She says
She sees darkness
In my words
A tent of rage
Abandonment, desert
Missing pieces
Of my being
Yet I'm not quite sure
What she's seeing

Perhaps my muse
Is somehow confused
And third eye blind am I
'Cause the things that lurk
Within my darkness
Are whats keeping me alive
....

As she comes into focus
I lower my eyes
I pretend not to notice
The desires of life
Be still my heart
In your broken walls
When it comes to love
My soul has been lost
.....

(I watched the news today
Oh boy.....)



Hands tied
I can only stare
As the Media force feed us
This world of despair...
Attributes assigned
These devils share
Threatening us with terrorism
The commonalities we fears

Expendable at bay
The lepers we must despise
Insecurity the infection
Growing in our minds
The will of the rich
The voiceless poor
Blood stains
Institutions
The harlot's of war
These are
"Our" governments
Ruthless money ******!!!

How do you form
Such feelings with rhymes
Surely words can't lift
Your heart every time
But when you pen
Your heart beats mine
How do you convey
Such feelings with rhymes

How will they see
The desperate me
And feel the pain
Flow as I bleed
Knowing the longing
Has yet to break free
What will become
If I can't get no relief
So
Tell me your method
Your motives
Your mind
How do you form
Such feelings with rhyme
...

Oh my!!!
I do believe this could be it!
Nothing short of the end....
Some people will break
Others will bend
Guns and bombs
Shall shake our souls
The psychopaths
In our midst
Shall play their roles
If you don't believe me
Watch the News
They're coming for everybody
They're coming for you
Time to wear that
Bulletproof vest
Don't be a fool
This life is a mess!

Vaguely I recall
My thoughts before the fall
A world view
So wide yet dim
A simple conformance
To a world I was living in

And you
Chemically produced
Passion induced
Love was real
As real as a pill
Oh how I remember
The thrills

Our eyes
So bright and wide
Midnight moons
Amplified
Endless summer skies

Hearts entwined
In temporal bloom
Sat in stone
And doomed to ruin

Quickened
In love's embrace
The fires were fed
In flesh and lace

Memories infused
With the essence
Of gods
But in the end
Love was only a facade...

Look at this mess
This baggage
Is all I’ve left
My portion
Hard pressed
I have fermented
Nonetheless

Aged and seasoned
Blemishes and lesions
Yet my austerity
She finds
Somehow pleasing
I seek no reason
That would surely
Be treason

She gets drunk
And high
On me oh my
I get low
Fast but slow
We are of one soul
And now you know
Fermented wine
From years ago!

Could the eloquent of words
impair me?
I see the meanings of what you’ve left behind..
The turmoil of your precious life.
Your sun and moon
by design..
Lie to yourself
in clever entries.
Surely you are the one
the gods envy!

Becoming aware, I break from my stare
And wonder how long I’ve been dreaming
The time has come to fight or run
Which sets my busy mind scheming

In my defense I take an awkward swing
What consequence shall my actions bring
To cover the truth or to blatantly lie
Is all the same, it festers inside

Becoming aware, I break from my stare
And wonder if perhaps I'm dreaming

Could my words describe a familiar place
A feeling of love or a bitter taste
Or do they echo through time as an endless rhyme
Never stopping to unravel, leaving naught behind

Perhaps they’re merely spoken out of such demise
An incoherent babble of a madman sublime
Should they speak of rage as of life in a cage
I have written of hate, such a shocking page

Yet I would that my words could somehow describe
The part of me buried inside
And so they may know I am something else
Than the person you see when you look at yourself
........................................................­................................

And so I throw it all away
All those things I could never say
It brings a tear to my eye
But I must let this whole part of me die

We were one
You and I
The moon
The sun
The fallen sky
We were stars
Shining in a midnight's lie
Scorching the earth
Biding our time

Oh how I'll miss you
Waste of mine...

Faces of the sun
Fill the halls
Eyes that shine
Six feet tall
Run and play now
The summer calls!

