Thankful little hopeful day
it started with a dream of you
I know that God hears when I pray
I wish that you would know that too
open your heart and let him in
He just wants to help you through
if you let go of all that sin
then you will see that this is true
love is pure and love is right
true love wants what's best for you
so just let go and stop the fight
good things you'll find are more than few
if life would flash before your eyes
then you'd make choices differently
then you could skip those failing tries
because you'd see all so clearly
now what if someone loved you so
that they even died for you
and He only wants to help you grow
into the person that is truly you
when you finally understand
that love is selfless, helpful, kind
then you will be a better man
and realize that you do not mind
all of your desires deep
the ones that you don't tell a soul
God will give you, yours to keep
He will help you reach that goal

I love it when you rock side to side
like a weeble wobble dance
when you're cooking in the kitchen
making recipes from France

you're silly goofy laugh
and the way you always mock
I can't tell if you are being mean
or if that's just how you talk

you splash me with the water
when you're using the hose
and I hope that you are flirting
that's not hard to suppose

when I lay awake at night
and you are snoring in your bed
I have silly little thoughts
that I am running through your head

They don't understand
just what I see in you
no, you are just a man
but what I see is true
the person that you act
is not the one that's you
I've always know this fact
but I hid that from you too
I saw you from the first
the dark the light the shame
I knew that I was cursed
even though I saw your game
looking at your heart
was like looking in a mirror
'cause from the very start
I knew we're slaves to the same fear
I love you with my soul
it's the other half of yours
but this love can take a toll
I think we feel it in our cores
that's why I had to leave
and I know you don't know why
but I had something up my sleeve
and that's why I didn't cry
I'll be yours one day
though you don't want me now
I'll win this game we play
and I'm gonna show you how
my love for you is pure
and I want the best for you
I know I've got the cure
and I know you'll get a clue
I see right inside of you
just waiting to burst out
no one ever sees what I do
I want to scream and shout
to tell you what I know
what maybe you can't even see
'cause you refuse to show
though you've opened up to me
you know I will never quit
no matter how long or how far
I don't know if you can handle it
but I wish on every shooting star
people think I'm nuts
but I don't really care
most couples stuck in ruts
but we've got miracles to share
so I'll work with all my heart
until that day that you decide
to offer me the part
of your ever faithful bride

So much stuff it's killing me
it's crushing me the stuff I see
there's stuff and stuff it's all around
I cannot even see the ground
my emails just pile up high
my virtual pile reaches the sky
real stuff fake stuff, so much junk
it's probably why I'm in a funk
my brain is spinning out of whack
so much stuff I can't keep track
should I just delete it all?
and throw away what's piled tall?
but then what if I need that stuff
and then I may not have enough
I'll try to find that thing I read
'cause I can't keep track in my head
but maybe I'd remember things
If all this stuff would just make wings
and fly right out my window there
and then I'm left without a care
what if that had changed my life
and left me here without this strife?
am I the one that stressed me so?
I guess that I'll never know...

Don't think so hard if it's this or it's that
does this thing make me look to thin or too fat
if I take one Major and ignore the rest
if I end up failing just one stupid test

do I look much better with short hair or long
I'm just so stressed out, 'cause what if I'm wrong?!
the left or the right how do I pick a side?
will I end up lonely or will I be a bride?

If I pick one job and I hate what I do
is that worse than never even having a clue?
I'll have space that is mine if I'm buying a home
but what if I'm stuck and I need to just roam?

every decision we make can decide our whole fate
but if we don't choose soon, then it will be too late
decisions decisions I just do not know
do I have to make one? Or just go with the flow?

but you'll end up with nothing if you don't try hard
but I just don't know what I'm working toward
do I want the hubby, kids and that life?
am I really cut out to be somebody's wife?

or am I a free spirit who needs to run wild
who can't be tied down by a man or a child
what will happen in life if I never choose?
if I just ignore it will I certainly loose?

if you have been reading and it's stressing you out
if you're in this too, don't cry and don't pout
there is an answer to all of this stress
it's so very simple, that you'll never guess

and you will try and complicate things
as you chase after money or engagement rings
if you let go of stress and just listen with care
to these answers I give you, these things that I share

the reason that you can't decide what to do
is not because there is something wrong with you
its because you're afraid and you're letting it drive
but if you want to like the place that you arrive

