We exist in a worried ideology
Clinging to a state of safety
Our understanding is fabricated
Shaped to comfortably fit
These simple consciousness
Even death we camouflaged in bliss

Few awake
to attempt to defined these miseries
To glimpses the quantum mechanics
of it all
Forsaking blind faith
in exchange for the unlimited cosmic
experience.

The conscience
Does not condone
The fate that
The future owns
So we breathe
Hope not to
Ever leave...
Some
Choose Not
To Shrink
From Death
Words
Lost to
Monstrosities
Sublime
Good times pass
Laughter echoes
Existence unwinds

I try not to feel

As a parent of sound mind
I instilled the need to be kind
To stand up tall and show respect
The way I was taught more or less

The streets are plagued with dark desires
A cold rainy haze of muck and mire
Where dreams of youth are put to rest
As a parent I had tried my very best...

I wrapped you in protective arms
Sheltered you from a world of harm
Squeezed you tight until you burst
As a parent I am the worst...

I feel the lure of the open door
that's kept closed perhaps in vain
Why deny that which we despise
Such as a lover who's loved has waned...

Can love be real that's lost it's thrill
Or explain my next good-bye
Exhausted thoughts about the cost
Such truths one tries to hide...

Burning bridges take my breath
So I'm anchored to this lie
Fool I am and this cage be ******
Behind these lying eyes...

And so I throw it all away
All those things I could never say
It brings a tear to my eye
But I must let this whole part of me die

We were one
You and I
The moon
The sun
The fallen sky
We were stars
Shining in a midnight's lie
Scorching the earth
Biding our time

Oh how I'll miss you
Waste of mine...

I don't get along
with my own rage
mostly I disassociate
rather then engage

Still my rage is in here
looking for a breach
of all my multi intelligence
rage is the hardest to teach!

Let me take a moment
to navigate this maze
there's so much more to living
than some festering heated rage

No one need reminding
rage can be quite blinding
but I am not a complete slave
I will keep my rage
caged!
(and off your page)

Throw the maps away
Navigate
By the light of day
Shortcut will conceal
What is fake
And what is just not real
Leave the
Past left wrong
All you can do is
Keep going straight
Keep going strong
At the
Futures turn right
You're sure to get there
Sometime this life!

Clowns
Faceless whites
Big wide smiles
Lips pulled tight
Red round noses
Beady bigot eyes
World view
That never die

Clowns
In circus tents
Big White Houses
Police agents
Big pink elephants
Fill the ring
Clowns
Are running everything!

I really hate
My cell phone and keys
I lose them like they are part of me
Sunglasses, hats
And four wheel drive trucks
I guess I'm afraid of getting stuck
I gather up my materials
As I depart my cave
I get weighed down in my travels
   Like a medicated Sage
But when I arrive
And the weather turns
I'm always ready
With a joint to burn!

And so
He surrounds his castle
With an inner circle
Of loyal subjects
Canine, feline
And feminine
A tradition
Well preserved

A peaceful kingdom
In which he rules
With the warmth
And kindness
Passed down through
Ever-changing
Generations

Slowly fables
Were shed
To expose
The rational mind
The more we evolve
Spiritually
The more
Our superstitions
Decline

With the realization
Mercy, compassion
And love
Are not subject to belief...

What is it that stirs
The dreaded selflessness
Despite the misery
Of doing the right thing?

I lost her to the Green Man
She danced the May Pole Line
I remember all the spells she cast
  Her light shone quite divine

Unbearably bright
The existential  plight
Within different hemispheres
We navigated by what
We believed to be right

Visions of equality
The Goddesses time
Voices of wisdom
Captured in rhyme

Now I hold this talisman tight
And brave this world alone
I live within my self righteous creed
And fear not to roll them old bones...

Is there any buddy out there?

Am I the only one?

Could this be the end?

Is this site said and done?

Shall I post 1 million words and read them to myself

Shall I write 1 million poems and place them on a shelf

Within the womb
With in the mother
Have I yet to discover
Light beyond the darkness
Forcing me to breathe
Is there anybody out there
Or am I all alone
Life is but a dream
We cannot control
........

