

I lift my eyes for I don't have nothing but ashes, dirt and quicksand.

One day I  will have better then ashes dirt and quicksand.

Watch.. I clock the time it's ticking man

artistic hands will paint the pictures
you are a paint brush and the world is a enter "ception"
you can't stay but you can't leave
you can't leave me cause i never stayed in the first place.
do you see what I draw?
if not then you won't belive
and the shocking thing about it is...Something is saving me from..
Me

There must be a cheat sheet
There's gotta be a clue
Is there book on Y.I.Luv.U?

There have to be a problem
There have to be something wrong
Can I fix this problem of "thinking about you ?..umm.

Man I need some answers,
To all my questions!


What if ..Why do I love you is a clue because thinking of you  is my problem wait are you answering my questions?!

Okay okay okay calm down Steve
There's no one there
But I could of swore I heard..Na maybe it was just a bird.
But I still feel like there's someone thar..
I mean there.

Well if you're there Why Do you care?
No wait why do I care
Who ....

Hello?
From the outside !! Lol HAHaha okie okie.. Oh
Wait

(Phone rings)
"Aye Steve are u coming to church today then after we're hooping?"

Sure bro
Okie
..no you hang up ..no you hang.. Ohh okie well.

I'm here. Bruuuuuhhh what is that??
Ugh okie ur getting on my nerves!!

Who are you..

I never said I wait but then I never left your side
until you never came and I waited for hundred nights to see your face infront of mine.
This city is full of crime and so I bounce on Pelly side to free my mind.
A letter from west medows left me on the ground for a Good time.
Some come as brothers I hope they know I take that serious to my time.
But as I see we're running out of time I'm moving again and I'm leaving some people behind,
Yet I say I will come in the night and watch threw my window and pull up at a unknown time just to see if there's anyone in Baytown that cares for a ride...
Not just to be picked but to keep in contact in this thing called life.
I never said I wait and yet I'm right here by your side.
If I came back would you be down to ride?

Friendly fire, friendly fire!
I cut the wires he's got some wires..
No undercover I'm under covers
I'm understanding and underlining
It's exasperated and *******
To my mind to orchestrate this life I'm living.
Always feeling wrong but it feels so good gripping  life from a tip to receive simething out of it
My suspicion is always before me and my sin has elevated
My lips are weary so my heart becomes like lemons.
Bright and radiant

Was rolling deep I can't keep them from running away or leaving me
Man forreal this is a shame I'm ashamed..

Couldn't sleep the walls love to talk to me why didn't I keep her well I couldn't feel anything man for real this is a shame I'm ashamed..

Use to be safe on who I was what I am is better then who I use to be follow me you follow him end of story man for real I was shame that was his Name..

Everything that's nothing sleeps with me the mirror reminds me humanity
God is the only thing that let's me breath and I cherish him out of the nothing I am for everything he is..man for real
..cause I was shame
...

With the 4 locus you was looking for a Friend
With the ***** you was looking for a Man
With the Ciroc crap you are my Brother Man!
And now I had a Dream the scares everything I have in me dame!
I kinda messed up with your heart
I kinda messed up from the start
I kinda loved you in your dirt
And planted a seed that takes time to start.
Wishing you will never leave
Loving how the way you breath
Your laugh is a lot to me
I just pray and say Yes God I messed up, "God please don't take him away from me.."

Not for long
Not for short
I hope he wakes up
Before I take off
This house is amazing
These memories im chasing
I will never do this  again
Only Just because I want you to know
I'm staying

Please don't play with that...that's my heart.
You ran with what it's just my little thoughts.
You said you wanna talk but I haven't found the words for Months.

Feels like someone put my love on pause..

I love to drink a glass of soil.
The clouds will sing which makes them royal.
They rain on imperfect man the trust less bodies the souls that are loyal.

