Someone once asked me
To describe you
They wanted an answer immediately
And they wanted a detailed one too

I attempted to find a way
To summarise your existence
And I asked them for another day
But they lack not persistence

Eventually they granted me
A minute amount of lenience
But quite frankly their request was preposterous
And a huge inconvenience

How do I describe someone
So full and complete
Yet so barren and cold
Someone without a heartbeat

I tried to tell them
I tried to tell them who you were
But my words tripped over my tongue
And their interest didn't stir

I played them some of your favourite music
Songs that meant something to you
But I must say they were quite choosy
They hated all the artists you knew

Perhaps they would appreciate a visual
Something to display your personality
You're such a colourful individual
I simply couldn't convey my thoughts ;        they didn't see what I see

I gave up
No one understood
They didn't know you like I did, dear
They didn't know they should

How could they have known
What they'd be missing out on
And now I'm out here on my own
Still cheering you on

And so I gave them a conclusion
In exchange for my release
"He's ripped at every edge
But he's a masterpiece"

No.
No they didn't get it
How could they ?
Did they ever ?

All I think about now
Is how to capture your essence
How to describe how wonderful it was
In your presence

We always did live in our own world, dear
And I know we saw it as our one
But sometimes I wonder what would've happened
If we let them in on the fun

You left me behind
Like something old replaced with something new
And now I'm left wondering
How to capture you

When you choose to end it all
I hope you remember me
I hope that I gave you something good enough
Something at least

When you choose to end it all
I hope it’s not because you are alone
I hope you can know that you still have so much here
You don’t have to do this on your own

When you choose to end it all
I hope you don’t
I hope you sleep

And when you’re given the choice
To sit out or dance
I hope you dance

Arms invite your embrace
Your warmth spreads outward like a wildfire
The rhythmic exchange of the invisible life force dancing to the song of your heartbeat
And I can feel it
The song
It plays hard and passionately and begins to alter the meaning of my own melody
Calling me
Pulling my attention away from my demons
My happy sad
I trace the ripped edges of your being with my fingertips
Slowly mapping the masterpiece before me
The ups and downs of desire diluted by a divider
A wall
A transparent one
And the transparency of your truths shimmer not unseen through the veil of pure ecstasy
My happy sad
I break the veil
Brushing away the curtain fallen over your eyes
And I see
Nothing but emotion
Raw, timeless emotion lost in the treasure island of your mind, clambering to an escape
I grasp for your hand, that sweet instrument of divinity
And I trace the map
My map
My explanation
My happy sad
And you smile
Not at the map
Not at me
But at my soul
Eyes piercing to the depths of me
And suddenly, I see you
Like clouds uncovering a full moon
I notice the mayhem surrounding
And I want to cry just looking at you
My Happy Sad

You're the reason I am
The reason the clouds no longer cover the sun inside me
The reason the frost doesn't bite
The reason every nerve in my body is alive with sensation

Please
Don't leave

You're the reason for the change of season in my soul
The reason winter feels as much like summer as summer does
The reason the trees in the grove of my mind still stand even after their leaves have fallen
The reason the solstice in my eyes eclipses my troubled thoughts

So please
Don't leave

You're the reason we are
The reason you can chip away my walls like the bark of a Grand Oak
The reason for the no longer desolate look in the windows to my soul
The reason for my every painful exchange of breath

So I'm sorry
So sorry
That I have to leave

Daddy the kids at school are mean to me
They say bad things to me
They push and shove me
Can you fix it for me?

Daddy the boy I loved hurt me
He said bad things to me
He pushed and shoved me
Can you fix it for me?

Daddy mommy's bleeding
She's lying on the floor weeping
You pushed and shoved her, daddy
You hurt her while I was sleeping

I can fix it, daddy
I can make mommy feel better
Don't hurt me yet daddy
First let me fix her

Daddy why's mommy so cold
Why is mommy so white
Get her a blanket daddy
Let her rest for the night

Daddy mommy won't wake up
Daddy
Daddy
Daddy!
Daddy where'd you go mommy needs you
Daddy, please, I don't know what to do

Daddy your bed is empty
You left mommy alone
Daddy come back
And fix my broken home

Lack of parental guidance
It's getting harder to stand the silence
So I'll just sit until its over
And await the noise supernova

Rocking in the corner
Screaming, "I'm sober!"
With a needle in my vein
And track marks all over

Owe my life to someone
Someone who gave theirs
I would give my life for someone
To join them on the divine stairs

Rocking in the corner
Screaming, "I'm sober!"
With a needle in my vein
And track marks all over

Coup de foudre
Lost in a locked stare
Gave everything and all my love
So that he would know I cared

Rocking in the corner
Screaming, "I'm sober!"
With a needle in my vein
And track marks all over

Everything I loved
Lost to consequence
Still I'm corrupted
By his influence

Rocking in the corner
Screaming, "I'm sober!"
With a needle in my vein
And track marks all over