Then you have to let go 'cause you're not in control
you think that you are, but you don't even know
we hold on so tight and we fight and we cry
then scream up at God and cast blame and ask why

"I'm trying to help you, but you won't let go!
you don't even know what you want, but I know
I'm trying to give you the desires of your heart
but you have to let me, yes that is your part

Fear not I am with you, no I will not leave
I only have gifts of love up my sleeve
so hold out your hands and give me your fears
and I will give you hope to replace all those tears

Now sit up straight and just choose one path
don't think about probability or statistical math
just follow your heart to wherever it leads
don't worry about if you end up in the weeds

just keep on going and do not ever quit
don't rely on yourself, your charm or your wit
just trust and believe in Me I will provide
so, take My hand, and lets go for a ride."

Sparkling on thin needles
sun glistens through
looks like Christmas lights

hearing the steady sound
outside my window
and I think of you

I wonder if I can handle it
all of this rain, and more
can I stand the wet places

the gloomy clouds
oppressive gray all around
will it get to me or is it perfect

I don't know what to think
I don't know what I want
I don't know what I'm in for

decisions always more and more
never seeming the right one
just trying to do the best

how do you find your place
when this world is not your home
how do you know where to wait

we are all just waiting here
the dedicated are doomed
the half-hearted are hated

how do you commit your heart
when you know it won't last
the gloom gone, sun is coming

nothing lasts, nothing makes sense
commit commit just go 100%
something is meaningful in the chaos

wind whipping rain all flurries about
nature is chaos but all is in order
rain or shine, don't decide. just live.

itchy tickle little black nose
claws on ends of doggy toes
fluffy tan with big brown eyes
I hope that he never dies
smart and sharp he looks at me
I wonder just what does he see
fluffy tail bounds through snow
man he loves that little word "go"
curled up in a little ball
he makes himself look really small
soft as a cloud and super sweet
I think he knows how to spell "treat"
sliding down the wood-floored hall
chasing after a tennis ball
on my bed he's sleeping sound
I am so happy he's around

Pitter patter little snow
how I love the way you go
so unique in my delight
floating down and taking flight
I haven't seen your little dance
since I've been in the State of no pants
all I saw was shorts and flops
and little skirts and tiny tops
there's just no snow in some places
except what goes up some faces
that is not the snow for me
but laying silent beneath the tree
this blanket cold and crystalline
boards jumping like a trampoline
hollers hoots and happy guys
crisp and perfect clear blue skies
pine tree smells and rushing air
snowboarding without a care
breath of freshest oxygen
this day it was a perfect 10

Silence beckons deep hearts reaching crying love
but the chatter is deafening inescapable
screaming aloud in a crowd with no ears
sitting in a sea of techno twerking scramble
laughing and touching, eyes like grasping hands
clawing and fighting trying to catch a breath
eyes closed tight fighting, overwhelming
blood leaking from heart through bleeding ears
drowning in noise not loud enough to drown out the pain
the hardest of things to enjoy but the most satisfying
the master, take silence from the noise and push
inverted blast, silent atomic energy expanding
envelops all it touches, louder in its silence than all else
falling away, fading into the background as it passes
lonely despair in the twisting, grinding, raucous, sinful sea
escaping running, faster fading, slowing quietly awaiting
forest of silence, glowing inside brilliantly shining peace. Alone.

Bitter feelings tears are falling
But you have to listen to that calling
When you leave the one you love
because you felt lead from above
sometimes He will take and hide you
when you don't know just what to do
the easy life is not the one
a heavy heart can weigh a ton
God will always make a way
if you will just get down and pray
when you find that all you're chasing
with the time that you've been wasting
didn't turn out how you hoped for
and left you always wanting more
you were looking in wrong places
putting hope in pretty faces
security isn't money in the bank
and you forget it's God to thank
when you feel safe because you're married
and you don't realize you've been carried
the perfect house with the big yard
you forget again to thank the Lord
Emptiness is always haunting
every day starts to seem daunting
Fix your eyes on what's ahead
that Jesus rose up from the dead
if you will just put hope in him
and let go of all the dragging sin
impossible becomes obsolete
then life starts to be really sweet