I sit to watch the perfect storm,
The moon is red the wind is horrible.
I see a horse that haven't ate,
The one that rides without face.
Behind him hell and all it's  gates,
I stand to watch them crumble this place.
My helmets on I strap my breast plate,
I behold the sun as it shines bright on my cape.
My sword is firm my boots are tight..
I look at my loved ones one more time
I feed my cat one more time
I felt the wind one last time
I drop my eyes one last time.
Lord knows for this I was ready,
If this is the death of me, I'll stand to fight with the rest of me.
A thousand warriors looking towards what I see.
I open my eyes and see the angels fighting with me.

You was never mine so nevermind never have I thought about somebody so much to the point where I can't believe I'm spending another night.

You see what I see and now I can't breath I'm suffocating in another flipping persons life..
Is this how my life is suppose to go tonight?

To feel like your in a relationship without the hugs and Kisses or like the one that always have to end the fight.

Welcome to the Saddest Story where you can't even Get mad cause Your the love you have is not from this world just roll over and say Goodnight cause in the morning you know there gunna need you right?

Yeah...okay Well goodnight

I sense a urge!!!
No purge.. That's the government. And it looks like it's getting worst.

I believe in my president and the IsIs thing is only but a dime to a knickles worth.

If you get me then you get me I'll explain my desperate words.

Men covered in devices can't even see the perverse that's why I'm pointing out the things that just in reverse.

Love!
love!
love!

Look at in reverse!!!!!

The crows the cats the animals are disappearing from the earth,
Abortion is just something you do but why tell me why does it look like DEATH is walking in to the hospital?!

There's more Rappers then rockers now but that just shows me time is RAPPING up.

Lot of religions but most can't even back it up.

There's an urge to find your self because if you don't know who you are there trying to take you to hell.

One more moment before I go,
I look to the clouds like a funny joke.

I come back to earth just to write this poem,
It's a wonderful day let's have this moment together before it starts raining
Cause that's what I look  to see that God tells the best jokes with me.....I'm just being honest.

Sometimes you just gotta laugh threw your situation cause when you get that it can't stop the other day from coming!!!

Thank  you God for another joke you telling

I'm at point where my fingers are tired of satisfaction,
The thoughts in my room cover the air like mist in the bathroom when you taking a shower.
What's life without hardwork?

It's been long oh a long time coming,
But I know
Ima make it one day pull up at your job and put a smile on your face...
..Smile on your face!
Make sure you ain't giving up on me cause soon I'll be saying
"Do you see me now"?
Do you..?

Where do you go when your love is being compromise?
Next to a digital world that makes you fantasize.
Kissess from a industry that dosen't help you fight
I'm below cement when it comes to what's right..
I need the stars at night to show me there's still light and hope in the sky
I need a sun so I can wake up to a fresh start.
Leave a world full of me and say

It's been long oh a long time coming,
But I know
Ima make it one day pull up at your job and put a smile on your face...
..Smile on your face!
Make sure you ain't giving up on me cause soon I'll be saying
"Do you see me now"?
Do you see me now?

The government taking bullets while the elite is taking shots
The pope under oath while the religions are swearing a lot.
Obama want out like Putin's army threw the Isis plot.
My heart is broken bad and I'm trying to care,
I lift my hands for I know who made them man.
I've been dodging church cause those four walls can be like the Jail house.
People have captive but it's me that's needing a new mind to count.
Weird rain drops tornados hitting places like man.
The Goats are on the rise the sheeps are headed to the slaughter Lord forgive them.

Drips of Gold
ANTIDOPE
Love is Close
Let's pillow talk.

You think to much
I don't think enough
Your hands are soft
My  Love is tough.

You keep me captured
But your hands are free
And when you fell asleep
I fell so deep.

I stroked your hair,
It's my disease
My tears to a walk
On this pillow talk.

In a maze cause I was amazed
That you didn't move and yet
My butterflies flying my heart always racing..
No need for words I hope my actions always say it

"I will never leave you I'll rest in that..."

You lose what you try to gain,
You gain what is nothing
When you find what is meaningful.
You take it and brainwashing your self into thinking it's in your membrane.
But who you are and what you made can never be together, unless your a God and there you go again claiming what you can't be.

..wretched! Filthy! Men who decieves will be DECIEVED.