Breath taking
Her curves and form
She cracked the mold
Her legend born

The books of the meek
Had forgotten her fame
The blood shed across time
In another gods name

Into the hearts of man
She barely survived
She found safe haven
Within mind eyes

She fell from grace
A hell of a storm
Cursed be man
When she was torn...

I don't get along
with my own rage
mostly I disassociate
rather then engage

Still my rage is in here
looking for a breach
of all my multi intelligence
rage is the hardest to teach!

Let me take a moment
to navigate this maze
there's so much more to living
than some festering heated rage

No one need reminding
rage can be quite blinding
but I am not a complete slave
I will keep my rage
caged!
(and off your page)

So I lost all my memories
For the last two years
I can remember
Little bits and pieces
Of way back when’s
But here the thing
My good friend
And my girlfriend
Constantly bring up things
That I said or did the last
Two years that I
Have no memory of.
The first thing I do
Is dig deep, tell me everything
Please, I say
Please give me my memory back!
But then they explain
We already told you yesterday

Upon a pleasant morn
A tranquil sun did shine
My conflicts had I swept beneath
The crevice of my mind

Limitless possibilities
Contemplating  me
Out beyond the boundaries
Of ill-misguided deeds

Wishful and watchful
Why should I fear try
to take now by the horns
Take the world a'ride

Pain and pleasure
Then pain divine
I could quit her anytime

Upon a pleasant morn
A tranquil sun does shine
I am but a stranger
A Traveler chained to time

There’s a storm blowing cold tonight
There’s a tormenting whisper in the wind
My sword is useless in this fight
There’s a battle waged within

**** the demons, **** this flight
**** this soul within
**** what’s wrong, **** what’s right
**** the righteous sin

This storm has blown through me before
Red my eyes do see
Exiled to the killing floor
Wasted on my knees

The conscience
Does not condone
The fate that
The future owns
So we breathe
Hope not to
Ever leave...
Some
Choose Not
To Shrink
From Death
Words
Lost to
Monstrosities
Sublime
Good times pass
Laughter echoes
Existence unwinds

I try not to feel

Subconsciously
It's already known
Enlightenment comes
When we're out getting ******

Yet for some reason
We insist on freewill
Rolling our own bones
Chasing those thrills

Eternally expanding
Entropy bound
Forever ordering
Another round!!!

Staring down
From the high rise
Of their lobbyist contradictions
The powers to be
Strive for the most popular positions

The demon-goddess dressed in blue
Awaits the orange haired devil fool
Now that the social savior
By information stall
Is running not so far at all

So how does such
An obvious evil
In our midst exist
By strategic indecision
  The age old Judas kiss...

I really hate
My cell phone and keys
I lose them like they are part of me
Sunglasses, hats
And four wheel drive trucks
I guess I'm afraid of getting stuck
I gather up my materials
As I depart my cave
I get weighed down in my travels
   Like a medicated Sage
But when I arrive
And the weather turns
I'm always ready
With a joint to burn!

There are things
That can only be seen
In the reflections
Of mirrors and dreams
A sneak peak deeper
Then the mind can go
Shadows and voices
   Lurking below...
In between spaces
Phantoms dwell
Clawing, scratching
Tearing the veil
Demonic angles
Fleeing their Hells

But fear not my friends
It's only a rhyme
Written to warn you
Against the sublime
Avoid doorways
Shadows and stairs
Leading you down
Hallways
Into nightmares
But do believe
They're
Already here!











...

I saw you in the distance
I know you saw me too
I turned my head and walked away
I think I'm turning blue
.....

In a reality low on grace
The heavy heart was formed
In a post-operative place
Our downfalls were born
Wall by wall the maze was set
Tattooed and pierced in childhood regrets

By the dust of time we settle down
Calm in conscience, safe and sound
All that's lost shall now be found
...

I dreamt you were an Angel
From a world quite divine
A light shone all around you
As water turned to wine

You came to heal the people
Of their hatred and disease
But you turned away in sorrow
'Cuz your touch could not heal me...

