It has been a while,
Since my last trial,
Haven’t cried,
Inside I refuse to die,

It has been a while,
Since my mum smiled,
Sickening by the day,
A surely long trial

It has been a while,
Mothers’ last smile,
Upon her grave,
Lays my strong grief

It has been a while,
I refuse to smile,
My mum is gone,
And so am I

Inside I died,
refused to smile,
hurting others,
with a simple file

when she left me,
I thought I couldn’t be
my life went dark,
and my cuts grew sharp

it has been so long,
I tried to remain strong,
I grew weak,
and I became wrong

my life got heavy,
people leaning on me,
should I of given up,
or played strong

no one understood,
the hurt,
misunderstood,
but still I’m blamed,

I’ve cut and I’ve tried,
to leave the earth,
many times,
here I am 13

1st year of high,
and my girl by my side,
she says I saved her,
but she saved my life.

love*  *was but a word
untill you came,
you fixed my life,
and now i know,
love  *is more
love is more than a word

You said you can’t believe me,
You said you lost all trust,
You said I left you,
When I tried to save us,

I’m sorry for the **** I done,
It wasn’t worth losing you,
I still miss you tons,
Now I feel broken,

You broke me too pieces,
You know I still miss you,
You said all trust is broken,
Even when I said I wouldn’t lie,

I know I lost my heart,
You stole it I’ve fallen apart,
You have my heart from now till forever,
Just please forever or at least forgive me

if you want to leave the door is open,
If you want to leave feel free to make me free,
I tried to show you the truth,
But you blind from head over hate,

You’re mad over things that never happened,
Say I cheated I’ll say your insane,
I never cheated it was all a game,
Now u left me I seem to gain fame,

I don’t know why I bother you held me back,
Now I see you’re the one that made me attack,
I though you were the one to set me free,
You locked me up now I’m breaking out,

I can't believe I tried to save us,
You never cared about our fate,
With you anything could be done,
Now you nothing I’m f**king done,

Why must we cary on,
Why are we told to be strong,
Why do we fight if it a war,
i win each battle,
but i've lost the war.

How can i fight,
when i have no power,
How can i be the one,
Why must i be the one to fight,
When all i want to do is leave,

Why do we have friends,
when they are bound to give in,
Why do we bother,
fighting in the southern wind,
Why, Why must we?

why do we begin if we don't plan to finish
why do we love if we don't want to get hurt
why do we live if someday we must die
why do we smile if we really hurt inside
why do we frown when everything is upside down
why do we plan but not take to action
why do we cry when someday it will be alright
why do we get mad if we really should be glad
why do we mourn when somebody is gone
why do we say hi if we really mean goodbye
why do we question what shouldn't be questioned
and answer what shouldn't be answered?
tell me now...why?

How could I be so lost,
In a place I know so well?
How could I be so broken,
In a family so together?
How could I be so lonely,
Surrounded by so many?
How could I be so unhappy,
Surrounded by so much beauty?
How could I be me,
When even I remain a mystery?