You can tell them I said it!
You poor and wretched man until you see you need him more then you want to be God, YOU CANNOT EVER BECOME REAL TO ME ...

I never knew how much I thought about you..How I work myself up just by thinking about you.

I traded a million words for just a glimps of you, nothing but a dream has been strangling my tooth.

It's like I can't speak...I can't speak but I'm tired of screaming at you!

Man these sheets....these sheets hold my weight and tears for you..

But the truth of all we been threw, I made up it's like I was running in place

....You know?

Is you ready
Are they ready tell me
Are you ready

Hay my love this is why I'm here for I'm ready,
Are you downtown or in town in ready.
When the music comes and the man you see ain't there just know I was ready.
When the the interviews  and the performances hold weight till I lay down I'll tell them I was ready.

When that car is in his lot and I've been waiting for this moment I'll look up and thank him.. And say "guide me I'm ready".

And when the  world look like they gave up in me, and I keep going putting hours in the studio the song will come and it will be called "im ready".

But in all this when the sky splits and hell departs there gates I'll look up and say Ill be ready..

Just know whatever you wanna do just know I'm already ready.

Miss the way you lie.
Miss the way you kiss me
Miss the way you miss the way you miss the way taunt me
Miss the way you cryed
Miss the way you knew me
Miss the way you miss the way you miss the way you showed me.
Wait!
Thought you knew me?
Wait!
You say you owned me?
Woah!
You didn't show me...
Woah!!
Don't yell at me!
When you sayed "I needed you and you can't get over me!"
You missed me..
I was gone before you said anything.

Rich coding of peanut butter and a splash of jelly.

Tonight we will drink from the whitest of milks and with cookies that's crispy.

I wonder if they can tell that I'm hungry..

Yell and scream
My soul is mean
It shows me things
The lustful days
Emotion sings
I'm hard to break
Because I'm broken shattered please
It says it's done with all the fakes.
It says "Don't you want another"?
I hate being with you I always come second!
"I'm done have your way then.."

And my spirit is just like...


Cool..

Lock myself in the music.
Hope my fears can't see this.
Man my mind so clueless!
When It comes to this I'm Dangerous...

...is it Bad that...
I lost the key,
I love this  place,
I eat my dreams.

I know the top is the bottom
And the bottom is the top.

To stop my legs from wondering,
I cut some old routs off my block.

Just to get threw the thundering,
I played with twinks in woodstock.

But now  is it Bad that this is why i keep the door locked?

These people are weird
They eat raw and they sip blood
The Nephilims from around the flood
These people sleep like wolves
The kids from old the sons of Wood
The Nephilims from around the flood.
Flesh ripped open smelling like a pack dogs,
You wouldn't believe me if you knew what there trying make a "God".
You read like I'm writing something that you can like and just go on.
Please believe the heartless are on top.
We have faith in Noah to free what is left of us.
THE ZOMBIES THERE TALKING ABOUT is the Nephilim generation but...
You won't believe me if I said "Here They Come".
Pray for I will be a David to my Goliath.
If they **** me it's only because I wasn't Quiet.

What do you want from me ?
Why do you talk to me
What do you know ?
I am  I’m not scared of you
I am inevitable

The biggest question I have to ask myself sometimes is why did I forgave you ?

The sky is grey and the light is far,
the sea is a rage within my heart.

Cause i need eyes to be my guide
i need voice thats louder then mine
I need hope
and i Need you.


I pray for dawn a new day to live,
I pray mercy only jesus gives..
i believe overall there is a greater light.

I  need hope and I need you,
Cause i can't do this alone.

Grace i call your name
oh want your smile fall over me.

COME DOWN AND SAVE ME!

Cause I despise who i've been...right,
I'm in a fight that i can't Fight alone.

Level of conviction
My voice is so silent
My mind is yielding
My heart becoming radiant.

And so the pattern of this world is hating him.
Hating me without cause
My friends there to dark now
My room has lifted without even touching a cloud.
Heavenly host just walks right in then go out.
While demons skirm just to be let down.
Zeal is here trying to endure this night with no "burst" out.