Boats and more boats around this marina
thank goodness none of us got caught in Katrina
big boats and small boats, they're really yachts
the giant, fun toys of people with lots
gambling, eating and sitting by pools
lifeguards yell at kids to follow the rules
turquoise the waters of sparkling seas
it's so pretty here with it's cheerful palm trees
the waves lap up gently on crystal white sand
there's dolphins out playing in sight of land
a manatee swam right up to the dock
and nobody here is checking their clock
a turtle was swimming slow and relaxed
a bikini model lay out all freshly waxed
massages and facials, yoga and gyms
healthy and happy fulfilling their whims
a jet ski flies by and they holler in fun
everybody out getting their dose of the sun
by evening and rambunctious music parade
if you vaycay here then your life's really made

twisting and turning all muddled about
my brain.. there's no ending I can't find the route
there's no path to follow that leads to the next
like trying to make sense of a foreigner's text
things are all tangled and covered in sauce
its difficult to figure out who is the boss
hard to look good when it's all on your face
like trying to demand you belong in your place
respect is something that is earned and not taken
a good leader can always admit he's mistaken
fear, regret, resentment, anger and hate
its hard to respect when that's all on your plate
respect goes both ways and you get what you give
it all starts with you if you want peace to live
if both of you hold on to all of the bad
then you will both end up very sad
fill your heart with forgiveness and love
pray and ask for some help from above
then you may end up cooking spaghetti together
a step towards something that can stand any weather

roaring engines with wind in my hair
so happy that I'm sitting next to you there
driving the boat just as fast as you can
tattooed arms, you're such a **** man
grin on my face that matches my heart
you couldn't even tell that we are apart
giant barracudas in the glittering sea
first time we've done something fun, you and me
the sea plants were waving as we passed them by
you swim so fast it's like you can fly
we scouted and searched through fishes galore
because what we're looking for was something more
we finally came up to that peaceful place
a statue of Jesus with his upturned face
He lifts up his hands from the watery deep
Praying to the Father, our hearts to keep
My hope is in Him because it's not in you
you did flirt with me today, though, that is true
but if I were to leave our love in your future plan
then all would be lost because you're just a man
He may have been sunk at the bottom of the sea
and you've been on a pedestal that was put there by me
but He is the one that gave us this day
this day that was filled with fun, hope, and play
so I'm taking you down from that stand that you're on
I think you'll be happier beside me, now that it's gone.

Hope is something you do when all is going wrong
if everything was going right, there would be no reason
hope is a word written in many a song
it comes and goes, it's as changing as the seasons

some days are happy and you just think it will stay
other days are sad and you wonder how it will ever work
on those days, get on your knees and pray
then you'll laugh at the devil with a nice little smirk

you have to take care of a glimmer of hope
if there is just one smoldering piece of it left
don't sit around and let yourself mope
or it will disappear as unexpectedly as theft

hold that hope in the palm of your hand
offer it to God to see what He can do with it
even if you can't see a way, that's ok, He can
so be patient and wait and quietly sit

we all want to do something and don't want to wait
but that might be exactly what is called for
so while you wait get rid of things like fear and hate
so the answers can come, because you're ready for more

God wants to bless you and answer all your prayers
but you have to believe and you have to let Him be
upon Him you can cast all of those cares
He will help you, and only He can set you free

Exactly as He promised is how everything will go
if you don't understand love, then you really should try
that is what He wants and what He's trying to show
He doesn't like it when you're sad He doesn't want to see you cry

He wants you to be joyful, and free and full of HOPE!
everything you wish that you were getting from that lover
attention, affection, respect, trying to find support to cope
He can give you all of these things better than any other

but I just want a boyfriend or a girl to cuddle up to
and I just want a place to live, to pay my bills, and have a home
well He can give you all of that too because He really knows you
and you won't have to search and wander always on the roam

so settled down and trust and wait and you are going to see
that everything your heart desires if you love and trust the Lord
will come to you in ways "impossible" for you and me
and not only those you thought but even so much more!