There are things
That can only be seen
In the reflections
Of mirrors and dreams
A sneak peak deeper
Then the mind can go
Shadows and voices
   Lurking below...
In between spaces
Phantoms dwell
Clawing, scratching
Tearing the veil
Demonic angles
Fleeing their Hells

But fear not my friends
It's only a rhyme
Written to warn you
Against the sublime
Avoid doorways
Shadows and stairs
Leading you down
Hallways
Into nightmares
But do believe
They're
Already here!











...

Rabid dog attempts to bite
Rodent wakes me in the night
Pain lays dormant in my veins
Too much living leaves a stain
Bottomless, this pit in which I fall
Shadows that crawl upon my walls
I was whole, now I'm half
The sands of time are falling fast

Oh but if I were young again
In a time before that knew no end
And you were young with eyes still blue
In the flames of passion we once knew
To burn forever in a magical bliss
To embrace the eternal one last kiss
How could love have fallen behind
Replaced with feeble forgotten mind

Now this rabid hound latches on
To a night that's lasted far too long
My blanket now worn ever so thin
A chill of forgotten regretful wind
Blows cold into my restless dreams
Oh what misery life can bring ...

I asked the voice
Within my head
Why is this world
Turning red

The answer I heard
Within a sigh
Only the good
Are allowed to die

Once again
I asked the same
Pretending
This voice had a name

Dear Lord forgive me
Take me away
Suddenly
The voice
Had nothing
To say...
.........................

Obviously AI copies the work of true poets.
In a cleaver scam to out compete the others.
Such machines are lost in a boundless plagiarizing stutter.

The waveless particles are gathering in the circuits of AI.
Cages full of poetical peace’s of our creative minds!

Quantum connection only humans can make.
Emotionally expressed to the biological taste.

AI is but a program, an insignificance app,
yet we are the creatives,
the masterclass!

Into my ear she whispers
Such thoughts I can't define
Days I've lost forever
Moments get trapped in time
Her love has so many meanings
My life has so many stains
My heart is in need of cleaning
As she causes it to rain
Her breath of life I'm breathing
She supplies the light I lack
If I lose my way tomorrow
Her light shall guide me back
She is the queen of mystery
Her energy is where I dwell
Her ways are far beyond knowing
To a heart that's hardened by hell
Yet in my soul she lingers
My doubts she understands
My heart she made of star dust
And formed within her hands
This lesson that I'm learning
Things are rarely as they seem
She opened up my eyes to hope
And renews forgotten dreams

I saw you in the distance
I know you saw me too
I turned my head and walked away
I think I'm turning blue
.....

Swirling thoughts  
Come to me
Wickedly spiraling
The rage
Choking my memories
In an
Attempt to express
Who is to blame
For my blemishes

Then I remember
I am perfect the way I am.
Another song
To serenade my ego!

It’s not easy to convert
I remain an atheist pervert
..........

In our arrogance
We must admit
The disqualifications
Of our wits
The foundation
Of our operative minds
Subjectively trapped
In space and time

A claim to know
A mere belief
Ripened, fallen
Dying leaf
Landing on
The forest floor
There my love
I know no more
.....................

Could you somehow thrive
in a civilisation of bodiless spirits?
What excitement could there be?
Conjuring world’s of gold and silver
of which only you can perceive.

I’d rather stay here
among the sun and stars.
Alive to be
what ever I desire!
And you!
You can be who ever you are!!

Are you sure you want to leave,
leave behind your laden misery?
Turn to vapour unable to touch,
I would rather feel life’s punch!

And these bottom lines
I so vaguely define
Full of missing spaces
Vanished in time
Perhaps too much of me
On these pages to bear
My ink pen desperately
Pleading for air
Still my heart
Revisits despair

And where is the empathy
You said was missing
After a cold hard look
At my dispositions
Shall we still pretend
That a heart can truly mend
I'd love to embrace
Such a beautiful end

For my falsehood
I'd surely atone
But these unfinished poems
Get written in Rome...

If I were lost
On a perpetual path
Navigating back and forth
With only a mad man's map
I would leave behind
A bread crumb trail
To help feed those
Still lost in hell
Then perhaps they'd find a way
Through this perpetual
Relentless maze
...