So he rights a verse couple of songs and poems then he lays down.

I don't hear nothing except being loving before they take him out.

I was young but now I am old but never have I seen the righteous forsaken.
You will never leave me so you seen my mistakes friend,
I need you bad
I need your help
This world wants me with cash
But selling my soul is like I don't any part of you.
One day they will **** me cause I stood up for the truth,
But now at this moment I'm struggling to stand threw my lustful youth.
If I was being real with my self I've failed you,
I need your Love I need your rod I ...I need you!!

Back in 8th grade I looked over Cory while peeing as a joke I took in consideration a thing worth dreaming it inks me like a tatoo and swims threw my being kissed by lust now I see why my skin crawls when he winks at me. So close to the edge I forgot my desire my flesh taking over drops of ***** I've notice that this has stolen my focus pushed down but not broken he walks beside me speaking eyes glowing my hand in my pocket my errection is showing I don't know this guy I've become like the sun in the morning cool breeze with a chill as he step backs heart jumping he mentions me planted seeds just start growing I can't fake it I'm showing in his shorts the smells pointing "look his mouth is jawing"! This was the last day he undressed as he looked at me oh crap! Now I'm drowning as he says "do you like what you see"? ...the first day of fighting my inner being

Can I paint the sky for you even though I'm not God?
Which one you will trust if it was just us?
Tell me what's better in color..
The coat or the sweater?
Question my pleasure but don't don't question my love
This world is full of heartless Endevors
If I was one of them can you save him?

Yes I do I believe one day you will see how much your missing me.

I'm scarred ..that day it was so dark,
The moon and the stars I use to count them to tell you...

..Don't trip don't quit where would you begin if I just left you would say "I'm missing you".

But it's hard your pridefulness has blind you.

Plz oh plz don't go that's all I want..
But my heart is overwhelmed of being ignored!

I don't want to lay by your side,
I'm tired of you
You.

If you don't text oh it's alright,
I'm so numb to you
You.

But I DONT WANT TO THINK THIS TONIGHT.

I was reaching out to you
I text and I call?
I payed for shirts and shoes
I've given you
I've given you more then what you gave me.

He wakes up and smells lust,
His prey sleeps threw the night.
His past is present and plus trust,
Hearing my stomach roar he gets hungry.
So he slides to his victim...helpless and unconscious or just sleep he wraps his hands around his mine.
Thoughts come to mind..
I-I-I tried and tried to stop the past from taking my life
But it's too late I'm eating my victims mind and I fight and fight.
But I've done this before I'm numb to the fight.
My tongue has touched what my soul likes as he turns over.
I'm covered in regret tonight.

Only got two weeks to live
Two weeks to get my stuff together before they throw me out for Good.
It's good because there people,
His wife support the family like a anchor
The Dad lost but he's a good fellow
There son...well there son is incredible.
I hope one day he reads the Hints that I gave him,
Before I Leave I pray They sense the love that ease,
A laughter for the mom to inhale and exhale the tention.
A intimate talk with the Dad for the times that he sounds like nobody listens.
And a overflow for the son for the times that he chased friends and girls so he can call someone that was there before.
For me a sunrise and hug before I leave,
And I pray to God that all this will happen before two weeks.

..amen

They say you depart in 7 ways
Crucifying your rights
And regenerating every thing God says "don't practice"... for I believe you take many shapes still can't fit in his will like a bad tire with the right tools and I'm sitting here thinking like
I'm born in a danger state ...state of mind where I'm so far from the place that I sit across from earth like a dog on his chain watching the cars pass and chew my bone whichever is my understate.

Have you ever had someone ******* in your brain?
Your eyes pulling the strings as you watch them talk to somebody else with intrest and your heart screaming "Look at Me"!
If you hear music it's me I dance around the truth that you have different options to choose and hang out with...you should just go ahead and choose me!
I'm so jealous that ignoring you births the Y for jealousy,  but then again I don't even know that you like me...I put my glasses on cause the truth blinds me and so I untangle you as you notice me I'm noticing that's where you want to be.
I'm the one in the strings how great it feels to be around someone who can cut you off and can't even see the strings

Bragging rights are like the ocean with waves get notations from the sand like "your gunna end right here tonight".