creeping crawling something burning
everything is somehow yearning
thoughts of deep and twisted sighings
sometimes you just know they're lying
fun it stops and round it goes
and comes again so touch your nose
its still there its not that cold
but check your hair it's getting old
rambling down the ramp of summer
lake boat fills us back with wonder
you thought I was saying i'm rambling
better writing than sit and gambling
what comes next I do not know
but I keep writing even though
I'll stop when I run out of words
oh look there goes some pretty birds
oh wait their fish but they are flying
big fat tuna down there dying
sitting sweet on dinner plates
oh shut up this fish is great
ok I think I'm stopping now
right after I just take this bow

Victory is the word of the brand new year
Where I have sworn no more crying, no tears
things will happen, I've seen when you pray
when you let God mold you like you are His clay
I tried slutty and drunken and crying all night
I tried sober, and hard work, and thinking just right
I tried forcing my mind to think the right thoughts
because if you think just right, it will bring you lots
I tried reading every piece of hope I could find
I obsessed and analyzed everything in my mind
Then finally I sat down, and I just let it go
There is no possible way that we can just know
What will happen to us in this life full of pain
Only God can turn it into a life full of gain
I looked up to the Heavens and asked Him to speak
I told Him I couldn't, that I am too weak
He calmed and brought such peace into my heart
He lead me to read His word, just this one part
He faithfully answers our prayers with awesome deeds
it was right there, so plain, He knows all my needs
He told me again and again to believe
and that if I could do that, then I would surely receive
so this is the year that my victory's sure
no more sitting and slouching and acting demure
there is a time for meek and patience and calm
and there's a time to believe and to act very strong
when there's faith in your heart it just comes right out
gives strength to body, lifts your head, ends your pout
last year was painful, I couldn't do it again
God put me through fire to save me from my sin
I don't know what my word of the year was last year
but I know now I like better what I see in the mirror
This year I know, I just feel it deep inside
that victory will come but not because I tried
It will come because God has told me it's so
and He's always faithful to His promises, this I do know.
So He prompted me to tell you all this little story
to inspire you all to your own year of victory

There is war going on that we cannot see
where angels of brilliance are flying above
a raging battle is fought to save you and me
in brilliant armor they clash, bright wings like a dove
Each time you say something kind or you give
every prayer that you offer when you'd rather fight
lends ammo to Heaven so that more may live
tips the scales in favor on darkest of night
you think you don't matter that life just goes on
that all things are determined so do what you want
if there's even a chance that you might be wrong
that when it is the weak and the helpless you taunt
or maybe you think if you're just good or polite
and you'll go to Heaven and that will be all
but He said to make Him you're heart's delight
or you could be left here when He comes to call
Or maybe you think that Heaven is clouds
and all you do there is sit with a harp
when death comes for you in burial shrouds
you think Hell is more suited for the smart and sharp
if you are striving and battling all your life long
to have mansions and money and all that you can
then you are going about it all wrong
God said just believe and that's His gift to man
He promised mansions, and treasures, and pleasures unknown
so what is it here that we want more than that?
all we have to do is plant good and reap what is sown
but we get drunk and diseased and eat till we're fat
so if you have warriors blood and a desire to win
and be tough and awesome, loved and not beat
then why fight with the losing, lending ammo with sin
switch sides to the winning, who's victory's concrete
every choice that you make is helping one side
there's no Switzerland in this battle that's going
so you're making a stand, none along for the ride
pay attention to life and the things that God's showing

He opens His mouth and what you hear
is words that calm your heart of fear
His face his gentle, bright blue eyes
He never tells you pretty lies
He listens when you have something to say
Never gets tired of hearing 'bout your day
He comforts you when you are super sad
and calms you down when you're raging mad
When you're all alone and start to cry
He comes around 'cause He's your guy
When you just can't win and all is lost
Just remember He died on the cross
sometimes a victory's disguised as defeat
But then He rose up again, isn't that neat?
So, if miracles are what you're waiting for
then just be patient and see what's in store
For all those who pray and ask and believe
It's been promised to them, that they will receive
He's not just concerned with our afterlife
He loves and He helps us with all of our strife
So cast all your cares on His big broad back
Especially when your life is all out of whack
Because that is the time when you need Him most
The Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost

