I have trust issues.
He talks to his ex
She flirts with him
He sees no problem.
The feeling that someone is stabbing me
My insides bleed.
My skin bleeds
The blood stains my shirt
I need to release the pain
The blade really helps.
Let the blood flow.
Forever not good enough
Insignificant
worthless
Boring
**** me.

I learned something new about myself
I hate when boyfriends talk to their ex
The claws come out
I'm territorial.
Maybe because I'm short
Maybe because I have history with boys cheating
I hate these emotions
They control me
I will protect my territory
And *****,
I'll ******* up.

My heart is aching
My hands are shaking
The blood is flowing
Your knife is still here.
Sticking out of my chest
The silver sparkles
The blood turns black
Reaching my hands out
I grab only air.

I see myself different than others see me
Where you see lips I see acne
When you kiss my nose I think about how big it is
If you touch my stomach I'll flinch away
The pain of my body looking so horrible I don't want to be touched
My eyes may be bright but they always look sad to me
My soul is corrupted by depression and abuse
My past is dark and twisted
I'm ugly
A monster
But some say I'm "cute" "adorable"
This makes me a child in my mind
Not the adult i should be
The mirror shows me how I am
A worthless waste of oxygen

Throughout my body I feel a yearning
I've never felt so wonderful
The happiness scares me
What if
What if
What if
Running through my head
What if
What if
What if
Without you I'm nothing
Nobody wants me but you
Without you I'm hopeless
These what if moments
Breathe through me like the wind in January
You never know what will happen
But I love you
And that will never stop


Your blue eyes make my soul melt. Your touch makes me quiver. Your kiss is like nicotine. I'm always wanting more.

Treat me like your favorite sweater
Wear me until the end of days
Wrap me around you in the cold
Let me hug you as you cry
Love me and cherish me
Wear me until I fade
Once I fade hang me on the wall there
I'll keep you safe from a distance
One day you will replace me
Don't make that day now
As I see your new sweater
Younger and brighter than me
I'll wish you nothing but happy thoughts
I'll yearn from the wall
One day I'll turn to dust
My only wish is for that love
That once was mine
Never fade from your heart
As I float through the air
I hope you feel me there
The dust that landed on your shoulder
Embrace me like an old love.