You call out dreams within me
Like pulling out folded saris
from boxes waiting on attic space
Colors I’d almost forgotten
come tumbling down like a rainbow waterfall of fabrics
I long to drape them again
and walk my own adventures

the quicker you cry
the faster your face will be dry
And your mind clear again

so is that why
i reach this pit
of sorrow
pitch black

do my body grieve

not this time again
let go of life
one more time

and so my body will
bleed
with sorrow
for what could have been

one deep sigh
before letting go

is this what i feel
every month
before my period

that might
put some sense
to this
heavy, meaningless
darkness

this bridge between us
built of kerosene
and you;
you were holding
a ******* candle

i got love for you
even if youre doubting me
i was trying to get to you
but you lit up the bridge

you watched me burn
and turned into ashes

all these words meant nothing
and you've always been this heartless
stabbing knives of deceit
behind my back
taking a part of myself
and set me on fire

I grip so tight
My knuckles are white
Holding on for my relentless life
Clutching at patience that leaves me so fast
Stomach turning windmills
Starved of you
Hungry for your lyrics
My lungs strain
Pulling in breath but not enough to fill me
Drowning in the
Slow,
Ebbing  
Waves of time
I can't stop thinking about you
Scrolling through songs
Trying to drown out your silence, that fills every space
I cannot sleep
So restless I need your words
Medicine
To send me off
If I dream,
Will you meet me there?

Love— such a short word yet so complex
Love is that queasy feeling you get when someone makes you laugh
It's that overbearing happiness you feel around those you care for
Love is puppy dogs, roses, & all things sweet
...
Love also has a dark side
Love is fighting with yourself to define wrong from right
Love is accepting heartaches & mistakes
Love is letting go when you don't want to
Love can hurt you
Love is this emotional roller coaster that no matter how many times you ride, you cannot prepare for
It hits you at random & you follow the flow
You will never be sure if you get light, dark, or both...