Shadowed meaning twisting turning
heart of anger full of yearning
can't decipher what he's feeling
I think his heart needs some healing
harder, colder, darker growing
wondering, hoping, never knowing
his life needs light and brightening
but to him that's always frightening
hope and love send him to raging
fear and anger welcome caging

I can't read any more poetry
was not meant to rhyme
with this statement of weird facts
are different to the people viewing them
like in an accident when you're in a car
wash your face and your hair
brained ideas are all running
horses right over the edge
of this razor is duller than ever
ever after and then some
people just never know you
think you know everything
in the world comes back around
and around and around she goes
to the store to buy some more
that I think about why I love somebody
let the cat out again and I can't find him
and I were meant to be
better at your job and you might get somewhere
over the rainbow where monkeys fly
to California to see your family
jewels and gold in an old treasure chest
x-ray showed a heart murmur
into my ear that you love me

swipey swipey left or righty
I could do this all freakin nighty
I'll never call you, never text
I know you're all just after ***
boys are silly girls are too
they want true love but a ****** will do
easy peasy lemon squeezy
nobody thinks this stuff is sleezy?

It glitters falling ever faster
source is full and spilling over
clouds of eyes that have no master
wishing on a 4-leaf clover
twinkling down upon the leaves
it's sticking to the spikey clouds
watering down as though it grieves
and fallen tresses round it shrouds
source of water pouring out
heart of all it pulses rain
full and drenching now in pout
the earth is drenched in angel pain

Thankfulness for little things
even though you wanted wedding rings
can lead you on to something great
'cause you showed love instead of hate
faithfulness in little things
secrets kept in whisperings
can lead to gaining someone's trust
which in this life is such a must
kindness shared with little things
a drowning bee with soaking wings
can lead to glimmers full of hope
and give you reasons not to mope
if you can be good with all little things
and let go the hurts and fights and stings
then "impossible" miracles could manifest
because even in small, you gave your best

Roses are dead
Violets are stew
If you're in love
then you're an idiot too
'cause boys just like drama
and you'll never be right
unless you're like their mamma
and never will fight
they want you to be good
while they play around
but they wanna check under the hood
before they settle down
so where is the balance
and what do you do
how can you stand a chance
or know what is true
the only way you're ever the one
is if you stay true to you
till they've had all their fun

Deep as the sea and oh so blue
When you speak I don't know what to do
I try to concentrate and listen hard
But I probably look like a ******
'cause all I can think of is kissing those lips
and feeling your hands gripping my hips
your laugh is the cutest thing I've ever heard
you sound like some sort of **** man bird
if I ever have the guts to show you this rhyme
you'll probably think I was nuts for a time
but that doesn't matter 'cause you don't know
that I love you 'cause I haven't told you so

A long *** flight to parts unknown
A beautiful town becomes your home
With jagged mountains topped with snow
And crystal lakes lay far below
A bustling town with lots of bars
A canopy of brilliant stars
A jet boat ride a ledge bungy
A cruise with dolphins out to sea
Snowboarding with awesome friends
Until the season meets it's end
The adventure is continuing
It started off with canyoning
Sleeping in a car for weeks
To see new shores and snow capped peaks
From glaciers to beach in a single day
And free campgrounds where you can stay
Zorbing down a grassy hill
A private beach where you can chill
Caving through the dark abyss
Is definitely something not to miss
Adventures abound in these islands
And I'm gonna miss all my awesome friends
And now it's time to say goodbye
And to new adventures, off I fly.

something something little lamb
all these poems are so sad
Mary probably ate that lamb
'cause she probly had no dad
and Old Yeller up and died
at least that's what i've heard is said
but i've never seen the movie
its so old now, he's probably dead
the little mermaid got divorced
because she missed her family
Mulan's life was totally forced
had to be a man just to be free
Eric must have drowned
tryin to get his wifey back
and once a queen is crowned
her main job is in the sack
poems are like country songs
they only talk of what is sad
a long long list of all the wrongs
they're focusing on all the bad
and if you read them backwards
do you think it all is happy things
all positive and happy words
rainbows, butterflies and birdies sing
laughter was my honest goal
but now I'm done with rambling
negativity can take a toll
but I feel for all those suffering