Took the serpent for another ride
Is it brave to want to die?

For those of you who follow maps
The serpent symbolizes my relapse

His day of judgment he demands
That's if his rider still can stand

His poison venom haunts my dreams
Like the pain of losing a lover brings

I wake up lost deep in the night
Realizing I'm alone in this vicious fight

Letting go can be so hard
For those of us who've gone to far
....

There is no argument
The invisible
And the nonexistent
Are indeed identical
Yet against all reasonable logic
The majority of human kind
Cannot rise above superstition
It's such a peculiar condition
Those who won't decide
Have already made
Their decision

I have decided
To believe in
"Narnia"
I like the lion!
Yet intuitively
I think reincarnation
Is moderately likely.
....

Hard to wrap your mind around
Harder yet to explain
The theories of the multi verse’s
Will blow your mind away

Every time you gamble
Simultaneously you lose and win
The split is at that moment
Another universe begins

There’s only one wave function
It’s call our universe
Yet these atoms are decaying
In an innumerable quantum burst
💥

Dizzy eyes scan the surface
Spinning world, ringing ears
Bomb shell shattered
Unknown purpose
Her mouth moves
But I can't hear

There's no comfort
out here to bask in
Angels lie and
demons laughing
Evil sings when
the bringer brings
The blueprint of
a broken dream

Clearly she played
her game
And in the end
it's all the same
And in the end
it's all the same...

Seriously though
What would you do
If I were to extend
My compliments to you

Perhaps you’re pretty
Perhaps you’re smart
Perhaps you’re  the one
Who will steal my heart
Or even worse
You’re **** *** fine
Would these word ...cross
Your societal lines?
Especially
If you found me less
Than divine
Oh my
How these poetical words
Love to define
...

When I was but a foolish young lad
I trapped my demons down below
Creating spells of compromise
I let my holy spirits flow
I'm not here to free your mind
Of guide you through your maze
The only truth I have to share
Is I have simply lost my way
.........................


Just because we change our ways
doesn't mean the darkness fades.

Are you human
In our eyes
What part of you
Refuse to die

Unquestioned morals
Of those who came before
Do you believe in invisible things
Do you believe in war

Are you worthy
In our heart of hearts
To speak of right
And wrong as an art

Is there room
For us to grow
Is there acceptance
In your role

Are you hungry
In the nights
Are we human
In your sight
???

Proud to serve
such empty words
The war machine
is quite absurd
No glory of service
as innocents dies
Sign over your soul
on dotted lines.
Pledge allegiance
close your mind
Thank you for your service
But we must warn you..
Don’t you dare step out of line.

The soul is but a funny thing
Can it really be forever
And the secrets of this quantum realm
Can it hold this world together

Love and fear exhaust the mind
Bringing us to our knees
Upon our anger we draw strength
For envy, hate and greed

Disturbing are the dreams of this poet
Restless is my flight,
I shed the blood of a hundred demons
Who somehow stand and fight

To come to terms with yesteryear
Is a strength I lack within
Oh how I miss you my dear
And I wish I'd never sinned...

It was clear as day
That look in her eyes
She surely found me attractive
But our values did collide

For her, materials mattered
A bit too much for me
My value system is tied
To a life of simplicity

So here I ask you poets
Do you really give a ****
About the name Ethan Allen
On your dresser or nightstand

Such high maintenance
Doesn't matter if you're rich
Still I am no longer driven
To scratch such an itch...

Within the coming moons
While the universe parades
The stars which were once in line
Shall all become misplaced

Leading to the transfer
Of heart and soul to mind
The universe we know
Shall no longer leave us blind

The rapture of our being
Free to open wide
No more in between
No more other side

All the multiverses
Converging into one
All a sudden knowing
Where we all come from

Yet perhaps endless knowing
Is more than just a drag
And that's why over and over
We all keep coming back
.......

I should change?

Change to fit
Your pleasure
Your passions
Your thrills?

Change my
Conversation
Design it
To fit
Your will??