It all felt so familiar
As if it happened once before
You left me in the ruins
Of this bloodstained killing floor...

Clowns
Faceless whites
Big wide smiles
Lips pulled tight
Red round noses
Beady bigot eyes
World view
That never die

Clowns
In circus tents
Big White Houses
Police agents
Big pink elephants
Fill the ring
Clowns
Are running everything!

Throw the maps away
Navigate
By the light of day
Shortcut will conceal
What is fake
And what is just not real
Leave the
Past left wrong
All you can do is
Keep going straight
Keep going strong
At the
Futures turn right
You're sure to get there
Sometime this life!

Is there any buddy out there?

Am I the only one?

Could this be the end?

Is this site said and done?

Shall I post 1 million words and read them to myself

Shall I write 1 million poems and place them on a shelf

Within the womb
With in the mother
Have I yet to discover
Light beyond the darkness
Forcing me to breathe
Is there anybody out there
Or am I all alone
Life is but a dream
We cannot control
........

Their words
Speak of love
Exceptence
And tolerance
But by their action's
My soul has Been
Set free

As a parent of sound mind
I instilled the need to be kind
To stand up tall and show respect
The way I was taught more or less

The streets are plagued with dark desires
A cold rainy haze of muck and mire
Where dreams of youth are put to rest
As a parent I had tried my very best...

I wrapped you in protective arms
Sheltered you from a world of harm
Squeezed you tight until you burst
As a parent I am the worst...

And so
He surrounds his castle
With an inner circle
Of loyal subjects
Canine, feline
And feminine
A tradition
Well preserved

A peaceful kingdom
In which he rules
With the warmth
And kindness
Passed down through
Ever-changing
Generations

Slowly fables
Were shed
To expose
The rational mind
The more we evolve
Spiritually
The more
Our superstitions
Decline

With the realization
Mercy, compassion
And love
Are not subject to belief...

How long will you look away
and pretend it doesn’t matter?
See our world in decay,
all our children getting fatter.  
Pesticides, herbicides, aluminum in our rain!
PSAF’s in our blood cells, plastics in our brains.

Corporations chasing profits as the empire gasp for power.
The time is now to rise and fight and stop being a bunch of cowards!

I invented
My love for you
Out of leftover pieces
And broken parts
Yep...
I just gathered them up
In my empty hands
And shaped them into
An accepting heart!
Still...
I wish I would have loved you
From the very start!

I feel the lure of the open door
that's kept closed perhaps in vain
Why deny that which we despise
Such as a lover who's loved has waned...

Can love be real that's lost it's thrill
Or explain my next good-bye
Exhausted thoughts about the cost
Such truths one tries to hide...

Burning bridges take my breath
So I'm anchored to this lie
Fool I am and this cage be ******
Behind these lying eyes...

It’s not easy to convert
I remain an atheist pervert
..........

Hard to wrap your mind around
Harder yet to explain
The theories of the multi verse’s
Will blow your mind away

Every time you gamble
Simultaneously you lose and win
The split is at that moment
Another universe begins

There’s only one wave function
It’s call our universe
Yet these atoms are decaying
In an innumerable quantum burst
💥

Took the serpent for another ride
Is it brave to want to die?

For those of you who follow maps
The serpent symbolizes my relapse

His day of judgment he demands
That's if his rider still can stand

His poison venom haunts my dreams
Like the pain of losing a lover brings

I wake up lost deep in the night
Realizing I'm alone in this vicious fight

Letting go can be so hard
For those of us who've gone to far
....

I asked the voice
Within my head
Why is this world
Turning red

The answer I heard
Within a sigh
Only the good
Are allowed to die

Once again
I asked the same
Pretending
This voice had a name

Dear Lord forgive me
Take me away
Suddenly
The voice
Had nothing
To say...
.........................

I lost her to the Green Man
She danced the May Pole Line
I remember all the spells she cast
  Her light shone quite divine

Unbearably bright
The existential  plight
Within different hemispheres
We navigated by what
We believed to be right

Visions of equality
The Goddesses time
Voices of wisdom
Captured in rhyme

Now I hold this talisman tight
And brave this world alone
I live within my self righteous creed
And fear not to roll them old bones...