I Heard about Buddha I listen to the ways of Allah but who is Yeezus?

Down right wrong there coming as a nasty fragrance that's too strong...
Killing just live by clothes, books or songs.

As they ask me can we all just get along?

You headed beast your the same one that's speaking about women like they don't matter at all?!!

Why would I believe in a lie that cost?

Is this a Fantasy...land.
I don't think I know where I am,
Then again...who really knows.

Where are we?
Where am I?
Feels like the door is open and I can walk out of my soul..
Seems like the only wisdom and security is where ever your spirit goes...
Looks like I'm never going back to who was cause my feet is subject to right.. I ... Love ... You.

But if I was being real Is this a Fantasy...land.
I don't think I know where I am,
Then again...who really knows?

Hold the key to my life unlock what I need more then what I know, closed gently those things that I run to when things become wrong.. If I thought bout it ...

"Your my key lead the way to what is you, lead me home".




Amen

Smiles are glass
And the heart is sand
They push me until I  break..
Time has Stopped once again

Breath out breath in

In the Eye of the hurricane
I'm calm in it's thunder
I have gave myself a float
So there my body lays in the river
Purifying my deepest thoughts
Cleaning my being
Washing away the times I tried to stay
What I'm trying to say..
I'm Leaving

**Breath in breath out

Color is a crime
Math is too
Still we teach what we create
Entrepreneurs are keeping quite like subtitles,
Poor life bought a shiny bezel couldn't find his soul so he banged a couple picking wings from angels Italy might be heavens payroll to him it's Benjamin and Aholes bank rolls flight comes he's gone mentally mind froze . Who am I to a billionaires mind though?
Oh sorry my mind froze I was writing something thinking bout all those who would like this luxury. Multiplying and dividing Benjamin's I might just create a symphony and sale it to the melodies below me so they can get a look at the sky I see...

phone rings**

Oh hey ...

Im crazy and I know it
Funny how the world placed you on the mental side.
I guess you are my better half
Cause we’re both letting our worlds collide

I just don't get it
Oh wait I get it
No wait!!!
What you mean I don't need you??!!
I don't ..
I mean I do...!!!
Stop your going to fast
Well fine pack your stuff
I can finally get you out my head.
What's what...that
Just some pills I take what's it matter to you
Why are you still here!!
Aghhhhhhhh
I can scream if I wannt
Well shut uuuuup !!!!!!!
Stop just stoooop everything!!!!!
Ima be alright
Will I be alright oh yeah I'm fine
I'm fine  I'm fine
I'm finnnne!!!
Do you here those voices??!!!
They won't!!!!!
...Leave


.........hello?

I'm tired of sitting
I'm tired of wanting
I'm tired of people stepping on my neck
telling me this how it goes and you can't do...
What I can't do! Is hear you!
I'm stepping out on faith to, this room is like my plate full everything that I don't accomplish cause I was scared to !!! Uhhh I hate when that happens.

I'm switching like I was broke to a wealthy zeal captain.

I fail so much !!
God I fail so much
God, I am the head and not the tale
Cut my tale off when I bailed now forreal forreal ..

Work my fingers go work!
All there disses don't work
I'm not gunna show them what ima do I will be better stronger wiser then what I am now!!

Cause right now!!
Right now!!
Now, I...I... Praise, pray and hold this stance.
for Jesus is the only one that believed me

I'm losing interest slowly
Picking up rocks and throwing them at me.
The pond mirrors off the rocks impact and comes back to me....slowly.
I look to my left and all of my friends are grown, then I look to my right and I see you come.
What was it that made you wanna see my reflection and listen to my stream?
I believe it was me I sink in side myself just to breath.
Saw the same with you that's why I love the way we look ...Deep.
But even you my companion is walking away from me.
I'm tired of looking up to see is anyone gunna just stay and was tch the reflection I see.