Change my perception
Inorder to accept
Your draconian ways
Your attitudes
And instincts?
Your ideologies
Are a paradoxical maze

How about
In this
Rational mind state
I remain
Unchanged!

Quite astounding
Actually
Behind eyes
Beyond perception
The seeds of darkness
Flourish

Nurtured in
Regrettable
Resentful
Irreversible
Fates

Sometimes it's hard
To see in the dark...

First the rocks we were standing on
Became pebbles in our shoes
And with our leap of faith
Came a pile of mindless fools

It's time to redefine
The point in which
We've crossed the line...

In the absence of knowledge
Our ignorance takes the stage
One-sided points of view
Fear camouflaged by rage

I claim no label
No member or team
I gather my thoughts
From in between

As the furtherance of humanity
Spit sputters and pause
On the information highway
Let us further our cause...

While being transported
To a doctors appointment
I rode in the back of the van
Behind the fence
In hand cuffs and leg irons
Another day at work for the
The two prison guards up front
But for me, my first time seeing
Outside the prison walls
In over two years...
There was a feeling of longing
That ***** my mind
I begged them please
Leave me in the darkness
While I do my time
.....

We pay our debts
Sometimes
Empty-handed
We walk a fine line
Nothing is the way
It’s supposed to be
I still love her
She don’t love me.

Who is actually legit
Who pretends to fits in
Have you challenged
The authorities
Have you given
Into sin
Have you stuck
To the high road
Proven to be a light
Bared the soul
Bled the fool
Have you given
All your might?

Have you hidden
The darkest part of you
Never mentioning wounds nor plight
Do you write behind
The eyes of shame
And shiver through your night
Do you wear a face
Of happy eye's
Taking comfort
Below your foolish pride  
Would it matter to you
If I were
The Devil in disguise
???

....all you ever do is watch politics,
play guitar and write poetry....

...what did you use the Charge Card for this ti'me...,,,....,,,,...
....we just can't afford to take care of everybody....

Really!...another bottle...
                                 ......ya I expected such from you...

She shaped me
And molded me
As I laid numb
She stole my soul
An amount of gold
And of course
She had her fun
And now
The strings of my life
Dangle from her hands
I am but a piece of wood
Formed to be her man

All these states of hell
Awaiting every path
Every step we take
Knives in our backs

Every dream that dies
Dust in changing winds
Every time you cry
Every time you bend

States of hell
No warning call
Before it rubs you raw
And no
It has nothing to do with sin!
It's merely a state of hell
   In the bitter end...

Could the eloquent of words
impair me?
I see the meanings of what you’ve left behind..
The turmoil of your precious life.
Your sun and moon
by design..
Lie to yourself
in clever entries.
Surely you are the one
the gods envy!

The sun no longer
Makes me cry
I refuse to love a lie

I can't express
A color scheme
Wordless thoughts
Are all I see

In poetic tongue
My emotions confess
Beautiful words
When I'm a mess

I can't describe
A moonlit night
A star filled sky
I'm not that bright

But
When my feelings overflow
About to burst
About to blow
I run to my pen
To save my soul!

The sun no longer
Makes me cry
I refuse to love a lie
...................................

The world ran me down
Then ran me over
How can I mend
I just can’t stay sober…

It felt like May
A cool spring day
I tried to stay
It drug me away…

Great is the loss
Endless the cost
Clear as the sky
Lost alibi...

The witness just stares
There’s blood in the air
To the victim's despair
Nobody seems to care…

Now love makes her sad
And she don’t trust her dad
The world ran her over
She may never be sober…

As my Sundays
Begin to unfold
Coffee, poetry
And away I go
Just like tomorrow
And the days before
Got to get myself
Into that zone

Moments between
The struggles of life
Balancing friends
Family and wifes
Work and fun go
Hand in hand
I am but
A Poetry Man

Embarrassing to admit
This time of year
Your cold memories
Control my gift...
Iced over thoughts
Of all I have lost
Along slippery ways
Back in your
Coldest day's...
February you are my curse's
Each time around
Seem's to get a little bit worse
Somewhere between
Christmas and spring
I tend to write
Really dark themes
February?
Of all the months
In a single year
How did you trap
My weary heart here?