Into my ear she whispers
Such thoughts I can't define
Days I've lost forever
Moments get trapped in time
Her love has so many meanings
My life has so many stains
My heart is in need of cleaning
As she causes it to rain
Her breath of life I'm breathing
She supplies the light I lack
If I lose my way tomorrow
Her light shall guide me back
She is the queen of mystery
Her energy is where I dwell
Her ways are far beyond knowing
To a heart that's hardened by hell
Yet in my soul she lingers
My doubts she understands
My heart she made of star dust
And formed within her hands
This lesson that I'm learning
Things are rarely as they seem
She opened up my eyes to hope
And renews forgotten dreams

What is it that stirs
The dreaded selflessness
Despite the misery
Of doing the right thing?

The soul is but a funny thing
Can it really be forever
And the secrets of this quantum realm
Can it hold this world together

Love and fear exhaust the mind
Bringing us to our knees
Upon our anger we draw strength
For envy, hate and greed

Disturbing are the dreams of this poet
Restless is my flight,
I shed the blood of a hundred demons
Who somehow stand and fight

To come to terms with yesteryear
Is a strength I lack within
Oh how I miss you my dear
And I wish I'd never sinned...

She shaped me
And molded me
As I laid numb
She stole my soul
An amount of gold
And of course
She had her fun
And now
The strings of my life
Dangle from her hands
I am but a piece of wood
Formed to be her man

In our arrogance
We must admit
The disqualifications
Of our wits
The foundation
Of our operative minds
Subjectively trapped
In space and time

A claim to know
A mere belief
Ripened, fallen
Dying leaf
Landing on
The forest floor
There my love
I know no more
.....................

Rabid dog attempts to bite
Rodent wakes me in the night
Pain lays dormant in my veins
Too much living leaves a stain
Bottomless, this pit in which I fall
Shadows that crawl upon my walls
I was whole, now I'm half
The sands of time are falling fast

Oh but if I were young again
In a time before that knew no end
And you were young with eyes still blue
In the flames of passion we once knew
To burn forever in a magical bliss
To embrace the eternal one last kiss
How could love have fallen behind
Replaced with feeble forgotten mind

Now this rabid hound latches on
To a night that's lasted far too long
My blanket now worn ever so thin
A chill of forgotten regretful wind
Blows cold into my restless dreams
Oh what misery life can bring ...

Could you somehow thrive
in a civilisation of bodiless spirits?
What excitement could there be?
Conjuring world’s of gold and silver
of which only you can perceive.

I’d rather stay here
among the sun and stars.
Alive to be
what ever I desire!
And you!
You can be who ever you are!!

Are you sure you want to leave,
leave behind your laden misery?
Turn to vapour unable to touch,
I would rather feel life’s punch!

In the rewrite of the holy scriptures'
That all religions shall obey
Adam and Eve
Shall live forever
In the garden where they were made...

Cain shall complete Able
At the carnivore vegan feast!
The Witch Of Endor shall be welcome
Along with the soothsayer of Beelzebuby

Moses shall have no need to leave
All humans shall be equally free
Love shall engulf the Egyptians
All shall get along according to the inscriptions
  
The patriarch shall be forgotten
Jude shall not be boughtten  
Noah shall need no ark
Job shall posses a pair
Satan shall posses a heart
Jesus shall not be so rare

The Psychedelic Mushroom shall replace
The trees of Eden
You shall meet up with God
Every time your eaten

Certain Heavens shall be open to cheaters
In fact to them and all sin repeaters

And in my favorite book
The Book Of I-say-so
I may change my mind
And even though
I will always love
All my foes
I assure you
No one shall ever grow old!

If I were lost
On a perpetual path
Navigating back and forth
With only a mad man's map
I would leave behind
A bread crumb trail
To help feed those
Still lost in hell
Then perhaps they'd find a way
Through this perpetual
Relentless maze
...