Heaven is a place where there is no time
Where you're never late and there's always wine
Heaven is a place where the jobs don't ****
Where you never have to stick your hands in guck
Heaven is a place where babies don't cry
Where husbands and wives never cheat and lie
Heaven is a place with no disease
Where nobody gets stung by bees
Heaven is place with lots of food
Where it's also ok if you like to be ****
Heaven is a place where we don't get tired
Where we don't have bosses and we won't get fired
Heaven is a place where there is no dust
Where allergy pills are not a must
Heaven is a place where there is no cleaning
Where nothing we do is ever demeaning
Heaven is a place where we don't have to worry
Where there's no loved ones we have to bury
Heaven is a place where animals can talk
Where lions and lambs will together walk
Heaven is a place where we're never cold
Where our human bodies won't grow old
Heaven is a place where there is no trash
Where we won't have to sell junk to make more cash
Heaven is a place where we're never weak
Where no one is ever afraid to speak
Heaven is a place where hearts don't break
Where we don't have to feel that consuming ache
Heaven is a place where we're never alone
Where everyone here has found a home
Heaven is a place where there is no fear
Where you're truly alive, 'cause He's always near

I sat right down upon the stool
Ignoring the eyes of the nearby fool
The bartender nodded and I ordered a drink
He had it to me quick as a blink
The the arrogant *******
Decided I was the one to scratch his itch
He came right over cool as can be
His clothes were screaming 'I have money'
He laid down his line, something about water
Didn't seem to matter I could be his daughter
Gave me the up-down look, I could see his mind
Normally to my elders I am quite kind
The sad thing is, he thinks it's fine
because the other girls do fall for that line
I wonder if he's ever thought
Is his daughter out there to be bought?
Since he decided not to use his mind
I decided to give him a piece of mine
But my Ferrari's just outside
Does he think I don't have any pride?
It's clear his brain is in his pants
And no thanks, not even just one dance
I look at a sad divorcee
And wonder if that'll be me someday
Watching a man my own age
Hitting on a ******* a different page
When I would love to take him to my room
And make him into my happy groom
I'd probably know a thing or two
That that young thing didn't know to do
But men will want what they can't have
And hit on girls when they could be her dad
But must we sit and suffer through
Their attempts to just ***** you?
For me I think that I will not
And though I get hit on quite a lot
I've got some things I'd like to share
With old men that get that stare
When they come for me they will find
An intelligent woman who speaks her mind
It's an uphill battle but it's gotta be fought
So Skeezers know we can't be bought!

Here I sit upon the sand
Holding my heart in my hand
Reaching it out to the sea
An offering to what beckons me
My wild heart has found a home
One that leaves me free to roam
Allowed to laugh and be myself
Not sitting on some proper shelf
To fly and fall and sometimes break
And often making my heart ache
But even with the pain I feel
When my passion stirs so real
To let it have me heart and soul
But sweet surrender costs a toll
A life full of adventuring
Does not come without suffering
The ocean took my heart like theft
Sometimes I wonder what is left
But now my heart is not my own
It melted from it's former stone
Awakened from a fitful sleep
By stirrings under the great deep
The beatings in my chest subside
As I become the sea's corpse bride
Pulled so deep I cannot breathe
But not having the strength to leave
I'm lost and found the sea owns me
I'll love it when it's killing me

An acorn is a tiny thing
But out of it a giant springs
It makes a home for birds and bugs
The roots give rocks and boulders hugs
Below it's branches leaves are dried
And broken hearted souls have cried
Tombstones lie below this one
Someone lost their only son
A stream of water near another
Where someone buried their dead mother
But back to other happy things
The peacefulness, wind whisperings
Powerful and mighty is this tree
That it puts hope inside of me
A mosquito flies around my head
Not bothering the lucky dead
But he brings hope to my heart
To get me up for a fresh start
You think you're too small to affect big things
Take note from that tiny terrorist with wings
God gave us nature for peace to be found
That's why I'm sitting here on the ground
People are buried all over the place
That's why this spot has a different pace
No one is worried or hurrying by
Nobody crying or asking God why
They've been sleeping for hundreds of years
Their prayers have been answered, no more tears
They sleep and wait for the glorious Son
To come down and say, 'alas, it is done.'