I hope that i can turn back the time where i can see your face
the only Girl that never had a chance cause I'm oblivious to my ways
I don't know whats wrong,
My heart is like the Sun's rays Giving off light but when the clouds come i hide my Love but i need somebody in the frame watching my brothers grow up is I'll See and like the Sea I'm need of a drift someone that can keep my head up..
"Can We ...we keep keep each other company? oh company.
a Justin bieber song feel heavy in this nice weather
what if i sell my soul then i won't have a leg to stand on I'll be having millions to walk on i believe thats why I'm still alone.
So peaceful yet So alone
So Me yet I don't know
So simple yet complicated all  I want is for someone to walk with in the mall
how many men do you know work for them self?
On a Island but i rather be Home
A Liger with all my desires but my heart is like the Pacific
Watch how i smile at the Birds I wonder sometimes if that was you sending me Messages where ever you are I captured your birds just to see if would visit.

Captured by love if I lose everything I hope my love will hear me
Embraced by hope I follow it to the highest Moutain.
Conceived by trust it's hard not to swim the hearts of most and find out there's no water there so I bring a cup to ur lake
A cup to your ocean...
Love to your seed,
Hope to the hopeless ones
Trust to a generation of back stabbers..
Maybe if they see my scars they will follow me to your Moutain..
Maybe..

There after me!
It calls at night
What's after me?
I'm scared of light
Cause I done this in the dark
Some how when I'm living can you help me threw what I fight..
What I started
What I might
Bad habits coming to the light
My habits walking threw the night
I love my life but I can't stand my rights
I wanna go home I wanna go back
Back to where our mind was in the Garden before we sat and ate of what good and evil pre- lapse.
I have nothing to gain
I have nothing left
If I was born without hands ..amen I'll will praise you on my knees.
But I lift up my hands and say..
He's after me myself save me from my help all I need is you and what you are to me you're  holy in all your ways what am I in your place ? No Kanye I'm not a God I need one not just anyone you the Holy one I believe..
I believe!
I'm just tired of me

My love haven't ate but my stomach is full,
My soul wants it now but my spirit is Gold
I feel so away from where I was
Who am I who have I become
I wanted help I wanted to be bold
But this life desires someone to be there and I haven't found not one and it's getting cold
Where ever you are I just wanna go on a date
I love fishing and  grab a few steaks
I want my breath out by a kiss on my face
Crashing in your arms and telling about my day
I use to want her .. now I just want someone who will love me for ....me..

My hands hold my coldest thoughts,
....My heart is sinking in the sand
Still I try to pick myself  up!
All the pieces fall again...

Iets just be honest, im coming
I'm coming , I'm coming
Undone my beloved friend.

I'm blowing threw the wind my friend,
Forgive me for the years I did.
I'm tryna be a better man!
But when I do I fall again

Can I be honest, I'm coming
I'm coming I'm coming
With Perfect hands

You'll  pick me up when I'm  in sin,
I'll   dust you off from all your dirt.
Back together in my perfect hands!
Forever be your beloved friend.

I am....that I am...I'm coming home....com..

Last words he said after arrows pierced his mind
His heart was ready to deny the blood that was flowing like a rush of water calming a fire.
My hands became weak of holding my sword and helmet oh such liars! Ambushed by my own creation that poison me while drinking my apple cider...
Companion of wires caught in the eye of my fighters. Guilty! Broken! Hearts...
He falls to his knees his eyes are losing sight.
With his getting he gets understanding,rises and looks at the North Star that's shinning and smiles as the cowards run off in the dark towers knowing one day those twin towers will fall oh I heard the whispers of knowledge! He wipes his face with this last moment as blood is dripping from his garmet..falling back slowly he screams...

My God...my God...I'm coming home...com

With a loud thump!

He falls and closes his eyes slowly as he hears the shaking of those dark "Created Gods"

Hands ***** like my T-shirt,
All these lies on my t-shirt!
Holes and wrinkles..blows and regretful tears on this T-Shirt!
Who to blame when I bought it maaanee it's kinda strange to keep this up or keep it on.



"In order to clean your bad habits I learned you gotta stop picking those bad habits or they will rub off in your soul and become your actions."